Geeky Lifestyle – Page 11 – Pinkie's Paradise

I am BACK!

Hello again Island Guests, the resort has been closed for a far while but after doing some mental cleaning I am finally back again. To start off let’s discuss a bit what has been happening with me over the past few weeks.

Identity Crisis

In real life I try to be more and more like my online persona, the cheerful pink bubbly me, which I actually consider to be the truest version of myself. However there are several obstacles in my way to do this. These include my health, but also my family situation. I am an advocate of unconditional love, of being yourself to the fullest, love me for the geek I am and not for the normie socialite I on occasion pretend to be to make things easier and all. On my birthday and date of my last post my dad made a one minute telephone call to me to congratulate me on my birthday, but that he did not have any time to spend with me for the next month or so. He had no time for my birthday or for me, he had one day available to me but unfortunately that day I had made a solemn promise to a dear friend. Something important to that friend, something in the geeky nature. This friend has always been a devoted follower of my tabletop role plays but since his education had called him away on roleplay nights we never saw him anymore. Due to his social anxiety we could also not see that friend in social situations so we decided to host him one big group night, ages before my dad told me that was the only day he had available on my birthday. No matter how important things are to me, if I make a promise to a friend I stick by them, unless I am utterly unable to do so. So I told my dad , that this date did not work out for me and that I promised to give my friend whom I haven’t seen in ages and who missed us dealy a geeky night centered around him.

This was not to my dad’s liking and he told me to stop thinking the geeky things are important, while he blew me off for his band pratice the day before he was available. This friday I would see him again finally and we could talk things out, something I desperately needed, his brother is giving this big Christmas party and he was supposed to show .. as his employee. It would be the only time my sister and I see him before christmas and New Year too. However he cancelled these plans because he could go to some snooty Jazz concert he preferred over seeing his own kids. The whole , christmas spirit along with the message of unconditional love and togetherness made me realise, that I did not have that. It broke me, perhaps I had to change perhaps my search for identity is misguided and I should just be who the wold wanted me to be, perhaps I did not matter. All those happy families on the commercials are also perfectly normal.

The toxicity of happiness

The season did not really help, mother is working with christmas, my sister is moving up north to celebrate at her boyfriend’s place. While I do not particularly mind being alone, the season of happiness emphasises that something was wrong with me. I am not looking for a romance, I am not looking for that sitting near a fireplace and carolling together. Yet the way the season portrays it is, that if you are even remotely loved, you’ll have to spend the holidays together or you are NOT loved. I am more likely than not, to spend Christmas day, and potentially boxing day alone. Something I do not inherently mind, but the tv is making it seems that that means I am unloved. Something I do mind.

November and December are enforcing this to the extreme and are causing me extreme discomfort. It’s the month where I choose to betray myself to gain that fake TV happiness or where I am Alienated even further than I already am. It’s a month of toxic happiness Bigotry and Commercialism try to suppress individuality . While I do have some people who’d want to celebrate Christmas with me.. it’s just something that isn’t happening this year, which is not bad .. but it is made to be so. Even if I don’t have a merry christmas for perfectly valid reasons, the season depicts it as if it means I am unloved .. something am really vulnerable for right now.

No Rest

While I keep struggling and can’t really find my footing until these dreadful days are over, there also is no safe space for me. My place is being cleared of asbestos which means that every week day from 7am to 4pm I have construction workers, chopping ot windows, woking on metal scaffolding, hopping on my balcony and shouting in front of my windows.. day in day out. I live in a seven floor studio, if I lay in bed they see me… they will comment on it. If I play a game they will shout at me that someone like me should not play games or just some other stuff. It created a constant state of anxiety and restlessness that completely broke me down. i did not want to be at home because of the noise, but I did not want to be n the city either because of all the enforced happiness. My best friend, seemed to be moving away from me (which in the end she did not but for the last two months it seemed like she would move a lot further away) meaning she had little time to lunch and only had to look at houses further and further away from me. I could not go to here either like I used to. My most geeky friends turned very reclusive due to similar reactions to the holidays as me as well.. but instead of still ..kinda wanting love.. they just live through their avatars in their mmo’s .. meaning I could not hang out with them anymore either. No place was safe, no where could I catch my breath let alone reset my mind to begin blogging again.

Charlie

It all would change when I had a salon-day with my sister and mother. Mother tried to make a deeper effort to understand me and who I am at that day, we had deep talks and improved our bond, which wasn’t that bad to begin with..just a bit alien at times. Mother is somewhat classical and wanted to look normal in front of people, over the past few years she little by little came to accept that people can accept her while not being the standard either which led to us becoming closer. During the two days we were there we find out who we truly are and to stop filling in ideals that might play in each others heads. It was during this time if I could look over my sisters dog for the weekend. His name was Charlie, a toy poodle (it’s a real dog type not an actual toy ) that has a hint of something else in it’s blood. That was the weekend I really got some unconditional love from the little creature. The three days I could spend with it gave me a second wind, restored some of my ambitions and beliefs. My day with mom and my sister laid the groundwork and Charlie really helped me build the stairs I needed to crawl out my hole. Of course Charlie had to go home again after the weekend and I cried my eyes out after he left, but it felt like an emotional blokkade had finally left me.

A void in me had been sort of filled. A dormant side of me woke up and for the first time in quite a while, I felt alive and that the things I preach feel real again. Charlie gave me my voice back. Unfortunately since the dog is just Co-owned by my sister and a complicated situation there I am unsure if I can get Charlie to stay over that more oftenly, we bonded super well but I do not want to further that bond of those complications can take Charlie even further away. So while the happiness is fleeting it is real nonetheless. It was enough to bring me back and ready myself for a new season. On Pinkie’s Paradise I can decide my own holidays, I can be the me I want, I do not have to be like those people on tv. I can finally relax again! So resort is back open boys girls and all you lovely non-binaries.
Welcome back and welcome back me!

Five Geeky Things about me You did not know

My dear island-guests, for most of you it has become clear that I really like Pokémon, pink and unicorns. There are however a lot of geeky things I haven’t show you yet, so with these post that you’ll find once in a blue moon , here on this tropical island, that you might not have known yet.

I am a HuGe Dragon Ball Fan

Okay this one is no secret, I used Dragon Ball stuff a lot in my posts. When I was just a little girl, we had a tv channel named Yorin, from four until six pm that network would air double episodes of Sailor Moon, Dragon Ball Z and Gundam Wing (I think it was wing.. might have been another series). Having always been a geek, I did enjoy Sailor Moon but I could never really see why they were into guys so much… signs on the wall and all. I did not care about their real lives as much as they were a bit to girly. You know when your like ten years old and you don’t like the other girls because they don’t like you because you move weird and video game you rebel against everything they stand for. I was a bit of a tomboy, being very ungirly at that age… I compensate to this day. The show that followed Sailor Moon though , I absolutely loved.

Guys fighting each other with big sparkly beams! Transformations that did not involve clothes. I devoured the entire series and it stayed with me. I would go out of my way to watch more of it, when GT started airing here that was a big thing. Z already had been repeated about twice or so, meaning I saw everything about two and a half times, though the buu saga only once as the show never ran it’s full length here before. I didn’t like it as much, but hey Super Saiyan 4 looked pretty good. When I discovered these shows were called anime, and there was a whole wide web to find it , I got seriously into it. Having watched every movie, most of them multiple times, the original series, following Super like a fan, many Dragon Ball games later, I still keep up with the lore and trivia. I am very well read in Super Saiyan Grades (No that’s not SS1, SS2 SS3, but SS1-G1, SS1-G2, SS1-Super-Vegeta and son on) the workings of Ki and so on. It’s a fandom I rarely openly show, but as soon as someone talks Dragonball.. much like Shallot from Legends….. I’m Game.

I crossplayed as Tommy Wiseau (Johny from the Room)

I’ve been going to conventions for about five or six years now, sometimes for work , sometimes as a guest, dabbling into cosplay here and there. Pokémon, the Witcher, Zelda, Hatsune Miku, Maids and the likes. Yet one year the biggest cosplayer of my posse and myself both wanted something new to cosplay..but we were both broke. So we came up with a plan, where we could not spend more than 30 euro on a cosplay. The rest would could borrow or take from our closets. He became a Lewdchador.. buying a mexican wrestling mask and making his costume of Dakimakura. I saw a really bad soft curled black wig for three euro’s and I decided to crossplay. I borrowed a black shirt and a jacket from a friend and used some of my own white pants. A water bottle and I was done.

For those who don’t know, Tommy Wiseau is the (allegedly) Polish director of the dramatic love story movie, The Room. A self financed movie that is so bad, it is the best movie ever. There are so many mysteries around Tommy and the Room, like how he got the money and why there are so many pictures of spoons in this movie .. it had become a cult phenomenon
The acting and writing, and directing (all done by Wiseau) is so bad all the scenes have this meme status. “I did not hit her .. I did naaaaaawwwt… oh Hi Mark’ is probably the best known quote from this movie.Having spend only 3 euro so far though I still had budget left. So I asked my friends to all pack a suit and I bought an american football (which is not easy to get here by the way) We played football in our suits, which at one point I still hope to bring as an event to a convention.It was difficult because every time I saw an Eeveelution cosplay.. I had to run up to them and say ‘Hi Doggie’ … Oh the memes!

I’ve been a Star Wars : The Old Republic Roleplayer for many years.

My online persona as it is to day , was mostly shaped trough roleplay in MMO’s. Not the dirty kind and not the dicey kind either, I started that a few years later. It was the kind where you emote your actions and have your characters interact. Kind of like Habbo Hotel Plus. In Star Wars I was Sy’ra Delinda, a twisted Sith girl, who was good at making her opponents sick, confused and playing with their emotions. She was a master manipulator, that had a significant amount of followers, during her run as a character. Sy’ra however was unlike most Sith. She dressed up in all pink, as the colour made her feel safe due to a result of torture she endured in her past, Sy’ra used postive emotions to full her powers, and her catch phrase was Friendship is Magic. While in reality friends were a means to and end for her.. as someone who genuinely loved her friends she gained power from fighting for and with them.. and she felt that if someone protected her with passion because they care for her, it would make them stronger and more loyal followers.

Her beliefs at one point gained so many followers and the character became so powerful, (trough allies) as many roleplayers loved to have a non backstabber person to talk with that the Guild Master , OOC told people to unfriend her. Sy’ra saw a niche in the sith world, in character and like a true Sith exploited that weakness to gain power. The Guild Master could however could not stand that my character could rebel and easily take over the guild due to her sheer support, from inside and outside the guild that we decided that Sy’ra would just go her own way. She outgrew the school and I retired the character, due to people not accepting that playing it smart sometimes works better than emoting godlike powers. Even if they could destroy Sy’ra with the snap of a finger, the fallout would cause them to lose their power in the end. After that no one would accept Sy’ra into their ranks, fearing her because people testified that they would fight for the character without ever betraying her and no one could deal with such a force. So eventually I just let her settle down, no one could touch her in her lifetime so she just grew old with the woman she loved.

I am (usually) surprisingly good at crane games

I grew up in a small town, with very little exciting things to do. My motorical disfunction barred me from joining any sports , as I would never be able to play with my peers and made me a victim to bullying a lot, so I never really could join a club without suffering. So there was only one time a year where our village would get exciting. When the fair was in town. I loved the fair and the rides, but as time passed and my condition progressed I seemed to go increasingly sick in spinny rides.. being a small town.. that and the bumper carts was wall we had. The last one wasn’t an option because as the bullied kid I would be targeted remorselessly. So I got into crane games, the other thing to do. Being big on plushies.. as they kinda were my only friends, anyway it felt good and fun.

Over the years I honed my craft and really learned how cranes reacted and how the weight of a plushie can be used for easier wins. I understand the rules and I can tell you which games are more likely to pay then others. Now that I live in a bigger town I calculate my chance of winning by, looking where the plushies are geographically located in the stands, what are current trends and what is not. Then there is proximity to factor in, never go for one that is not ‘the closest’ to the prize hole. Then there is the weight ratio head to body , sometimes you want things to topple a certain way so they can bounce into a win.. knowing what part is heavier allows you to do that. Then there is the ultimate technique, where I account for events and the number of players a day. On the first day or the first weekend day these machines oftenly have cranes set to lower success chances, while for when example the day when people with Down Syndrome come out to play oftenly have their win ratio kept high, even after they have gone. (It’s a thing in my neighbouring town where they all have a field trip together). Physics, Chance and Empathy…. that’s how I expand my plushie collection.

I have Co-Interviewed Toshio Maeda

Toshio Maeda might not be a name that rings any bells. If it doesn’t good for you , keeping your nose clean. If you do know who he is, well you do you I guess. Before I got dragged into this interview I never heard of the man before. Now who is Toshio Maeda… well he is basically the guy that is responsible for that weird thing people think when you tell them you like anime. I like anime… ‘So you like tentacles groping schoolgirls?’ … that one. Toshio Maeda is the man who popularised the tentacle hentai genre arguably even the founder of it.

So how does a spinster like me get dragged into this. I mean I have sex on the brain about as often as you encounter a person that can pronounce Llanfairpwllgwyngyllgogerychwyrndrobwllllantysiliogogogoch , the place in Wales, correctly. (Assuming you don’t come from Wales) Well I used to work for a blog that was an brancheoff of a dutch gaming magazine. We talked about Japan and Anime in an extremely dutch way taking on fake identities of super dutch names as well. One of our bloggers had mister Meada as a penpal , for his studies in Japanese. So one day he asked if he could place an interview with him .. which seemed like a really cool idea and funny. However as we needed screenshots of their correspondence, our leader deemed that the mail traffic would have to happen through our official mail address. So we could place screenshots that mister Maeda actually was mailing with us. I was the one who managed that email so I became a proxy where both our guy and Toshio would mail to. Then we found out the interview wasn’t very funny and ‘on brand’. It was a bunch of to safe and obvious questions while we were kinda the looney ones that asked weird questions. So I got tasked with ..asking the guy some secret questions, unbeknownst to our writer by our leader. Stuff like.. ‘Did you ever fantasize about being a schoolgirl as well’ but also stuff like .. ‘what is your favorite cereal’ (as cornflakes humor was apparently an onbrand thing because our leader talked about cereal a lot)

He was a really nice guy but his answers were kind of bland. Which in the end made it even funnier to see what he drew compared to what he says.
Painting a picture of a very special man, who in his own way created a lasting impression on the world. He is incredibly down to earth and passionate about the general art of drawing yet with a description as ‘he’s the tentacle porn guy’.. you kind of expect a Master Roshi or Kakashi like figure but he really is just a very normal friendly guy. Very polite to me , being a woman as well as too my fellow interviewer. He highlights that we are not our reputation or our looks, we are our very own thing and if we just make assumptions about others we often assume wrong.

Originally I planned this post to have ten things about me.. but I had too much fun rambling on to keep them that brief. So instead I have some more fuel for a post in the future. There I will be talking about geeky cooking, an anime crush, a mean thing I did, one of my most scary dojikko moments and of course end up in a lewd situation again! See you next time sweeties enjoy paradise!

Welcome to Paradise

Welcome my sweet little geeks! A few days ago I had a bit of a breakdown. Bad luck had gotten me down. Following Pokémon spoilers I did not want to follow to get something to write about felt wrong as well. I want to have my happy place where I can freely ramble about whatever is on my mind, on whatever geeky topic I want. My paradise! Since I like some community feeling at the very least, you are welcome to join me here. Don’t mind the webadress, it will change once I buy a new domain.

Such a lovely place

As you can see my resort is still amazingly pink, a happy little place with a nice pink sunset, lovely beach and those weird Tiki things are a lot less annoying than the ones in Crash Bandicoot. The blog will be a safe space, a haven, a resort. I want to be able to be me, but I realised it needed to be the complete me. Every geeky little bit of it. So this is why I chose the theme of paradise, in the non intrusive non cloudlike matter.. because that version..well it might not be for everyone. Who doesn’t like a tropical island resort?! So that is what we will stick with. Does this means I have completely changed? No! There will always be the pinkness and even pokémon will still be a big part of this blog. Just not every day, that was just to much Pokémon.The poké-poop got everywhere and trust me it’s nothing like Digimon Poop. I love the franchise very much , more than anything even but I also wanted to get excited about others things. We still have the poképool , but paradise also has a movie theatre, a bar where we can discuss things we have experienced and much more. Paradise also has a lot more rooms for all sorts of geeky people to stay! Fun for everyone and even more fun for me!

The Cocktail Menu

So what do we offer in my tropical resort? Well we have a much wider variety of content cocktails which you can come in a bunch if different flavors as well. Reviews, rambles, rants and much more. They are all served under the geeky umbrella with a funny straw and some refreshing voice ice cubes. For now I serve five different flavors. Let me talk a bit about them.

The Movieto

I am quite fond of movies, I love going to the cinema and finding obscure movies to watch. I am mostly a horror-buff but I do enjoy a good animated or superhero movie as well. As long as it doesn’t feature dubbed over real animals or Eddie Murphy, I am good. (Can you guess what my least favorite movie in the world is?) From time to time I will serve you this content which can be recognised by the featured image, that shows a movie reel and a duck! Why a duck? I love ducks! Mostly horror ducks, I even like talking once.. when they are not voiced by Eddie Murphy.. did he ever voice a duck?! He shouldn’t! The Movieto will mostly contain reviews,but sometimes I might talk about a cinematic trend or universe as well. Expect some rage as well because I can be quite picky when it comes to movies. I do not believe we should forgive .. because ‘It’s a movie’ or ‘It’s the Disney Mindset’ or the worst one ‘Little children don’t know any better’ No I demand my entertainment to be at least somewhat thought out! Most of the time!

The Game-Tonic

Pokémon I mostly love for the games, but wouldn’t you know it that I play other games as wel! ‘NANI’ Yes other games! Nothing fancy or so, but it’s something! So I do like to talk about these kinds of things as well. Mostly reviews again, but also more reflective pieces about what I think is wrong with our current game culture and some news I like can be found inside these cocktails. I am not much of a modern gamer though so I will mostly be viewing the classics, remake or original, I love the classic games right up until the gamecube age. After that, well the Wii wasn’t a very nice console if you have difficulty console to have if your motorically challenged so I went with an X-box 360.. it had the same colour! While I own about 70 games on xbox 360, none of them had THAT magic. So yeah expect a lot of retro-fashioned gaming stuff. Yay! It will be delightful! I got so many plans for this already. You can recognise this cocktail by the controller logo and the Owlbear! Why the Owlbear? Because it’s an owlbear!

The Poké Colada

Not everything has to change, so a large chunk of this blog still will be dedicated to my beloved subject of pokémon. Expect the usual suspects in terms of content as well. Trainer profiles, Top 5’s , pokemon reviews, and even my OWLS post this month will be about Pokémon.. to an extend. Everything you used to get from me will be there but of course for the next good while we will put a big focus on Pokémon Sword and Shield. Discussing my journey through the game, reviewing the anime, discussing some of the awesome new pokémon I find and me fawning over Galarian Ponyta. Like I mentioned earlier I decided not to get into the leaks to let some sense of wonder still exists which fills me with joy and it seems more me. Which made me feel like I made the right choice not to JUST blog about pokémon. As much as I had to tell about them, looking into every little bit of news.. just made me lose the childlike sense of awe when I figured new things out at my own pace. I am very much looking forward to this cocktail myself. Woop woop! You can recognise this cocktail by the highlighted image with pokéball and chibi Sylveon! It’s still my favorite pokémon..but now has a competitor. Expect a cage match for my love, somewhere in the new game’s release.

The Anime Spritz

By now those who know their liquor must realise that these images of drinks have nothing to do with what’s in the glass, for one .. none of these cocktails are originally pink secondly they are all in the wrong glass with the wrong garnish…hey I do not drink that much! I just like fruity colourful drinks and it’s a paradise theme. Besides a game, a movie buff and poké-freak I am also a bit of a Weeaboo, I like other anime as well. I like a lot of cutesy stuff but mostly into the weird and over the top thingies. I’ve outgrown basic Shounen a bit , even though I still enjoy viewing some good old Dragon Ball or even My Hero Academia. While I love cutesy stuff one of the animes I’ve never been able to stomach is Lucky Star, it is potentially one of my most hated series.. I just can’t get into it no matter how hard I try. I tend to dislike a lot of the more popular things, while recognising their quality, Code Geass for example I also very much dislike even if I liked Euphemia , I never felt these character were ‘human’ or something. So the reviews I will put out might be significantly different from what you see around I bet I will not just talk be doing reviews though, I will also analyse characters, maybe put them in a pokémon match against each other to see who will win. You can take a girl out of the pokéball but you can’t take the pokéball out of this girl..that would be offensive.I needed a logo to represent anime..which was a lot harder than the other four.. so I chose the icon most anime fans will tie in with anime itself.. the crunchyroll symbol.. then I made it pink because everything is better in pink. There is a unicorn in there as well because they make everything more magical! Hopefully my content as well.

The Martin-ME

The fifth and final sort of content will be my most personal content, stuff that really is about me. This can be very broad and is basically a cheap trick to talk about anything I want when I want. My favorite board game .. says something about me.. so I can place it hear. If I want to talk about cards against humanity instead , I will just review it under the guise of a very fun play session I experienced. From my dreams to my past , from my greatest moments to my biggest fails it all will be discussed under the banner of this cocktail. It’s geeky lifestyle mixed with otherwise uncategorizable brainfarts. So when this cocktail shows up you are always in for a surprise. I can not promise you a Martin-Me every week because this cocktail is best written when inspired and I can never tell when that sentiment hits. Feel free to ask me personal questions in the comments if you want this subject to pop up more! Then I will answer those for you in a new post! Yay! Arrangements!. The logo is a cute twin tailed geeky girl and our little pet companion is a d20, for those who do not know what a d20 is.. it’s a 20 sided dice… and YES that is a pet! Dices have feelings too! If you do not agree go play D&D you’ll know what I am talking about!

Plenty of flavour

So as you can see we will go all in with the new luxurious resort theme. Join the other guests at the resort and get a free imaginary cookie and a lei garland as well. If I get enough of a community we might even open up a pool bar! Pinkie’s Pool Bar does sound kinda need… *swagger-walking-animation* So thematically we should be good. Of course our review system will be themed towards the tropics as well. Pinkie does not grade based on numbers because that makes it to easy for people to attack me about it… ‘She only gave Dr Stone a 6’ instead I will use some very ambiguous flavors for my reviews. I think they speak for themselves.. and wouldn’t you say.. they are super cute!

So with this new direction I would like you to take seat at our imaginary pool, or run around in our arcade or even go take a walk on our beach and just enjoy yourself. You are in a place of like minded spirits, let’s enjoy ourselves together, no matter who you are, where your from or what flaws you have. As long as you are a geek, this can be your haven. Welcome to Paradise.