I am back! Sort of…. I think?

Good to see you again pleasants! It has been a while since I last blogged! I needed a break from it all because I wanted to focus on some of my greater ambitions! So what have I been up to? What is going on with Pinkie?! Well today I will tell you all about my pursuit to become a Vtuber and how it has changed things for me!

Why I took a break

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How my days feel!

So let’s begin at the start! Why did I take a break?! Well it has been no secret I have not been getting out of blogging what I want to get out of blogging! I really DO like the blogging community and you are all such kind and good people filled with passion and amazing penmanship… but for me this past year of blogging there was something missing from it! I have thoroughly enjoyed my interactions with the Paradise Staff and making up the stories in the blog is really fun. Yet on multiple occasions I have talked about how I missed something, and with my staff becoming less active and my Joy pointing out my comment section is often quite empty, I wondered what it was. I struggled to keep up with other blogs as well as I increasingly fell out of love with anime…. No wait that is wrong. I really do love anime, just not as much as you guys do?! I have several passions that trump that and I found them demanding increasing amounts of time.

I made a lot of Vtuber friends. Like the amazing Millie Fuwaffles, Nephillia and the always funny Patumbra, I also made friends with the amazingly talented and focussed Nini Neen, as well as plenty of others. I try to support them but this means watching about a 3 hour stream every day, I do pop in and out a bit but I want to offer them interaction! I want to be part of the community so that means putting in the hours. Through these interactions I figured out what I was lacking from blogging and that was … spontaneity I want to converse rather than just speak? I do like blogging interactions but compared to streams it’s a bit more “flat”. We say “nice post” .. or “you dumb pink cow, how dare you devaluate us by saying our interactions are flat.. you should die in a hole” or something in between. If I have an issue get good advice and my shoulderpads… but never (except with Joy… I love you for it Joy) you suddenly end up talking about something completely different. In a stream we can talk about the game the streamer is playing and suddenly end up in a conversation about the origin of taffy. All of you may know I thrive on randomness.. so this kinda thing is like my jam!

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Not bad.. but it adds a lot of tedium for the casual blogger

I do still have a passion for writing, making up stories and telling stuff, that is still in my blood so it is not like I will stop blogging or that I do not get anything out of it, yet WordPress itself made it less rewarding still. The struggles to get the edit right, the relative amount of effort for a small visual thing no one ever really notices…it took the spontaneity even further away. I have a super cool idea and begin writing and that part is fun, but then comes dealing with the editor.. and it becomes less fun. Glitches, text popping in and out, having to sort my colours every time, it enforced that feeling of .. ugh.. not today for me! So I needed a break and really focus on something I am super passionate about! And that thing was starting my Vtuber career.. and to do that I had to do one of the hardest things I have ever done.

Coming out as a trans-woman

So this one might sound weird to a few of you, as I have in the past spoken openly about this on other people’s blogs! I have always reacted to posts about the subject and in OWLS it was on my “profile”. I have talked in depth about subject matter with people like Mari and Irina as well as some others. Yet on my own blog I never did, so this fact may surprise some of you! Truth of the matter, confessing that isn’t hard at all. I’d tell the truth to all who’d ask. I just feel, and forgive me if this offends you, that you have no business in knowing my genetic make-up…. in all other ways than that I’ve been that girl I said I am.. in fact in the virtual space I have been more true to myself than my parents have ever seen me past the age of 5. You guys have seen the real me…and that is why coming out was so hard for me. I had to corrupt my safe space.

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My flag kinda looks like an oreo with a layer of jam added

In the text based virtual space, I have no tells that my biological truth may be different from my sociological truth, and since non of you are my doctor geneticist or those who need to write me legal documents, the gender versus genetics thing has always been a non issue. However as an aspiring streamer, I need to be confronted with my greatest shame.. my voice. I truly loathe my voice so much so that I am actually afraid to speak up! I am so scared and displeased by it that in fact I CAN not truly speak up. Health issues complicated that even more so it will be a tricky thing for me to deal with.. but since content making IS a dream, I can not have that fear hold me back anymore… and since the internet is how it is “You sound like a dude” .. or ” I bet she is actually a guy” in comments and all… I decided to embrace my flag though it pains me greatly.

I feel in order to chase my dream, I am leaving a piece of my true identity behind. I am a true woman.. I know it! Yet recently it has become a bit of a “trend” or more “accepted” thing to be Trans… which is great..except it feels wrong to me. I just want to be the woman I know I am.. and the woman I in all but the genetical way am! That doesn’t need to be closer defined. I don’t specify my skin colour, my eye colour or my clumsy demeanour either. I am not a “clumsy” woman.. well I am a clumsy woman but it’s not like a subspecies or something. This might feel stupid but in calling me a “trans-woman” I feel like I will forever be denied “woman”. It’s not as bad as being called a dude.. but imagine if your life long dream is to see Disneyland.. but then you are denied entry past Cinderella’s castle?! It’s still Disneyland sure and you can hug Mickey Mouse all the same.. but it feels like you are missing out on the true experience. That is why I reluctantly wear this flag. Trans… is not a state of being, trans is a journey you undertook to finally become your true self. It is fleeting. I know I had to do this coming out to explain my voice and some other things I will encounter as a streamer .. but I am just very afraid Trans-woman will lead into the JK Rowling mindset, where the opposite of Trans-Woman is her “true-woman” or whatever higher level of womanhood she claims to be on in her tweets. It would deny me from ever reaching my destination… and it makes me really anxious… so I struggled with that.

Becoming a VTube

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Now let’s talk about cool things! My path to become a Vtuber! I have made some amazing steps on the way! I am learning more about streaming everyday, and I have found this amazing loving community filled with amazing people who support me and help me and are there for each other. Every time I visit one of their discords it feels as if I am on the floor of an anime convention or something, except we don’t talk about anime that much, we can literally talk about everything. There is a fair bit of anime talk but these people also care a lot about gaming.. much more in the same ratio’s as myself. Where in the blogging community I found people I look up to, and who are very eloquent and are equally as passionate as me , in the Vtuber community I have found my peers. People like me! Who much more share my humor and my quirkiness and a love for randomness. It helped me flesh out the character quite a bit.

For example I made the difficult decision to drop the name Pinkie for my Vtubing. There is this certain pony that completely drowns me out in any search results… except for weird questions like “are Pinkie and Goku in Love” which people apparently googled to land on my blog! I have taken on the handle of Yuni D’uque a japanese frenchie name that is based on my character being a uniduck. D’uque will perform fairly well in search engines once it is time for me to fully start streaming. Most elements are already in play for that! I have my stream overlays sorted out, I have made a lot of visuals, I have my amazing 3d model by Frisout (which kinda clips because she is just a Vroid but it’s an amazing place to start) I have made many new friends and even some collabs already planned. As a blogger I never fully managed to get that off.. because how odd it felt to me! I never felt good enough.. it would be fun but my part would be detrimental to someone else… I do not feel that burden as a streamer.

My New Logo


Basically I have everything I need to be a streamer..except for one thing! A rig with which I could feasibly stream. I need a new pc because I have discovered my system is NOT good enough for that! But that makes it all the more exciting to do this! I have found a system that I am ordering the day after this post goes live and then within a few weeks I am ready to start streaming. I am super excited! So I made a channel promo to highlight what I as a Vtuber will be about! I hired an amazing artist to perform some lyrics I rode to a song that means a lot to me… and of course Disney immediately claimed any rights to make money of that video… but at least they allowed me to use it! So yay!
So I will share that video here with you guys! It explains some new lore about the character.. but also shows she still has plenty of powers! I had a blast making this but you can see a lot of sloppy bits where my computer let me down a bit because I could not do something frame by frame, the laptop skipped a lot of things or jittered a fair bit! I am still kinda proud of it though!

So what about the Blog?

So what is next for my blogging career? Will I stop? Probably not! Will I be as active as I was.. most likely not that either. As much as I hate to admit it, the big issue is the overlap in interests is very little. Vtuber posts do poorly on here, as well as gaming posts (relatively speaking) so it will be a tricky thing to combine. Especially since this thing.. the video content creation thing is much more a passion than writing is. Writing is still fine but really WordPress isn’t.
I will still do creative posts! For example I still have Fred’s anime story about Nudism I need to make and do a Summer as a Pokémon post, as well as an anime story for her.. but again other than that I had very little interaction on the coming up with my own anime thing. So that format I will most likely turn into videos! Not as visual.. as I can’t do art and can only collage.. but somehow I want to do story writing videos where I just tell you stuff. I will also do interactive storytelling streams but I need to sort that out as well.. but let’s just say that some blogging content will turn “hybrid” once I get my rig.

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I do not feel like doing anime reviews, I am not good at them, I still like anime but I always feel like I am late to the party, or I can’t compare Girl’s last Tour to that stage play thing Ian Mc Kellen did , so when say the story just gives me happy feelings where I want to wrap myself in a blanket with a bit of soup and look at it on a day I am feeling sick.. I feel.. inferior. Anime is something I love but to keep it as something I love, I feel I must keep it to myself because I do not care about a lot of things from anime. I do not care for studio’s, I do not really care for allegories, I do not care for animation fluidity yet in a review I can not help but feeling I need to include it. I tried to review anime MY way.. but I feel to make something a review I need to do something with it. You know as if a review is a too defined concept for me to excel at! I am more of a rambler! I know it is all in my head but I can’t turn that not good enough switch off. When I write reviews like that all I hear people being angry at me…because well there is also the toxic culture part and it’s just in my system so hard .. when I review I just hear myself go yapyapyap…. stupid insight, mildly funny joke.

I know most of my readers care way less about games, or about Vtubers but these are the things i am currently most passionate about. D&D as well. So honestly I do not know what I will do blogging content wise. I need to pay for my domain again soon and around that time I will make a true decision! It is unlikely I will fully be gone, but during my three week absence I will admit that I did not MISS blogging that much either. Well that is not correct, I did not miss it’s “static” nature, I did miss blogging a bit. So maybe with some exceptions of stuff that is already written I will treat my blog more like an actual weblog and tell you more about my days, my path of being a vtuber, what games I played and what stuff I watched. Or my general feelings on various topics! Less edit heavy, less pictures. I haven’t found out yet what I want.. and I think that is also okay!

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In the end I still want to build a geeky community, so in that sense not all that much would change about the blog, I just want to bring more spontaneity to the table. We are nearing the second anniversary of the blog. Last year I had two give aways, both with one responder only and after that they became my most spammed posts so this year we will do something else at the very least. What it is , I am not sure yet! But I hope it will be fun. You will hear more about that! I am not done yet! I just thoroughly lost my way. I will admit that I am lost but also that no matter how things will turn out to be alright!

Staff Introduction: Cherry the Chef

Hear Ye Hear Ye, Princess Pinkie has returned with a general announcement! 

Salutations, loyal subjects and sweet island guests! Today is a day of celebration! No, it is not my birthday!  Not the blogs second anniversary either! Though we are drawing close! No today we have yet another STAFF-member join us! So all put your hands together, and give a warm welcome to Cherry the Chef! Thanks to imagination we can replace that old drunkard that did the job before now!  Sure we had Tadokoro Megumi work in the sushi restaurant but in the alla cart place we had this nobody!  Yay for more staff!

Who is Cherry

Like most introductions before, Cherry chose to be introduced by me!  Which means we will get a bit of character backstory! Followed by my experience with the person behind Cherry , her soul as it were, after which we will discuss the content she is going to offer to the website!  I would really love it if people would interact with this post and give her a warm welcome!  She is very new to the WordPress community and making friends is important!  So I hope you guys will be kind to her!  and that you will give her a warm welcome!

Cherry is the first character that comes from a somewhat tragic backstory!  It all started on the island of Kawadrago.  A fire dragon was anxious! She had to find a mate! But she wasn’t interested in the male dragons!  Nor in the female ones for that matter. Sure she would love to have some friends, but she did not want to be fertilised to lay an egg!  She did want that egg..but the whole procedure was a bit icky to her!  Many called this fire dragon loveless! But she knew that was not true!  Because there was one thing she loved more than anything else!  That was eating cherries!  She even had a favorite Cherry Tree. Because the fire dragon did not really have any friends.. she decided this tree was her best friend!  She protected it , she talked to it and was super stoked when the tree dropped her a few cherries. She would eat her fill and then cuddle up around the tree! A nature spirit saw this and blessed the dragon with her desire!  The next day she woke up she found she had laid an egg! 

From this egg, Cherry was born!  She was a half fie dragon .. and  half cherry dragon!   Or maybe a half fire dragon and half cherry! She never got an answer to that question! Her mother loved Cherry very much and until the end of her days, the fire dragon was never lonely again.  Yet when  the fire dragon had left it’s world Cherry was all alone.. and still in pretty much dragon infancy! Like her mother Cherry was an outcast among the more pureblooded dragons! Who’d only associate with pure blood dragons of the four elements! Cherry would get quite angry and threw hissy fits every time she was excluded! Yet her inner sweetness also prevented her from getting into a fight! So Cherry would  go into abandoned parts of the forest and set it ablaze.. watching the fire!

One one such tantrums Cherry discovered she was very hungry! She found a rabbit that had died in the fire as well as some vegetables and fruits that had not burned up.. but looked different then before! A delicious scent entered her nostrils and she decided to consume the fire touched goods! It was the most delicious thing she ever had! For many years Cherry experimented with this.. whenever she had the chance she would  tease the other dragons as well by setting fire to their favourite hide and seek hiding spots! If she could not play she would show them.. and get a delicious meal out of it! Yet despite her spunk, and her newly acquired skill to make food more delicious by cooking it the village kept alienating her! One day while she was trying to see if a fish could burn a bottle washed up on shore!  In the bottle was a letter!  After breaking the bottle and getting the letter out Cherry saw the message read “STAFF wanted”.. An island that was looking for a new chef! One where all the things you imagine can come true.. and where imaginary and real things live? She must go there!

Once arrived, she met Pinkie, the princess of the island! The two became quick friends!  Both loved eating cherries, and Pinkie preferred that other people cook her food!  When Cherry asked for the job Pinkie told the dragon that maybe some normies might be a bit scared of her looks like this.. so she could be like everyone else.. by just imagining her becoming human! A lot of Vtubers do this! Once even a glass of Milk-tea imagined becoming human!  So Cherry tried as well! Pinkie loved her both ways but it would be nice to fit in for a bit!  Cherry had a bit of trouble transforming! Two buns in her hair remained big ripe cherries and one of her eyes still looked like that of a dragon! While Pinkie and the staff was fine with it! Cherry decided to wear some items to cover it up!  Just so she can play and have fun with a lot of people!   And for the first time.. Cherry had found a bunch of misfits like her.. that all joined together! For the first time Cherry was happy!

Nowadays Cherry makes all sorts of meals on Paradise and when she isn’t cooking she is playing pranks on island guests! Or throwing a hissy fit somewhere! Cherry does not like it when something .. anything.. is excluded from something! She even stomped out angrily when Kuro said Pineapple doesn’t belong on Pizza!  She doesn’t even like pineapple on Pizza but people should never exclude the poor fruit!  Kuro is her favourite victim to prank!  She would sneak up to his house at night when he is asleep, then turn bag into a dragon and leave a big footprint in the sand.. making him think a Kaiju is close, and as he runs of in the forest changing phantoms she walks in his hut and flips his mattress or changes the clocks. 

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And sometimes she uses her dragon strength to flip more than just the matrass!

Cherry and Pinkie

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Cherry and Pinkie go back long before the start of Pinkie’s blog!  By now I think we have known each other for about ten years. We first met on the Roleplay server of Star Wars the Old republic. Pinkie had just made a Sith character that got tortured so much and mind messed so up, her brain could not really retain empty information anymore! Things like.. names would never stick.. so she had to refer to everyone.. with a depiction of a word.. a sound or making it concrete to herself. Very dangerous in the Sith community! Especially when you call a Sith called Darth Gaur, Lord Growl. Cherry’s first character did not like my Pink Sith!  My character had a hard time fitting in and had to fight to restore her mind!  Yet among the ocean of super negative Sith being a positive one.. created some magnetism! People  who did not want to play the super stereotype flocked to me.. and Cherry had a character she wanted to try to roleplay around my character as well. A shy Twi’lek who never could be touched.. met with my Sith who wanted to hug everyone!

From that an online friendship grew that lasted for way beyond the duration of our time on Star Wars, Cherry joined my online D&D’s almost every single time and alway is one of the most good spirited and creative players. She heavily veers into the archetype that is Cherry the character, so already she will do a great job in pulling that off. She is also a very loving mother, and that behaviour translates in her everyday reactions to everyone! No matter who in my roleplay chats is troubled, Cherry is always willing to hear them out and cheer them up with a virtual hug! So she in that matter she is very different from her character!

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We both have been through a lot together, shared experiences with our health and our family and while on occasion we talk a bit less, we always somehow end up drawing back together to become a lot closer again! Almost as if it is destined we’d be friends!  So it would be very interesting to see if Cherry will have some of that same appeal to our readers! Cherry has this beautiful fragility to her, almost like a baby bird.. but way less ugly than a baby bird!  She may not be as Seiso as me, if you look at her and see her talk normally you completely forget, you drop your guard and then BAM she suddenly surprises you!  

A mutual (former)  friend once described her as an Espeon, where he was Umbreon and I am Sylveon.. and wdo fit those archetypes pretty well! .. I guess Kuro is an Umbreon as well, Sunny is a Vaporeon , Periwinkle is a Flareon and Indigo… despite being kinda missing in action, is a Joteon!  So I guess we are just a Leafeon and Glaceon short of a full set now! … Maybe an Eevee.. so if you want to join…now that we have Cherry.. we finally have someone to translate our Ikea manuals for us.. so if you join you might get those benefits as well!

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Cherry Cooks up Content

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My beloved friend and the most adorable Cherry-Dragon you have ever seen, will offer some quite unique content for Paradise!  She will be a bit like me , and do a bit of everything!  Some general talks about gaming, geekdom and of course her speciality.. cooking!   Having found a great hobby in creating the best meals, in both virtual as real form Cherry will bring geekdom and cuisine together in a lot of cooking game reviews and maybe even some geeky recipes!  Yet she is also not exclusively bound to this subject! Like I’d imagine a cherry based life form she is free to bounce around and offer content that is anything her heart desires! 

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For example .. in the past Cherry was known to go on big lore tangents and rambles!   Where we would just say … oh I saw a Priest with a Watch and someone said”Heh Tech Priest” and Cherry would go on and talk about the Origin of Tech Priests in Warhammer 40k… Now this particular example never happened but she did stuff like that! For example when I would ask what the correct name for Snorlax and Pikachu from Darksouls 2 was, she’d go on to tell a story that would last longer than a game of Civilisation! And I kinda love it!.. I did not process it all.. but still! I would personally love to see her do some deep dives in lore again someday! So who knows maybe I can convince her to do a series like that!

As for Cherry’s schedule, we need to figure that out still!  My dear friend , like me , is plagued with fairly regular migraines and moments of minor health failure! You know the kind that doesn’t exactly put you in the hospital or the grave but are enough to block creative writing! It’s why I moved to an every other day schedule! So how much Cherry will post will remain something we need to discover over time!  Those who are going to be mean about it.. even if you end up being a die hard Cherry fan, will have to deal .. with me! Well when I say me, I mean my fictional knights.. or me the cruel evil admin!  Let’s all agree that we will not pressure each other and just have fun together! This week her first post will go up though which will be a blog about…… I am already feeling hungry! So I will go grab a snack or even a meal! It’s already quite late when I write this! Give Cherry a warm welcome.. and look out to her delicious content in the near future! Stay random!

That Time The Pink Panther Reincarnated As …

A little while ago Sunny dropped a package at Pinkie’s castle. Hastily wrapped up with some kelp and in the sand near Pinkie’s private beach and flight dock he spelled… Is this okay?! In seashells on the beach. Pinkie opened the package and examined it. It was a story about an already fictional character going on an adventure. The Princess was reminded of her own Dragon Ball stories, or the brainstorm of what would have happened if Ash was a girl. However this was even more adorably retro! So not only was Sunny allowed to post this story! She would really hope she would see more of these posts in the future! So please enjoy this brand new adventure of an old familiar face!

You absolutely must watch and listen to the theme first. Badum badum…badum…badum badum badum bababa baaaaaaaaa dadadada…

The Pink Panther was having a casual stroll down the street, when a glint of gold caught his eye. There – it was a lamp! Rather like the lamp from Alladin’s Tale. Very well then, thought Pink, I shall give it a rub. 

Rather than a genie, the lamp produced a smarmy ad voice touting the advantages of taking a job as a lamp genie! Intrigued, Pink climbed on into the lamp and soon re-emerged dressed as a genie. He approached a number of people offering them wishes, but no one seemed to believe him. The last grouch kicked the lamp – with Pink still in it – out into the street. Still in the lamp Pink ducked and dodged as best he could but a big delivery van came roaring seemingly from nowhere and SPLAT the lamp was totally flattened. Pink had a moment of utter shock as his world became flat, and then he passed out. 

He wasn’t sure how much later he awoke. He was in a rather grand bedroom with rich appointments, sprawled over a bed with satin sheets but strangely enough, he was still wearing his genie outfit. Even stranger, he realized, sitting bolt upright and catching a full view of himself in a mirror across from the bed – he was… he was a woman? A human woman? He stared at himself in the mirror. The only thing that looked faintly familiar were his golden eyes, and that damn genie outfit. Only now instead of hanging fashionably loose over his slender pink silhouette, it was bulgingly full with a lush female body. Long, pink curls cascaded from her head down her back and sides. He raised an eyebrow and cocked his head. So did the reflection. Undeniably him. Her. It was all most confusing. 

A man appeared at the doorway, wearing nothing but a towel and a smirk. “Well. Made yourself comfortable, have you? The costume is great but I’m afraid there’s a bit too much of it. I hope you brought your own music? I’d like for you to dance for me and strip slowly.” The man approached, dropping his towel to display an impressive expanse of belly covered in a coarse coat of hair, which continued down his legs and arms and probably his back as well.

Pink shrieked like a girl – well, what else? – and jumped up off the bed to run around it, putting the bed between himself and the man. Glancing over his shoulder he saw a sliding glass door that opened into a small balcony. The lights of a vast city spread below. Strange sights, a ferris wheel, a huge roman sort of villa, a smaller version of the Eiffel Tower picked out in lights, a pyramid! Where was he? When was he!? 

“Frisky, eh? Well, I don’t mind a bit of play. Now come here you little genie!” The man rolled up off the bed and crouched, then made a dash towards Pink. Pink squealed again and teetered on ridiculously high heels to the balcony. He peered over the railing to see a glorious pool surrounded by lounge chairs and a tiki bar. There was also a raised dais where a strangely attired man leapt around from side to side, shouting on a mic now and then. Lights flashed and whirled and dozens of beautiful women of all ages danced, drank, and swam attired in tiny swim suits and formal gowns.  Every thing sparkled. Pink found himself dazzled and when he could hear the man panting behind him he took a deep breath, closed his eyes, and threw himself over the railing. 

A mighty splash. Screams. And then laughter as the crowd decided it must be some sort of stunt. Especially as Pink was quite unharmed as he began to swim with all the dignity he could muster towards the side of the pool. As he pulled himself out he looked down and realized that he might as well be naked as the see through harem costume molded itself to his ridiculously luscious curves. 

Girls all around him started to pull and push and undulate against him. One bold lass even grabbed his face and dared to kiss. With tongue! Staggered, Pink ducked his head as if shy and raced for the bar. Once he was safely seated on the barstool, he spun himself towards the bartender, who was wearing a dark blue suit. 

“What can I get for you, darling?”

Pink hesitated. He was quite sure he had no pockets in this outfit. He gulped. She gulped. Confusing.

The bartender made a dismissive wave, “Don’t worry about money. All included. Just give me a room number and I’ll put it on the check.”

Pink thought about it. Then held up two fingers. The bartender eyed him.

“Don’t talk much do you?”

Pink shook his head. And held up 3 fingers. 

The bartender chuckled, and poured out a shot glass from a bottle labeled “3 Fingers Tequila” and shoved it across the bar. With a delighted smile, Pink raised the glass to his lips and swallowed. For a moment he thought his throat might actually be on fire. He puffed some breath at the bartender to see if flames shot out. The bartender gave him a funny look, then refilled the glass.  Pink felt a delicious soothing warmth fill his belly, despite the breeze and his wet clothing. The second shot went down much smoother.

Ten shots later…

Pink staggered around the crowd, giggling and stumbling but as much of the crowd was doing the same, no one seemed to mind. The strange man on the raised dias stopped the horrific loud but rhythmic noise and spoke for a few minutes but the words hardly made sense to Pink whether because of a language gap or the excessive amount of system in his, eh, her system, well. 

A bouncy blond woman grabbed Pink by the arm. “You’re just the kind of girl we’re looking for! Do you want to be famous and be able to tell all your friends to watch for you on the MTV broadcast?” she asked cheerily. 

Always agreeable, Pink nodded. 

“Great!” she gushed as she handed him a white t-shirt. “Put this on.” 

Hoping it might be a little warmer than the frail wisp of top to the genie costume, Pink quickly peeled that off and pulled on the t-shirt. Oh! It was warmer!

The perky woman pushed and pulled and herded him and among a group of giggly girls also wearing white t-shirts, towards the raised platform. She lined them all up on top of the platform, to the cheers of the audience. One by one she went down the line asking for their names, ages, and hometown until she got to Pink, who just smiled and shrugged. She said, “Oh a shy one!” into the mic, but leaned in and asked, “You ARE over 21, right?” Pink nodded vigorously. Although really, he wasn’t sure at the moment. 

The woman stepped away and then suddenly from nowhere and everywhere water began hitting the girls on the platform! Most of them squealed with delight and began to dance around, pulling their shirts down to show off their breasts and jumping up and down to accentuate how perky they were. Pink stood stock still in shock for a moment, but then began to scrabble up the curtains behind him to get away from the water! He had quite enough of being wet today, and the t-shirt was almost warm compared to the genie outfit! 

Burly men in black suits came running at him. Pink scrabbled harder and jumped, landing on the top of the dias with the weird man and those tables and things. There was an almighty crash as the whole thing went over. The lights went out. The music stopped. The water continued to fall, but the screams were less of delight than of fear. Pink ran through the darkness until he found a door. He opened it to find lights and a hallway that he ran down as fast as he could stumble in the golden high heels. At the end was an elevator so Pink jumped inside and hit all the buttons, and then sat down on the floor to take those wretched heels off his suffering feet. He was still struggling with the straps when the elevator began to stop at every floor and open for a moment.

On one floor two men dressed in sparkly white suits stepped on, accompanied by a white tiger.

When they stepped off another man with black wavy hair in another spangled white suit – a jumpsuit – got on. He peered at Pink sitting on the floor rubbing his feet. “Don’t tell anyone you saw me honey” he said in a sultry tone before he got off at another floor. 

Then six blue men got on the elevator. Pink stood and looked around at them. They looked back. He smiled. They smiled back. It looked very strange with their blue faces to see such white teeth. Pink shrugged. They shrugged and smiled. They looked around at each other and nodded. When the elevator opened again, a blue man took each of Pink’s elbows and escorted him off the elevator!

They took him down long dim halls and down some stairs. He could vaguely hear applause, laughter, and bursts of music now and then through the thin walls. The blue men took him into a room with mirrors and tables down one side and all sorts of clothes on racks on the other. A couple of the men handed him a dark blue skin tight outfit. The fabric was strange to Pink’s touch, but it looked nice and cozy so he slipped into it and gave the men a grateful smile and a nod before he walked to the door. 

Suddenly, one of the men blocked his way, and kindly but firmly directed Pink to a chair. Well. Really. S/he was rather tired. Pink sat. The blue men bustled about until someone outside banged on the door and said “Two minutes”. That’s when two of the men took Pink by the elbows again and they all rushed up a narrow hall, up a few steps, and out onto a stage! The blue men bowed and the audience clapped and Pink stood dumbstruck by the spotlight. 

The blue men began rushing about and as they did, one or two of them would herd Pink this way or that way until it was clear Pink was part of the act but he had no idea, uh, she had no idea, oh dear. There was a row of drums in a big circle and as Pink ran from one to the next each time s/he touched a drum suddenly a blue man came to life behind it and as they performed a drum roll colored liquid and light of some kind shot up into the air. It was dazzling and beautiful and more than a little scary for Pink! Finally the men danced and whirled Pink until they whirled her right off the stage. She stumbled down the stairs and sat at the bottom as the audience applauded. Her head was still spinning. Where on earth was she? Surely this wasn’t any heaven Pink had ever heard of.

Pink heard music again. But this song was strangely compelling. It drew her from the stairs, down another hallway, and through a door that led back into the lush white and gold rooms filled with people. People of all ages, dressed in all sorts of clothes and colors, but they all seemed to be attached to machine that dinged and booped and pinged and spun wheels and flashed lights and shouted out nonsense phrases like “I’ll be back” and “I’d like to buy a vowel” and now and then there was the sound of coins falling and everyone would yell at once. Still, Pink could hear the music and she followed it until she finally found a door that led outside.

She walked down a long elevated outdoor hall, like a Greek palace, over a garden and water until she somehow came out onto a dingy city street. Lights and noise assaulted her as people pushed and shoved past laughing and carrying drinks and pointing at all the lights. 

And the lights! Big lights, small lights, lights that flashed and seemed to run one after another and change colors. Names in lights, pictures in lights, entire little movies on some signs. A fountain gushed in time to music and lights and people oohed and ahhed and still Pink could hear the faint strains of the haunting song that had drawn her outside.

She walked down the street, her eyes filled with wonder – as indeed were those of many alongside her. A big double decker bus whooshed past her and puffed to a stop. Pink could hear the music somehow inside. She stepped up and a man stepping out handed her a yellow card, saying “there’s a few hours left to this pass. You can use it.” as he smiled and walked away.

Pink held out the yellow card and the bus driver pointed at a strange machine. Someone reached past her and ran their little card through the slot. There was a beep and the bus driver nodded and they went and sat down. Pink slid her card through the slot and the machine beeped and the bus driver nodded and said, “Move on back, hon, other people need to get on.”

Wandering towards the back Pink heard the music again. A young-ish man with shaggy blond hair nodded in time to music. He wore a yellow shirt, and yellow shorts, and a yellow hat. He was as sunny yellow as Pink was pink! Pink sat down beside him and he smiled and nodded. She nodded back and saw then the wires going into his ears from a box in his hand. The music was coming from there. Pink looked intently at the box, and the young man smiled and took one of the wires out of his ear, offering it to Pink. She tucked a pink curl behind one ear and put the little thing in her ear.

She heard, “Welcome to the new age, to the new age, welcome to the new age, to the new age…” Her golden eyes flew open wide and she looked at the young fellow in yellow. He grinned and patted her on the knee. 

“It’s going to be okay, Pink. You’ll see.” 

Pink blinked, nodded, and for the first time since the truck hit the lamp, relaxed.

The Great Change: A Paradise Restyle

Hear Ye Hear Ye! Princess Pinkie is here with a new post! Her first post in the capacity of supreme regent of the Paradise. Salutations loyal guests and subjects! The time has come! Paradise has evolved from a corporation to a nation! A nation under no god (You can pick one if you so choose, but not a single one is right)  and one princess! Located between imagination and reality! Welcome to the new Paradise. So if you are reading this in WordPress Reader, do take a look at our website over on https://pinkiesparadise.com/

Pinkie restyled

As you may know Pinkie is a name for not one, but two entities. The Homo-romantic-demi sexual woman of 34.. I mean 21 years old living in the Netherlands who types and styles this blog, as well as Pinkie the name for the virtual entity and avatar. The one who manages the tropical island of Paradise as it’s manager. The author Pinkie sends the character Pinkie on a quest to find an item that would allow her to reach her Mega-Evolution. You see the virtual Pinkie discovered she was a virtual life form that evolved multiple times and as such she discovered she had.. at the very least… one transformation left. Hopefully being rid of the moth toxins would help her feel better and healthier.. which in turn may help the real Pinkie feel better and healthier… but for that whole story click the link here!

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If people here really read my blog, or those who chat with me in real life people would answer one of three animals for my spirit animal. A panda, a unicorn or a duck. I figured that the panda elements are always intrinsically tied to me due to my lack of libido or grasp innuendo. Since a duck model might be too hard to make I chose to go with the only feasible possibility that will probably mean I am one of the very few people who uses a totem animal like this! I chose for the totem .. that is the majestic unicorn duck! Yet something else needed to change. Over the past year or so I have always portrayed Pinkie as the manager that blogs daily and works hard. I had very much trouble letting that image, I needed something a little bit extra. Someone who is not afraid to coast from blogging every now and again… a flavour excuse ..against my morality saying skipping a day is wrong as it were.. it turns that flavour was changing her from a manager into a Princess.

Which brings us to the new model of Pinkie which is displayed here!

Yay at least virtual me could get a haircut!
My Bag of Holding

Look at that, aren’t I adorable?  As you may see there are several elements to convey all the elements. Let’s first discuss my lovely new dress!  It has a cute frock with hearts, and looks quite a bit more regal! I have a gold crown.. but also a silver crown If I want to look a bit more subtle.. you know.. for when I attend a funeral or something. If you hear some cute little pit pats behind you! There is a chance that it is me on my adorable duck feet! Yes I know that will be hard to model in VRoid ..but you’ll never see that part  in videos so it doesn’t really matter.  There is also duck feathers growing out of me on random places.. but we have found a way to make them all pop out at my diaphragm so it works like kind of a belt.. just below where my corset goes…. the trick is tying the corset so tight I can barely breathe! Another duck element is the cute little duck purse! It is actually a bag of holding so good for all sorts of stuff I need to take out..including power morphers, my magical girl transformation item etc.

Unicorn Mane Twintails

The unicorn-horn holds most of my magical powers..but the duck feather pops out there because I am not an equastian unicorn! I am a duck-unicorn. I can fire lasers from it.. like my Mothra power.. but this time rather than use it for sheer destruction I can also turn everything I hit into marshmallows. I have most of my mothra powers. I can fly, am immortal and can create gust of wind.. this time by plucking a feather and tossing it.. it will create a kawaii tornado. The toxic scales are gone though! Instead I can use the magical heart gems on my outfit to heal others.. or make them play nice with me!  This is also why violence on Paradise island is not possible at all!  Love and peace!  I can switch between my forms.. but I really like this one!

This amazing new avatar was made by the great artist Jezzychii!  For just about €30,- let’s say $35 dollars I had this full body commision within two weeks after ordering! She is very versatile as well and very soon I will commision another piece with her to get acces to some emotions! If you want to check her out please do at:
https://www.fiverr.com/jezzychii

Redesigning the blog

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A new era comes with a new banner. Yet both Sunny and Periwinkle had a bit troublesome designs to use in a banner. Sunny’s design was made in a variant of the software I used to make the first Pinkie.  It looked close enough to Kuro and Indigo though to use as their actual avatar. However it gave me a lot of trouble composition, as it was only a face I would always be locked into a banner where everyone was in that pose.  Which will become an issue with STAFF if we ever grow. Periwinkle made his character in the days that Chibimaker was no longer playable and found a similar piece of software but it was too simplistic. Which resulted mostly in linework issues.  So I downloaded the program called Flashpoint which allows me to play Flashgames still! It indeed had Chibimaker and thus I created Chibmaker counter parts for them. I had one for Sunny already but now I could unify the style of my staff. This is what I came up with in the end.

A new banner with all my Nakama
New Favicon

I wished to incorporate magical girl and tropical elements in the banner. So I chose a backdrop that feels like a tropical sunset.. but added some sparkles and hearts to also make it feel like a magical girl transformation background. I used a new more princessy font for the title and implemented my brand shade of pink #ff89cd Which is also used for the palm trees.I added the staff and myself to the picture as well as the coconuts.. which also represent the reader and I had a banner I could feel happy with! It feels busy… but very on brand. The border around it is a princessy photo frame that will now be used in several other assets to feel as if separate elements in the blog are all part of the same image, yet also separate.

Jester Pinkie

You may also have seen the chibi version of me hiding behind .. me!  I decided to bring her back as a character on the blog. Mostly she will feature in Paradise stories but she also will double as a Mascotte that  may appear in pictures I make or in general tomfoolery. Maybe she can be featured in some posts from the past! Or overly jokey posts! Oh the possibilities! She does to bonk people on the head with her jester-wand-scepter thing a lot though so she is oftenly in bonk jail! She keeps escaping though and thinking up pranks! I dread the day that she runs of to K and cooks up something really devious!

The frame used in the banner as said will be a recurring element in most assets. Such as the new cocktails/featured images.  Cutting out a round shape for cocktails can be a bit of a hassle and these pictures really did not perform well in my new theme. Instead I opted to go for a more stretched variant, with a cocktail in pink as well as the frame. With an icon depicting what kind of content it is like before. This looks a bit more clean and can be saved as JPEGs rather than PNG’s which also saves me on tons of storage space. I am considering making uniquely coloured variants for the staff, with a cocktail of their own.. but I decided to make these achievements.  With a custom coloured frame unlocking after say 50 posts, your custom cocktail at 100 posts! It gives the staff something to strive for! I think that should be fun!  The icons will be:  A SNES controller for gaming content, a movie reel, for movies and series, a smiley geek for geek content, the crunchyroll logo for anime (open for suggestions for another option for that)  a pokeball for pokemon and a typewriter for fan fiction.  Not much changes in that aspect. The cocktails that will be posted into every category rather than having a rainbow will have no logo and are deemed universal.

Sweet Sweet, ability to edit in featured thing more easily! Also yay Pink!

Finally I changed the blog theme to Chronicle, I needed a change up and really liked some features this theme had to offer. Such as highlighted content per category.  The ability to use banners of any size and just feeling right for the princessy theme I am now going for. It’s a bit busier than my old theme but it has that “sparkly” feeling for me. Just something new to wear for the next year or so. It still lets me use featured images in the way I want it too but now with stuff zooming and stuff happening. It all feels just a bit more… Pinkie! It doesn’t hurt that this theme can utilize my signature shade of pink either!

Redesigning Paradise

Like I said in my 500th post, content from my end my shift a bit to more lighthearted whimsey. Cartoony.. which applies to my “reviews” as well. I will react to them like a spoiled little princess.. or the sweetest magical girl and look at it from a more raw emotional angle. So think at a sarcastic princess talking about burning down a Uwe Boll movie… or a sweet little girl protecting the childhood memories of a movie that is deemed pretty bad by the internet.. but that she kinda secretly loves. Also a lot more weird “my brain” things where I wonder how pokémon taste and such!  For now I have dropped stories like “What Bad Luck, I got reincarnated and now I am a Side Character”. I have Elle’s journey mapped out and one day I might return to it, but it really lacked an audience. Instead I will be doing more stories set in Paradise.. much like how Sunny does, written as stand alone stories..almost comic like. For this very reason I have designed a map of Paradise, which will show you the general layout of Paradise! Which will also be featured in our new About Page. (Pending at the moment of writing)

The Map of Paradise is handed to you upon checking in..and shows up on that weird tv channel hotels have!

What doesn’t change though is that we are still welcoming to Staff Members. I post every other day, with Periwinkle having one or two posts every week and the other staff posting incidentally. I will keep looking for STAFF until we basically can consistently put out a post every day of the week again. So mostly in the anime department I am looking for someone who’d like to join the STAFF still, so if you are interested in joining a lovable band of goofs!  Feel free to give us a shout!  YouTube will be less of a focus for now as my health is recovering, but in time will be implemented more in Paradise. Existing as two sides of the same coin rather than being something separate. Of course Staff members can integrate their other content as well if they wish. I have this dream of people creating content together, all getting a penny of Kofi money or likes in their own way.  Everyone is doing their own thing yet doing it together as well. That to me is Paradise.

I am trying to become more active on other peoples blogs again as well and come back to OWLS as soon as the relentless migraine attacks let up. I am pretty active during my daytime but in the evening I get downed pretty hard. So right now I only have half days!  My blog comes before OWLS right now.. because to be part of OWLS I need to be able to blog to begin with. So there is that. By all means I should get over this soon though, normally this is a seasonal health thing..but with how weird things have been it all has gone on for much longer.  But yes I do plan to be more active in both gamer and anime blogger environments!

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Energy is returning to Paradise and I hope to let it show.. both on blogosphere and on the fictional island itself!
I thank you for your hard work reading this posts loyal subjects! I would really appreciate interactions, likes, and of course comments. What do you think of the new theme and look? Do you think Unicorn Duck Princess Pinkie is a better fit for me?! Now I worked hard enough for a princess.. so I shall retire to the royal chambers. Shine on my subjects.. Tata for now. Oyasumi!
Oh and did you know I have a new Kofi Banner as well?!

Pinkie’s 500th Post: Reflections and Ideas

Hurray! Dear Reader welcome to my 500th post! While I missed the mark of 500 posts on Paradise , I  was in time to do something about me reaching 500 posts. So today we will do the obligatory Reflections as well as discussing content for the future, you know the road to 1000.  So what was it like making 500 posts?!  Take a look with me! During these 500 posts! I laughed, I cried, I learned and I adapted and this is a little journal on how!

What Have I Learned

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Let’s first take a look at the growth I made!  As a writer, I do not personally feel I have grown all that much!  I still make silly mistakes, I still am long winded but I am also still me!  Throughout almost two years of blogging now I do think I for the most part always kept track of me.. all posts feel like me! I can recognise myself in my earliest writing , the middle and the end.  Even though I changed content a lot in these 500 posts, there is a certain level of me in all of them that makes me feel at least a little accomplished. I also learned that maybe that very almost indescribable thing that is the “me” that is in that post is what keeps people around. I can change up my content a lot but people will still be there. Except for gaming posts around older games, those really usually bomb!  I might need to delve deeper into Gaming WordPress to grow further. 

I tried many approaches to things , but I also learned that blogging in a way can be a bit addicting. I wanted to put a post out every day,  I wanted to do two every day even.. but I realised with how long my average post is.. that is not something I can maintain.  I spend so much effort to get posts done.. just to break even at the end of a day. One post goes in, one post goes out! I need to be blogging every day, need to be edditing every day and need to be able to consume content every day as well! I discovered I struggle with episodic reviews,  they are easy enough to produce but they hardly give me any gratification. An episode summary feels redundant because people who read these things often seen the same anime, yet you can also not got without the summary so half my post already feels redundant. It will also kinda force you to find negatives about an episode and it made me feel whiney and unhappy!  So after a massive burnout.. I decided to end them. I needed to be happy!

My current schedule of blogging every other day already works a lot better for me!  I am  creating a post every day still, sometimes more, but this time around I actually plus on blogs.  I write two.. one goes out, one is still in cue. This is much more managable with my health. If I have a bad day.. I can now accept I have a bad day and just don’t produce. I can go spend a day with my friends or family without feeling obligated to blog, I feel a lot more free. I could also write shorter posts and write several a day… but that’s not me! I need to think more and correct myself more! 

That’s not my style.. while I may repeat myself a lot now and talk about random stuff in the middle.. what I write comes from the heart.. it feels to me more as if I am talking to you.. and I rather have that than styling out a post! I read a lot of how to blog guides, and a lot of tips to be regular and consistent to be neutral and all of that, but to me that may work to get you an audience.. but that might not work for you as a blogger. I love you all, but I learned  that audience is secondary to yourself having fun.  You can’t write if you hate doing it! Sometimes that means letting your audience down…or not growing as fast as you could. So be it! I am sorry, but as a hobby blogger your first responsibility is to you and your hobby!

 My Highlights

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Now I love all my posts and never will favourite any of them, as the others may cry so I won’t be going over my favourite posts!  Yet while creating this blog and while doing things I have come to experience a few highlights. The first one is minor but I just had so much fun! It was while I was creating my post for OWLS-Minicon , my post about all the convention plushie dealers around the world.  While that post tanked hard and not many people cared about my passion for plushies it was a great experience to get to learn some new people. To get that feeling that I can do at least a very little something back for those people who provide us with these amazing dealers rooms!

  Even if we don’t buy their plushies,their games or whatever, think how your dealer room would look without them.  Empty.. not fun, even if you don’t buy their goods you still like browsing the stall!  Some of the interactions I had with those people were fun and super grateful! Not a people may have read the post or they disliked it just.. but to me I felt closer to the geek community then I had in a long while!  I may have not been able to bestow people that convention feel.. but I sure got it!

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 Another Highlight was my decision to look for Blog STAFF! It has offered me a nice platform of great people to interact with, with the coming of Periwinkle the STAFF chat has really livened up!  I love geeking out over things, and even some of the random discussions we have!  I am so happy to have these people in my life! As well as the awesome blogger crowd visiting me of course.. but with the STAFF  it is just something special you know!  A long time ago I worked on a blog with friends and I loved that feeling, and that feeling is beginning to return a bit now!  Paradise is growing and I really love it. 

Yet another highlight I had , and this may sound silly is being included in K’s ,Which Blogger are You test.  It wasn’t exactly that I was included that made me happy, it was the fat that I answered my questions very genuinely  and it spit me out!  I have a lot of fun making my images, dong the whole paradise thing and trying to have this “brand” as it were.  I wasn’t sure if it worked. I hide a lot of fun details in a lot of my images, or go to some weird effort to make an egg reflect in the water.. just because I want to give it a try… I never really get reactions to this.. but the test showed, it got noticed. I try provide content that is off the beaten path.. and oftenly  those post perform badly in terms of likes,,but this test showed me it was noticed

As the scatterbained loon that I am I often interacting less with people than I would like, I read your blog on my phone, then go to grab a cupcake, I like your post as I enjoy my cupcake.. but then I see on my pc on twitter that another person also made a new post! I go read it and forget the like button! I oftenly type comments to people and as I search for a strong joke to end on I end up petting my Pikachu in Pokémon Camp and it shows me an apple and I forget to enter my comment or sometimes I get to anxious to reply.  I feel like a horrible person a lot of the itme because of it.. increasing that anxiety… yet by being included in the test.. I got a feeling, okay so perhaps I am not as much as an outsider as my mind makes me out to be.. perhaps i do belong here!  I may be weird and distant..but I am approachable.. and that really made me smile!  Irina’s attempt to explain me trough anime characters was another one of those things.. and it even gave me an idea for my next restyle. When she called me the sports team mom, with a hint of ojou-sama

My Lows

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Today we will celebrate so we will not stand still with my lows a lot, but I made a few discoveries about blogging and content creation in general that made me feel a bit…disappointed. A big thing was a realisation I made. While I really do love anime I don’t enjoy it in the frequencies that most others here do. I watch anime once or twice a week and I am content with that. Not always that long either. I am not sure if that is enough, I don’t feel alien to the world of anime but I can not really shake that “fifth” wheel feeling.  I am not being subjected to active gatekeeping, but when I walk into a discussion I do feel I am in over my head. I do not feel I have much to contribute.  I always end up freezing up and just letting others have their fun discussion without bothering them with more basic shows!

It is a feeling I have come to learn to accept , the eternal Kohai but it is a feeling I did not expect when I began.  Anime is great and the anime community is fantastic but I never expected it to be this “overwhelming”. It’s  all about the anime. In a way I’d say the community is a bit more nerdy than geeky. With which I mean: At a convention you talk to strangers and they ask you , how is your bubble tea, where did you get that figurine or if you vaguely know them, how are you.  I will always have an answer.

The Online-Anime-Community is more “ Have you seen Astra yet?”  “Someone did a Gatekeeper Tweet” , “Miss Kobayashi 2 trailer looks shit”. These discussions can be fun, but  I always wonder.. does my voice in this really matter?! Meanwhile, compare that to the question “How is your Bubbletea?” I know my answer is going to be relevant. This is not a flaw about the anime community, just a misconception I had. I have had a rough time coming to terms with that.  I have since made friends I talk personal with like Summer and Mallow, but also many others, but with that voice that tells me I am not good enough, or watch to basic anime it has been a bit of a struggle. The demon on my shoulder never fully goes away and keeps telling me, people will abandon me because I don’t watch anime daily!

Another lowpoint I have had with blogging is WordPress itself, it has given me more trouble recently! Just when I get into a rhythm they change it up and put something that was never an effort before, behind an extra set of clicks or scrolls. I had my favourite types of blocks with one click away and now I constantly have to search the block I am looking for.  Recolouring things can be a hassle because with a new update I can’t drag and drop because now you just have to click!  I learned so many hex codes just to avoid this problem!  WordPress still is a great tool, but at times it feels so clunky! As if I am dragging through mud! It’s worth it.. but I don’t have that much energy to give. So if I need to give extra energy things grow skewed quite fast. It’s a shame that I have to design my blog keeping things in mind such as “It’s not worth it to recolour that thing, cause that glitches out half the time”  or “better not add in that type of images as I will have to rescale it twice to make it fit”.  The fact that I have to click a random button before I can activate my WordPress Bell is another thing. I often find myself thinking.. I’ll do it later than, I can’t be bothered with the hassle right now! 

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WordPress Reader is another thing I have come to dislike! It is an easy way to check out other blogs fast, but it has also become an issue. To my knowledge it doesn’t show YouTube feeds. I recently tried to do YouTube but paused it because my health got in the way! I will now come back to it with an easier to handle model and a bit more flavour. Regardless, Reader doesn’t show my posts as pretty as I want them to be, my videos don’t show up, my images can look a bit more yankee, and the themes I work so hard on are not displayed.  It’s as if people see you trough a broken mirror. Sure it’s you but a lot of effort you made to put on make-up is kinda lost. They just “recognise” you. It also results in a lot of ghost liking, which once again feeds that stupid demon.

My Future

Despite the whole Reader thing, I am planning to do a new Restyle really soon! This current style has been here for almost a year now! Minus a month or so, some minor changes took place, but this will be a big one!  New theme new icons, new Pinkie!  Manager Pinkie will soon be upgraded by a ruler of Paradise with a new flavour. The VTuber theme will still be going but the moth will be replaced by something new!  Something a bit quirkier and something that is a HECK of a lot easier to build a VTuber model around. 

Something more unique as well. MothTubers are almost all lewdTubers , there is a group of them.. but all of them are pretty non seiso!   Which made me feel alien AGAIN! Besides that it was such a hassle to deal with those wings! It always looked fabricated to me as well. So when I went to have her commissioned instead.. I had change of heart and went for a theme that is much more in line with me rather than be a metaphor!  I can flavour it a bit more as well. The restyle will arrive later this week.

I stopped doing episodic content because with my health that has been the hardest to keep up!  That requires a schedule and I do not want that anymore. It gives me stress and on a mental level forces me to do content and currently I can not work under those circumstances.  So no more episodic reviews, and less reviews in general.  Rather than reviews, I’ll do rants or raves!  Me being super positive, absolutely loving something, or me just having fun burning things down to the ground! (Think AVGN style) It won’t be subtle.. but it will be a lot more fun to do. I am also trying to the same with something that utterly confuses or baffles me.

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Now I know something isn’t  100% good or 100% bad or 100% weird and that’s also not what I am trying to achieve with these newer formats. I really hope there is someone that loves what I hate, and I am pretty sure there is someone who hates what I love and that to a certain extent they will have a point. However I feel we have become a bit too afraid to give our unbridled opinions. It’s time to either praise something, or burn it to the ground! The latter usually in a so bad that it’s good spirit though.. or at least so bad that it’s interesting. It will be a bit wacky.. but it will be fun!

Speaking of wacky , that will be much more a theme going forward.  While as a Moth Pinkie , before my second major burnout in a while I tried a more journalling type of approach to things, that doesn’t work for me. I do a journal with my Blogging Bestie,  Summer now!  Gaming in step by step content didn’t work for me though! I felt I either had to slow down my gaming, rush it or struggled with screenshots. It also made me serialise everything and I can’t do that.. my health is to fickle! 

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So instead you’ll see me tackle wacky games, anime or movies while also doing wackier things myself with my content in the form of stranger lists, more odd tags and of course more random content. I already did another Never Have I ever, with random prompts, post (for the near future)  I also made a weird new tag, which probably not a lot of people will be interested in joining..but that’s not what it is about.. it is about me doing quirky things in familiar settings.  A lot of it will be “fan stuff. Things like “If I made a Super Mario Movie” or how will this Anime couple look 20 years later. Stuff like if Kamina and LeLouche played a game of YuGiOh.. which one would win.  I will also just watch weird stuff and tell you how I feel.. Movies like Swiss Army Man, or me Playing a Cho Aniki game!

The STAFF will of course continue to do their down thing, but by growing bolder and bolder in my content I hope to inspire them step out of the box as well! The box is an illusion.. inside the box you can be both  dead or alive.. and while we don’t know if you are alive or dead inside your box.. you are both.. therefore you are dead in the box per definition!.. I guess not if it’s a translucent box or an oxygenated box but either way… don’t be shrödingers cat!  Step outside your box! There you can be alive for sure! And that will be a theme clear on Paradise.  Also I plan to use a bit more pink after the restyle! Just so you know!  Yay!  Onto 500 more pink posts! Then I will treat everyone to Pink cake!

<spoiler alert>  the cake is a lie <end of spoiler> 

Happy 500th to me! And thank you guys for coming along in the journey!

The Great Change: A Paradise Story

My dear little lights, the story I have for you today is a new adventure set on Paradise Island, while based in fiction it is also based in reality, just not a whole lot. For the most part this story is just a figment of my imagination..  a springboard for what is to come next. A teaser.. for season four?!  I hoped we could get a few famous guest stars but unfortunately all of them are still locked in their houses due to Covid. Brian Cranston told me he would do it.. but that guy is so overused!  So I passed!

The Beach

The manager of Paradise Island woke up, making some awful wake up sounds, wiping some drool from the corners of her mouth, apparently she bit on her plushy in her sleep again.  Groggily she got up and noticed a feeling of pain and nausea in her system. The dull experience of either a to low blood pressure.. or that sense of uncomfort you get.. just before you get really carsick! Not the  actual sick part.. but that bad feeling you get before. That was her new normal now.  No matter how many vitamins she took, no matter how much walks she would go on and no matter how healthy she ate.. the feeling stayed and it wore her out so often. For days the manager could not get out of bed and she cried. She wanted to make the guests of Paradise happy with all the content cocktails she used to serve before. Yet there simply was not enough energy! Could it be the poison from her own mothiness that kept her down? Unlikely! This problem started slightly more recently.. around the time she started YouTube.. but that dream also gave her so much energy? So what could be wrong.

Doctors could not tell her and explained to her that this might be an advancement of prior conditions. They were trying to help her but no immediate help could be offered, and so yet another day without content cocktails passed on Paradise. The Manager got so frustrated by it that that very frustration made her even sicker. She tried to work.. but for the first time  since she started it all did not sound good enough either. This could not be her glorious return.. and the frustration got bigger and bigger… and because the manager was such a worrywart.. that frustration made her sicker and sicker. Eventually she just lay in bed.. with some lemon tea beside her when she started hallucinating a beach where you encounter all sorts of familiar people…because Grey’s Anatomy did it and it’s really popular now!  So we are doing this.

The sound of the waves were different from that of Paradise island.. and they sand grains weren’t star and heart shaped…which is an actual thing,  no this was not her beach.. this beach was something more akin to that Train Station where Harry Potter met Dumbledore  after he was killed.  As the manager walked on the beach she noticed her footprints left no impressions in the sand.  “The Fudge”  she said.. when someone pulled on her dress. It Design 1 Pinkie.. the Chibi Maker one. “Hi” she said.  “I am the ghost of Paradise past”. 


The Manager patted the O.G. Pinkie on the head but then said sternly. “No!, we are not going to do that, I love you and respect you but we aren’t going the Scrooge route with this story it is so overplayed” Chibi-Pinkie sniffled a bit. “Aren’t you glad to see me then?”  The manager smiled. “Of course I am glad to see you, you are always welcome here and if you chibi maker was still thinking I would use yours more oftenly”. She paused for a moment and hugged the chibi. “Look, I know I had less fun with blogging then when I just started okay, I have become disillusioned with a lot of stuff and might be a bit bitter, I am not striving for the community anymore, and in a way that is wrong but realise this, that is not because I do not want to give these amazing people my attention, I just really lack the energy”.

The Revelation

Chibi Pinkie looked sad and asked “But they are your friends, surely they deserve your time” to which the manager nodded. “Of course they are.. but writing and making content is also my hobby, right now when I am done writing something, I need to lay down that’s how easily fatigued I get, I want to try to be there for these amazing people but it is hard to balance it all and I am looking for the balance, as much as I appreciate you, my sweet Chibi self.. I think I need to  find that balance myself, I do not need a vision of how I changed. So tell me who the ghost of Paradise present is okay?”  Chibi Pinkie nodded and said “It’s Periwinkle.. you used to spend so much time on images and now he isn’t even added to the banner yet”  The Manager chuckled.

“Yes.. I was planning to do a new banner.. but this whole story is kind of the reason why that new banner isn’t there yet, there are more things changing so he’s gonna be on the banner that is coming soon, I promise” The manager smiled looking at her former self.. and then had a thought! “Why don’t you stay around for a little.. I might have a job for you if this story is going where I think it is going.. and I should know cause I am writing it. “Soon we will reveal your thing too”  Chibi Pinkie cheered! 

“So who is the ghost of Paradise future” the manager asked after the celebration was over. “It is your best friend in the whole world,”  Chibi Pinkie said.  The manager smiled. “Ah I haven’t seen him since just before christmas”.  She then looked up at the sky and called out it’s name “Tamago Tomodachi, come on out I know you are there” Please come down from the sky and bestow us with your wisdom”. Both Pinkies looked up to the sky as a fried egg descended, smiling.. and smelling. “Yay it is I the ghost of Paradise Future, come with me Pinkie I have to show you a vision of….”  The manager waved it away “Yeah yeah yeah.. we are skipping that part, we know I have to change.. but how… but let me ask you first.. how did you become the ghost of Paradise Future?” .

The Egg pondered a bit and then began it’s tale. “Well You see, this is a Christmas Carol spoof, and when the three ghosts are brought up the third ghost usually is some obscure cameo of a character you saw in whatever franchise does the spoofing”.  Pinkie nodded as it made sense! “And how do I change.. I mean.. the moth stuff kinda seems wrong to me know”. The Egg shook it’s yolk. “It was not a mistake Pinkie, it was a step you needed to take to find your true self, anyway to find out how you become the new you, you first must discover what you are”.

“Find out what I am? I am a Kaijuman , I went over this a few times”. The Egg nodded while closing his eyes looking all smug and wisey. “While this is true, it would  narratively  prevent the development you have commissioned that will arrive in the near future. So nay you are not just a Kaijuman”. The egg spilled some yolk into the ocean as  giant eggplants grew from  that spot. Just to remind the audience this was a fever dream of sorts… maybe?!  “I am VTuber and VBloggger does that have to do anything to do with it?” asked the manager. “Yes , you are a virtual being, only existing in the online atmosphere.. So what would be an other word you could use for this” said the egg, while trying to look like a japanese Kung Fu master, which isn’t easy if you are just egg whites and yolk. 

“Fake”? asked manager Pinkie. “You are to sincere to be fake” the  egg said. “Digital?” Asked Chibi Pinkie. “Correct little one” the egg now said. The manager pondered and then gasped. “Wait , I am a digital life form that over my nearly two years of blogging has evolved three times… each form bigger and more powerful than the other… am I a Digimon?”.Tamago Tomodachi smiled and said “I can not imagine we would be allowed to use that trademark..but you are basically exactly the same” The manager then shivered. “Does that mean I have to be shot by my family to achieve my Mega Form?” . Her best friend laughed so hard more yolk fell and  the ocean almost became entirely obscured by eggplants. “No, that final evolution needs something different each time, you need to find an item this time”

The Item

Pinkie was very confused by this revelation, so I am something like a Digimon, but not quite…. because of copyright stuff and such.. and I have been trough my Rookie, Champion and Ultimate form.. and to find my perfect form I need an item?  What is the logic behind that?” The rich buddy of the manager finally stopped laughing  and said “Travel to fictional Japan and it will be clear”.  The manager got annoyed and crossed her arms. “If I leave here Periwinkle will let everyone piss in my pool! Indigo has been gone for  while now, Kuro likes to drink from her own bar and Sunny is Sunny. I can not leave this place alone! I am the manager!” The egg nodded compassionately “And there-in lies your problem, you are to weak right now to work every day… you need to become a ruler of this island that doesn’t need to be here every day, so you can recover and get your strength back” . Both Pinkies crossed their arms “And what type of boss would not need to take care of her staff all the time” they said. Tamago Tomodachi  replied sternly. Go to Japan inside your imagination and find out.  Once you are there you will be given your final clue.

“Guess I can finally use these wings for something,” the manager said while picking up Chibi Pinkie. “Let’s go little one” As the two zoomed across the ocean they both realised they were lucky that the fictional Island of Paradise was located somewhere between Fictional Indonesia and Fictional Japan.. and though the power of Imagination and fueled by laziness and limited energy it turned out that this island was a heck of a lot closer to Japan.  Chibi Pinkie and Manager Pinkie did have a bonding moment though where the little version enjoyed flying on the big version. I Imagine you should imagine something like that scene from the Never Ending Story movie, with the song Bastian’s Happy Flight being covered on the Kazoo.. with just enough difference to not be deemed the same song. Landing somewhere in Tokyo the pair immediately spotted a green little turtle. “Oh look it’s our friend Mallow” Chibi Pinkie said.  Manager Pinkie nodded “How convenient, he is always willing to help, I am sure it will be no different this time”. Chibi Pinki, Mallow and the manager shared some takoyaki together.. because… when in Rome and all that. Mallow had revealed to them that the item they would need was at Sony’s headquarters.

Making their way through town the Pinkie’s wondered why it was Sony’s headquarters. Sony is more a Periwinkle thing.. maybe Kuro and even Indigo. Pinkie rarely even touched her PlayStation… was it that? Was she catering to a wrong audience and tapping into the playstation crowd would save her?!  She still felt more like a Nintendo person and most of the content she had planned for the future would be Nintendo as well!. Inside Sony’s headquarters everything seems odd.. as if everything was a really bad anime. Everything looked a lot cheaper. “Have we run out of budget?”  Pinkie wondered to herself?.  They took an elevator up and Manager Pinkie promised to find a place for Chibi Pinkie by her side as a mascot of sorts. Rantan , her current mascot, kept floating off. When the elevator doors openend the delegation of Sony was ready for Pinkie.. they bowed to her. “Weird? Why are you bowing to me?” The Sony delegation cracked a smile at her. “Periwinkle..puray… baaaad peeeeee -eeesss tuuuuoooo game-uuuh, he spenda… lot of money on.. Pee-essss tuooo. So.. if Paradisuuuu remain…….we…..get money….. so we helpuuu. 

Pinkie pondered and then figured, they could be right. Her “employing”  Periwinkle did lead to someone buying American Chopper on PS2, not many people of sound mind would do that , so in a way she was helping Sony get rid of a lot of unwanted stock, maybe he could tempt people into buying these.. like their own Angry Video Game Nerd.. but.. ..with a lot of urine in her pool. But what item could PlayStation have to make her Non-Copyrighted-Digivolve into something beyond a manager?  Did they have some magic power?!  Was it because they have the best Digimon games? When the president came out with a mysterious box it suddenly dawned on Pinkie… as he bowed in front of her and opened the box and a smile appeared on her face and a sparkle returned to her eyes as she uttered the words. “Yes, I think that will do nicely’ 

The Paradise Weekly Gazette 8 (11th to 17th Januari)

My dearest little lights, another week came and went!  While the blog still is quieter than it used to be this week, there has been a bit of an increase since last week so we are well on our way of establishing myself as a moth!  Big things loom on the horizon as I have been trying and very much failing so far to make a live 2d model of myself!  I might really need to hire someone for that!  Or get a lot better at making a model!  So far I haven’t even been able to really make shapes though! Anyway let’s check what happened last week!

Pinkie’s Posts

This week I tried to bring a bit more diversity , and it resulted in some nice interactions!  I never expected to find a fan of Princess Peachie’s  YouTube Channel here but I did! That was pretty amazing! The reactor has been following me for a while but we haven’t interacted that much so that was a definite win!  I also had a nice amount of reactions on my “Gadgets/Toys” blog!  So all in all I am a happy moth!  So let’s put everything in a row in case you missed it! Click on the cocktails to visit the posts!

I lost my first Moe in my Nuzlocke!  Read all about cute anime girl death right here!?!

I glorified Princess Peachie the YouTuber on my channel! Check out my feelings and my favourite episode here.

I looked at a lot of lamps and Kaiju goodies since that is what a Moth-Kaijuman should do! 

I did a complete take on Kanto in the scenario that Ash was a girly girl!

I saw Zombies sing their first Idol Song and I loved it!

I reviewed on of the favourite games I played lately

I am still building supplies of content to make blogging a bit easier, I have a lot of stuff done already, like 5 other episodes of my Moemon Nuzlocke and four more Final Fantasy VI Rom Hack posts. They won’t all come out next week though but it offers me so much security! I am having a lot of fun making those posts! I am really doing what I want to do! I haven’t been in the mood to watch lots of anime recently, but I have continued watching Cowboy Bebop so a post on that will come out next week for sure! I might do another Zombie Land Saga episode as well! Slowly picking that up after my burnout!  I have made some random topic content again, as I would play “Never Have I Ever” on some random website I found, and I will keep a promise to a Patron and turn them into a Pokémon!  I am also telling you about another of my Favourite YouTube series.. this one has to do with cards!  So yay! Content surplus!  I only have to write the YouTube one still!

Camp Coconut Updates

The Coconuts have been nice and quiet! They have been cleaning up the island after the whole Mario Kart Race we had going on last week!  The Woo Woo Fishy Coconut actually won that race and got a nice little trophy handed to it by King Coconut himself! They said it was the most beautiful day in their Coconut lives, which isn’t that surprising as they haven’t existed for too long!   This little Coconut , a patron to the island,  has since taken a bit of an ego! Fish and Dragon Koi’s are left everywhere for Sunny to clean up! It uses it to tell stories about great catches and always brings up the race results! The Island Guests seem to be loving the little drupe’s tales though!  

If you want to have a coconut that is represented with a link to your blog upon clicking on these coconuts consider supporting us on Kofi! Or by helping the blog in any other way!  I need someone who can turn my avatar in a 2d model for a good price, so if you know someone let me know and you can get your own Coconut as a finder’s reward.. or if you are a modeller yourself, you can even pick whatever fruit you want to be on the Camp Coconut Page and you get all the shout outs you want (as well as a fair compensation of course). Keeping my dream alive! Any form of kindness is appreciated so even if you don’t know anyone just leave a nice comment or say hi! 

Pinkie Away From Paradise

So I decided to rename this passage because Lockdown has been continued here!  It’s dangerous to go outside.. stay in!  Since I do have weaker lungs then most I have been quite reclusive last week! That pretty much means I have been glued to my keyboard. Aside from blogging we had a bit of an expository D&D  and this monday we should have the story arc climax, I prepped a lot of stuff for that this week! I’ve also purchased Face Rig and some other software to help pursue my VTuber aspirations, currently looking into video editing software that is laptop friendly and not too pricey.. just to get me started and so I can dabble.   Mallow gave me a great tip. Since I have a weak voice I probably need to look into text to speech!  In between blogs and games I experiment with that kind of stuff!

I spend a fair bit of my time watching movies!  I eat around 8:30 PM right now as a movie is on TV! Thus I have been watching a few movies! I watched my first ever Godfather movie , being Godfather 3… I.. .did not like it very much. I also watched Lethal Weapon 3 and 4, I liked those fine enough!  The fourth one had some issues with it’s story being a bit forced though!  I loved watching Stargate and Demolition Man. The absolute worst movie I saw was the “horror”  movie called Mother!  It is just strange for strange sake and there isn’t any rhyme or reason to it! Arceus what a slog! I kept hoping it would become good!  I am planning to get a shower bath thingy so I can relax my muscles a bit more!  I’ve been shopping for a sweet deal but haven’t ordered it yet! It’s sold out at many places and I really want a pink one! 

I have also been watching a bunch of VTuber things and some rewatching Princess Peachie’s princess in Japan series, mostly while doing my Nuzlocke! (I play that without sound..which can give me a bit of trouble).  That may have resulted in an unneeded death but at least I was hella entertained while I did this. I am not a big fan of how the songs of Gen III sound. The Pokémon Emerald, Ruby and Sapphire movie is to trumpetty! It sounds harsh and I don’t really enjoy it! I also use speed up a fair bit to make battles go faster which also ruins the music! So all the more reason to use speed up! Well at least until I become a Vtuber and can use those slow animations to read and interact with chat in some way shape or form!  Not a lot going on socially for me last week as I have been a bit anxious here and there, but everything is A-Okay now!

Posts that Impressed Pinkie



Hotpot-San is a person I do not visit enough! She’s a bit out of my league in terms of depths quite often and has seen so many things I haven’t so mostly  she leaves me scratching her head. It doesn’t help that she isn’t on WordPress but on something of her own design!  However sometimes I do see her promote a post and I am immediately amazed. The reaction of “casuals” towards deeper anime is a thing… are they wrong?!  Are they close minded? Decide for yourself and join the discussion! 

I want to watch more genuinely romantic non lewd Yuri! I want to watch more Idol Girl shows..  I can either dream about finding a nice girlfriend or dream about becoming an idol! But what if I could do both at the same time?!  With the newest Love Live spin off show I might be able to do the same. Space Whales made me put this anime on my list of anime I will want to watch…. I will forget I will forget for sure.. but maybe if I remember that there was this one show I wrote about wanting to see I can just browse back in my Paradise Weekly posts! If I don’t forget that as well… I really should have become an Elephant Kaijuman.  My memory is great when it comes to dialogue and useless stuff.. but names go through me like a meal through a skeleton!

Iridium Eyes reviews a lot of anime that isn’t exactly on brand for this moth! Even Hikaru no Go which I picked up isn’t really my “brand” I do like it a lot.. but it isn’t exactly my brand of anime!  One of these anime that never was on brand for me was Ghost in the Shell, I watched it after the Scar-Jo version and honestly… Nah the anime is still better, but I would not rewatch any time soon. Curtis points out some of the flaws of this beloved anime, while still talking about it very lovingly and I think that is a very good thing!  We need to be able to see nuances and the flaws in our favourites just as much as we need to see the good in movies like The Room and Dragonbleeeeergh Evolu*vomiting Moth noises* … nope can’t say anything nice about that one.. regardless. Curtis made a great write up about a classic!

Scott talks about the meaning of giving Anime numbered rankings, and how they are all subjective, I actually went and put a lengthy discussion answer on this , but subjects like these really fascinate me!  I like these! I totally agree with what he says but I also think there is another side to this! So if you want to join this discussion click on the gundam  head and give his post a visit.. based on how many likes that post has gotten , most of you already have though!

That concludes this post , have a Kaiju-sized GREAT next week and hopefully I will see you all on Paradise and your blogs! Again if you know someone who can help me get a model rigged please let me know and you will get a Coconut as a reward as well as my eternal thanks! If you an rig models, reach out to me and maybe we can come to a agreement.. and no I don’t mean I’ll just advertise and want it for free! I am not like that! I am cheap..but not THAT cheap! So Elon.. if you read this.. I recently learned you make about 775.000 dollars per minute.. all I ask you is for a minutes worth of money… maybe two if you really want to make me happy that is all! With three would I would start a new faith in your name!

Pinkie Writes: What if Ash was a Girl Redux: The Kanto Story

Hello again little lights! Did you know Moth’s love beer and bananas?! No that doesn’t have to do anything with today’s story I just wanted to say it! Wait does that mean I am drunk all the time?!  I don’t want to rip off Irina! Maybe she is a moth… then again.. she could just be Russian.  Lamp!  Uhm! Anyway it is time to rewrite Anime. What If Ash was a girl was one of more popular SEO things.. so I decided to pick it up again, as I strive for being a Moth VTuber. Let’s take another look at this story from the eyes of a Moth VTuber.. from far above.. and a little more impatient.. so rather than a series we will cover the entire first season in a single episode.

From Ash to Ashley

Ash is a late 90’s anime character that functions a bit as a blank slate. He is the son of Delia and Ketchum and (unknown father)  I am not even sure if he is a Ketchum or she started using her maiden name again. What we DO know about Ash father.. is that he is a Pokémon Trainer who to this day wanders the world to be a Pokémon Master. However since he never came up we can assume his achievements are.. nothing to write home about. Travelling without getting results. Thus Ash is almost a carbon copy of his father.. at least for season 1.  In the late 90’s the boy character would be a copy of the father while the girl character is a copy of her mother.. with a twist here and there.. and so we can establish a good baseline for Ashley!   Ashley would be a very different person than Ash.. as she would more likely be much more like Delia than the father. Which will result in some interesting changes in this journey. Delia having a more educative mind would mean Ashley would be a bit more studious and way less rebellious.  Since the Ketchum household does not have a man of the house it would also mean professor Oak  would probably have a much closer connection to Ashley!  In the pictures we see him take care of Delia in her husband’s absence so with no man there that offer would extend to Ashley!

This will lead to Ashley being much more knowledgeable about Pokémon from the get go but also a lot less brash.. It will also lead to Ashley not having a Pikachu as her starter.  As a result of her more girly upbringing she would have watched the study program her mom would recommend , rather than a battle show that makes Ash toss his Alarm clock to shreds. Ashley being like Delia much likely has all sorts of plushies around to grab instead.. plus Delia being  closer to her daughter would make sure she would wake up in time.. as well as Ashley herself having set the Alarm way earlier…after packing plenty of underwear. Ashley would arrive at professor Oak on time, knowing a lot more about what it would take to become a Pokémon master.. researching like her mentor.  Thus she would pick Bulbasaur as her starter.. naming it Flora.. because those who don’t nickname their Pokémon are terrible people! Like naming your dog, dog! Since she is more like Delia, she takes care of her stuff better. Naming her plushies and all that, which she will also do with her Pokémon.

Note: The Ashley Models are actually based on Episodes off Ash Crossdressing. He does this about four times in the entire series .. I simply recolored to match Delia more closely

Bye Bye Butterfree

Ashley would set off on her journey and like Ash encounter the spearow and pidges. However.. since Ashley has always been  protected she lacks Ash bravery and boldness. Instead she sees a flying Pokémon and it is super effective against her Bulbasaur, she would not dare to fight. At one point she would just flee from an angry looking Spearow and run away screaming. This would lead her to meet up to Misty who gets her Tsundere mode activated because Ashley is scaring away the fish. The two begin to talk and Ashley calms down.  Seeing a girl in a dress with all her underwear wrapped in plastic, rubber kitchen gloves and who knows what else in her backpack makes Misty be curious how this girl would be a trainer. She seems more like a Housewife. Hearing Misty talk about water Pokémon would interest Ashley however.. those are weak against her Flora, she could catch one of those. Misty teaches her how to fish and the two bond a bit.  Misty has a bit of a youngest sister complex.. but this girl makes her feel like an older sister a bit. She decided to teach the girl her ways and travel together until she reaches Cerulean city.. with Ashley learning to catch a Pokémon and catching a Poliwag.. naming it Dewdrop.Misty reveals her Staryu earlier.  Since no Pokémon are hurt the pair doesn’t go to the Pokécenter. Team Rockets raids the Pokémon Center and gets away.  Since the pair of Misty and Ashley had no urgency they would arrive later, only seeing another successful rate by Team Rocket.

Passing through town Ashley would pick up a strange yellow stone, she has no idea what it is.. and it seems to have fallen from the sky. Something seems to be inside it, this will come into play later and assures we can keep Team Rocket an element in the story. They go to the police office to turn it in but Jenny refuses to take it.. it’s just a stone.  Ashley calls up Oak and tells her she is in Viridian city like Ash did.. Professor Oak tells her it looks like amber.  The next day  Misty and Ashley travel into viridian forest and encounter Ash caterpie like usual.. but Ashley is a girly girl.. so she is scared of bugs! They run away and Caterpie feels a bit sad. No Caterpie means no food to distract Pidgeotto.. so no Pidgeotto either. Ashley does notice though there are a lot of flying Pokémon.. so in the Viridian forest she actually finds.. a Pikachu.. they are there and Ashley constantly has encountered so many flying types would want something to deal with that. Ashley’s Pokémon will be Gender swapped from the ones Ash will have, so all her Pokémon so far are female.  She does manage to catch a Pikachu which she names Amber.. after that weird yellow stone. Ashley would tend to groom her Pokémon a bit.. dress them up, because as per Delia’s advise.. she carries WAAAAAY to much stuff. Rather than facing the Samurai in Viridian forest, here the pair will encounter Team Rocket for the first time.  They want that stone back.  Knowing they are Criminals Misty refuses.. even though Ashley wants to avoid conflict.. the pair get in a fight and using her new Pikachu , Ashley wins her first battle.. Less convincingly so though!  Team Rocket then plans to get the Old Amber from Ashley for their boss.

Note: In Pokémon Games it is a semi tradition that female trainers have female Pokémon, this only came into play later.. but since Ashley nicknames Pokémon and grooms them it comes into play earlier. Also girly Pokémon were already shown in the series hence the decision

A Sweeter Brock

With a team like Poliwag and Flora you would think Ashley would not lose to Brock.. however since she was afraid to battle her pokémon had no battle experience causing her first loss. Flint helps her train up her Pokémon and discover some battle spirit along with Misty trying to help as a training partner. Misty already reveals her Starmie.. allowing Flora and Amber to train against it.. unlike Ash , Ashley DOES win her first gym badge legit on her second try.. Brock sees her growth and that same desire he had when with Ash would occur. He would join them on their journey.. trying to seduce Ashley a bit but Misty harshly puts him under control.. like she normally does.  Traveling with two girls Brock’s demeanour would be a bit less Casanova and instead make the seduction a bit more subtle.  Since Ashley is knowledgeable , Brock doesn’t need to be the exposition canon he is in the original, nor does he have to be the constant chef. He needs a bit of an alternate function so instead of cooking, he actually makes pastries.. making actual Jelly filled Donuts and of course still his Pokésnacks. He also functions a bit like a motivator for Ashley.. he often tries to defend the party but will often get taken down forcing Ashley to step in..so in a way he is like.. pastry chef Krillin.. in terms of roles.

During the next part for a while there won’t be any major changes in the story. The only difference is that in the fight between Ashley and Misty.. which in the original got interrupted by Team Rocket, is already over by the time they step in. Ashley knows Misty well and she already has more insight in her team and with Delia’s character evaluating abilities she easily outstratgesises the impatient Tsundere girl.. slowly we see Ashley come to enjoy battles more. Mostly though when she knows she can win!  Team Rocket gets defeated as well like always.  The Poké Tech university episode we will retcon as the introduction of levels in the anime was retconned anyway! Instead they encounter a school where they play Pokémon Card battles.. those cards had levels and just would be a sport of its own! Cross Promotion to sell other media seems like a good pokémon thing as well.  Everything at the school got retconned later so might as well get some mileage out of it.

Next we get to the point where Ash caught his Starters.. however there is a problem. Squirtle and Bulbasaur in particular are redundant to Ashley’s team.. so instead all three of our heroes get one each. Brock catches the Bulbasaur using his Zubat, Misty catches the Squirtle as it’s a water Pokémon and Ashley gets the Charmander. Ashley is a lot more careful with her catches so she does not hit her catching limit as fast as Ash. However during the Gary encounter it is revealed she has a major crush on Gary.. who in return has no respect for her. During the first part she would not have met him. Ash saw Gary leaving and he was late and live far away. So Gary must have been kind of late as well.. thus not have an encounter with Ashley early on.. at least he would not have picked a starter yet. Because she was there a lot in his youth he keeps thinking of her like an annoying little cousin and being a total jerk like he normally would. “Smell you later” makes Ashley think he likes her perfume and she is in some heavy denial, looking up to Gary and his giant Krabby she goes looking for her own.. Tiny Krabby is caught but only after seeing Gary’s first.. Ashley, missing two Pokémon however still has room in her team so Krabby stays in the party.

A Better Trainer

The whole “No Thunderstone” event in the third gym doesn’t happen. Ashley would not use a Pikachu against Lieutenant Surge anyway, her electric attacks are not effective. Instead she is worried about this battle, and Brock offers to trade his Geodude for her Krabby, (since the trade on the SS Anne won’t happen because there is no Butterfree)  she agrees but like Ash with his Butterfree decides to trade it back and face the gym with her very own Pokémon. She already got attached to Ruby. Here we see her take an Ash-like Strategy for the first time, making Poliwag hypnosis Surge Magnemite and having Charmander take it down afterwards. (Which is super effective, because Steel typing would be a thing even if it’s not discovered yet) The second fight is Bulbasaur versus Raichu and using Leech Seed, Ashley wins this battle. .realising that Surge quickly evolved Raichu will lack speed. She wins her third badge and Poliwag evolves into Poliwhirl. One major Retcon on the SS Anne event i would like to make is that James isn’t as cruel to his Magikarp.. it is later established that he is such a sweet guy to his pokémon even if they aren’t strong enough. He doesn’t buy the Magikarp at all because him having a Gyarados would kind of be overpowered. Instead he spends his money on trading cards and gets a “rare” card.. that is just a sticker taped over a Magikarp. The rest of this part happens as per usual.

Now events won’t change until the Sabrina gym, though Brock and Misty begin to comment on Ashley not catching a sixth Pokémon. Ashley however says she doesn’t want to send a Pokémon to someone else unless she absolutely needs to .. she won’t catch a Pokémon in vain and then have it not of use to her! Once again taking more after Delia. The Sabrina fight would see Ashley overwhelmed, however.. being the knowledgeable type and an understudy of Oak she knows that getting a Ghost is kind of useless.. after all the only ghost type here is weak to Psychic. Instead she discovers the laughing trick herself. She sends in Krabby and Sabrina chuckles at it’s size and Kadabra chuckles as well. Ashley will let Krabby make funny faces and foam beards and beat Sabrina with it! Brock remarks that Ashley has super sharp training instincts..(much like Ash does)  but also has some  serious knowledge and ghost type wasn’t good in her time! Also.. we are not making how often she dies into a meme! So no getting crushed to death my a chandelier!

Different but the Same

From here on out we see mostly small changes or seemingly small. Ashley does catch the Primeape like Ash does, the cap Primeape stole however is in her bag! Her father left the hat, and she keeps it with her a lucky charm of sorts. Which means Primeape can actually keep the hat this time around. The Erika Badge is where Ash crossdresses for the first time.. however there is no need now, this means no Rocket intervention in the fight , but Ashley struggles a bit more due to not having anything that is effective against the Grass trainer other than Charmander.. which she did nickname Fresa by the way. Krabby was named Ruby and Primeape she named Captain. Captain helps her a lot in this fight as it is neutral against the Celladon city Gym Leader, while most her pokémon are ineffective. She really wants a flying type.. and maybe a Rock type to face ice and bug pokémon better as well and of course flying.

Why did I mention the nicknames? Because he liked the cap so much or she in this case. Why do I bring these nicknames up now? Because this is the point where Ash gave away Primeape his second pokémon, Ashley however never had a Butterfree to give away… and she won’t give up Primeape either.. since she nicknames everything she is even more bonded to her Pokémon so she can’t give it up.. Also  there aren’t that many fighting Pokemon and she would know!  Rather than leaving Primeape at the P1 challenge right now she promises that once they win the Pokémon League they will do this together!  Primeape wanting her to be part of that agrees. Captain stays! So will all her Pokémon.

Ashley catches Muk and like Ash finds it smelling nasty.. However after learning Koga is the next gym leader she keeps it on the team, Nicknaming it Amethyst, she sends Ruby to the professor for now.. but will be seen swapping Pokémon out a lot more than Ash so none of her Pokémon would feel neglected.. she would wear a little mask to  interact with Muk though. Most other events would stay the same except for some Pokémon choices.  Ashley instead of Tauros catches a Chansey which she names Fabergé in the Safari zone and an additional one to send to her mom to help her with household chores. Now that she is gone she wants to provide help for her mother! Much like Mr Mime did in the original.. but Ashley’s mind would go towards this a bit sooner. No insane amount of Tauros though.  No Tauros what so ever instead when Ash fails to catch the Snorlax.. Ashley succeeds and she replaces the Muk slot with it. She names it Moon. Why does she catch an original owned pokémon?.. It’s not owned this time.. and now having a Bulbasaur , A Pikachu, A Poliwhirl, an Old Amber and a Snorlax you might see where I am going.. Ashley’s team will evolve towards being more of a team that resembles Manga Red’s .. because the two have a more strategic mindset and it is less starter heavy, making them seem less OP and her more like a real trainer.

Ashley’s Charmander evolves and it begins to disobey her. Unlike Ash this means she doesn’t keep it on her team, she has a stern talk to it.. taking a bit from Misty’s teachings and just sends it to Professor Oak telling it to come back once it listens to her or it won’t battle anymore. She then takes back the Krabby since the next battle will be Blaine. The Togepi thing happens like in the anime.. but Ashley feels really upset Togepi chose Misty feeling something is wrong with her. She finds solace in her own Pokémon strengthening their bond. Nothing changes until the Blaine fight.. on Cinnabar Island Ashley would revive the Old Amber into Aerodactyl.. to stop Team Rocket from ever bothering her again. She names the pokemon Marble. Marble replaces Flora for the next fight while asking Flora to talk to Fresa at Oak’s. With  Ashley swapping Pokémon in and out the feeling arises that everyone is more a part of her team all of them come with her on the journey. 

Like No One Ever Was

Ashley completely washes Blaine away and is beginning to win easier and easier, showing how much she has grown.  After getting troubled by Jigglypuff again, Ashley actually catches it, setting a trap for it while wearing Earplugs.  She is like her mother and wants to take care of it and the Jigglypuff clearly feels neglected. She can’t let that go so she goes out of the way for Jigglypuff to be included. She names it Sir Good Knight (as Jigglypuff Originally was a girl and all Pokémon get get swapped) and sets it to professor Oak for him to use it to tuck her Pokémon in.  Up until the Viridian gym battle we see no changes and even here there are very little changes. Team Rocket Battles Ashley and they are defeated as per usual.. however.. here Team Rocket is defeated for good! As we see them blast off again leaving the badge.. they fall into the Police station of the Jenny  where they robbed the Pokécenter first, they are put in jail and never return to the show again.

The Pokémon League starts the same, and most events that happen beforehand would take place in a very similar fashion.. again just with some minor battle variants. Gary would win and so would Ashley.. this time Ruby the Krabby evolves after ACTUALLY getting experience and it makes sense that it dominates the fight as Ashley actually trained it up pretty nicely! Ashley wins her second and third round without much trouble much like Ash and in the fourth round we see Gary get eliminated like he normally would. The bellsprout fight happens as per Usual except Ashley now Actually has  a bond with Muk so it makes more sense. 

Ashley asks Gary to cheer her on.. but he tells her he doesn’t have time to see losers lose, or something else Gary likes.. Ashley gives up her toxic crush on Gary but has trouble focusing on her battle with Ritchie.  A mirror match,  in teams happens in the fact that both use their Pikachu with Ritchie’s one coming on top.  In the end due to a swapping error on Ashley’s behalf due to feeling so hurt by how cruel Gary was she sends off Fresa the disobedient Charmeleon having taken the wrong Pokéball from Oak wanting to get Captain or Snorlax or whomever. Charmeleon sees his master is heart broken and realises she will be more sad if she loses. She remembers being rescued by Ashley and how much she loved it .. realising how much a brat it had become Charmeleon evolves into Charizard and beats Richie’s Pokemon. Ashley moved to the final 8.

Captain, Moon, Flora, , Fresa, Amethyst and Marble would carry her into the final four!  Ruby, Amber, Dewdrop Fabergé and even Sir Good Knight would carry her to the final. A parcel would be delivered to her.. from an unknown sender. A cap much like Captain has.. but girlier.. made to fit her sits in a parcel, with underneath it a Waterstone to evolve Dewdrop into Poliwrath. Did her father send this?! Is he somewhere in the audience?! As Ashley walks into the arena for one final match we skip forward in time leaving the ending ambiguous. Three friends are walking on a road that splits into four other roads. 

Everyone holds and it seems like everyone is walking a different route. We don’t see dialogue… All we see is a close up of Togepi crying as Misty is strolling down a route by herself.  We then hear footsteps catch up. Ashley joins her best friend telling that even though the journey may be over there are plenty of elements in the pokémon world left to uncover, she has heard that in some far away regions people do shows with their pokémon. She also has heard about a region called Johto so maybe she could try the gym leader challenge  there.. maybe she’ll win …. before it is revealed if she will say “This Time” or  “Again” All her Pokémon burst from their Pokeball to tackle hug her! Showing us she won’t just give them up.. A hand reaches out to pick her up and it’s Brock. “Whatever our next adventure will be… we will do it together”  An ending card would reveal some next generation pokémon!

The Paradise Weekly Gazette 7 (4th to 10th Januari)

Greeting little lights of mine, my first full week as a Kaijuman has passed.  A new(ish) style , a lot of staring into lamps, much gaming fun and some anime later! How did it go?!  Well ……Pretty terrible! Huh?! Really?! Yep, I had one of my worst weeks yet! But ..do you wanna know a secret?!  This week has been one of the most fun I had with creating content yet! So yay for that! So will things change next week? Maybe a bit.. but I am having fun!  So Maybe not!

Pinkie’s Posts

This week I have been starting Let’s Play content , and so far I have clearly not found an audience for it! I have been delighted to make content like that in this way though! Just me with a few games I like going deep and playing to my heart’s content! It has been a blessing!  I can have felt so much motivation to write again, so much motivation to game again, both boost each other and I am having so much fun! Now I know a lot of you aren’t actually into video games so it does make sense.. but I’ve only gained 5 likes on two of my Let’s Play posts.. Don’t get me wrong though I am not upset about it… I kind of like it weirdly.  Well that’s wrong.. but I feel like I am good enough having fun, and sharing me having fun.. rather than getting lots of likes.  Yet in case you missed it here are my posts of this week. Visit them by clicking the coconut!

I talk about my new V Blogger Persona in this post!

I play a Pokémon game with cute Girls instead of Pokémon in this post!

I listen to some awesome video game music in this blog!

More cute anime girl Pokémon…including the Ultimate Waifu can be found here!

I watched me some Zombie Land Saga (Episode 2)

I played a RomHack of one of the Best JRP’s Filled with Anime References

Next week I will continue chasing my VTuber/VBlogger dream, so there will be a lot of content in the same style! There might be more variation as I plan to bring more variety in my content. For example I plan to do a “series” of posts that highlight some of my favourite content creator series on YouTube.. as it is my dream to one day branch out to it. I am also having ideas for a new “What If” like series.  Yet rather than making episodic content I will look at how a scenario would evolve on a grander scale. Think of stuff like “How would the remainder of Tengen Toppa go if Simon was killed instead of Kamina” I’ll probably start with a rework of “What if Ash was a girl”  covering the entire Kanto region story. I am not sure if it will be posted, as for now my focus is on building material and having fun , and my let’s plays do give me a lot of fun.. but expect content like that soon. Also expect a lot more Moemon.  I will also go shop for weird and fun Japanese items again!  This time inspired by my new found Mothiness and being a Kaijuman I hope it will be funny!

Camp Coconut Updates

The staff was in awe with my transformation to write some posts this week! Sunny was very intrigued and has been talking to the water surface a lot! Indigo has been spending time dimming the lamps.. to keep me from getting distracted and I made them undo it! I need my lamps.. and Kuro has been trying not to simp over me.. so I tasked them with watching a lot of VTuber content so they can advise me properly and give them someone else to simp on!

The coconuts have been pretty active!The  Buddy Coconut has been helping me pay for my domain whose payment was due this month!  So we can keep Paradise up for another whole year!  Meanwhile the Woo Woo Fishy Coconut and the  Hero King Coconut came out to play with the guests while I was cocooning!  I really appreciate them for stepping up and providing so much entertainment to the guests. Though they cheat with Limbo!  They are so small no one can beat them!

Woo Woo Fishy Coconut tried to organise a kart race.. kind of like Mario Kart. However there aren’t that many tiny motors for them to build karts out of. The Warrior King Coconut tried to quest for such motors .. but he found a cool looking skull and spend time trying to put it on the pommel of his sword.. something so tiny.. it must have been a tiny bird or maybe a fish skull or something.. Either way since the Warrior King doesn’t know anything about crafting gear like that.. it did not work out! Thank you everyone who has supported me this week or this month!

Do you maybe want to help them out in our next adventure!? Make a Kofi donation to get named once and get your own coconut avatar or become a Patreon to  be mentioned every week! Hero King Coconut approves! Of course he says some edgy stuff about “If you don’t ” but don’t worry about that! I am happy if people just interact with the blog as well! Of course money made will go to pursuing my dreams so King Coconut being the White mustachioed pal he is is rather adamant in this! Pro tip if he is bothering you.. his weakness is hills!

Pinkie Away from Keyboard

The 50% Real girl part of me is in heavy isolation, 1 February I have a super important hospital meeting and I can’t miss out on that.. I can’t be sick.. it’s one of these academic research types of hospitals that can improve my quality of life 100 fold ..but if I have to cancel the appointment on account of some sniffles I’ll probably have to postpone until the covid situation clears here. Since everything is under heavy lockdown here.. there isn’t much else to do then isolate either.  So I have been mostly playing games and on occasion cooking a little bit! I might host an online convention in the netherlands.. based on a user created content idea.  We are doing some market research on it now.  My friend is more positive on this idea than I am as I see a lot of technical limitations but who knows!

Kaijuman me has mostly been searching for budget friendly options to turn myself into a 2d model so I can do streaming content or YouTube content, I can pretty much draw my own emotions by now just the states between those emotions are complex and I can’t grasp rigging properly! I have also made a stream layout already and it is featured in the Zombie Land Saga review of this week! I even hit a lot of easter eggs in them to some of you guys out there!  I have enough coin on my blog paypal to afford a rigged model on Fiverr.. but I am afraid I might be delivered something of poor quality. If any of you have a good idea where to find a good rigger, let me know!  Other than that , to protect my real life self I have mostly been staying indoors and looking at lamps. Toy Stores are closed so I can’t even build lego cities for me to walk over and destroy! I tried that once and a lego got stuck under my foot! .. I would rather be hit by one of Godzilla’s Atomic Breath attacks than a Lego in my foot

Posts that Impressed Pinkie

Starting this year I will not be doing completely custom images anymore, and instead I am going to use avatars for link posts! This will really help me with time.. and the writers with their own brand so everyone wins! Click the avatar to visit some amazing posts!

I used to be a big Star Wars fan, and that love is still kind of there! It is hidden underneath a lot of negativity towards Disney though, to me that company has shown so much arrogance and that it is utterly unable to empathise with it’s audience that it just keeps doing what it does. With a few hits here and there! I do still love the Mandalorian.. but I always need to wait until a season finale has passed so I can binge shows because I do not want to support them for too long. I haven’t seen the Mandalorian season 2 yet, because I am waiting for WandaVision to have aired so I can binge both shows in one month! Wooderon’s series on the Clone Wars is a great proxy to get that good feeling, without supporting a company I feel is definitely on the Dark Side. 

While I do consume significantly less anime than most of you, I do love it still! I however am one that is fairly oblivious to the technical , and back end aspect of it.. the history of it all! Luckily Mari over at Starting Life from Zero has got me covered with this amazing post.. that has a lot of subsequent installments spanning across the week! A definite must read for any anime fan. Mari has great taste in anime as well. Although the latest recommendation from Marie, in Utena isn’t resonating with me too much. Five episodes in and I feel nothing,  I’ll try to struggle my way through but Utena might be a drop for me.  Perhaps I will keep watching it but just don’t review it on an episode basis who knows!  I totally did not recommend her post as a peace offering! (But I hope it helps) 

Celestial Sparkles is a great and creative blogger, who I have come to see as my Kohai of sorts!  I saw Cele took some inspiration from my visuals and I felt so proud! I really hope to see her do well, there is something really heartfelt about her! For her 2021 goal she hopes to achieve 50 followers and if you aren’t a follower I think you should really check out what she is about! She really loves Mecha anime, she has a very similar style in blog-tags to yours truly and she is doing her twelve days of anime challenge soon so for any anime fan there that doesn’t follow her yet. As well as all STAFF and everyone interested in one of the sweetest members in the community! Do follow this blog! Just check out how sweet she is!

For the last part I will post something everyone will already know most likely!  But the section is called Posts That Impressed Pinkie, not “Bloggers I’d like to Highlight’ .. because trust me.. this next one needs no shoutout from me! She is the biggest and one the most talked about Bloggers in the anime community! I am talking of course about the return of Karandi James of 100 Word Anime! Our Champion has returned! I was super excited about that! Great to see some good news in 2021! Welcome back Karandi , I look forward to see your blogs once more!

And that is it for this week’s update! I included my plans in earlier segments to keep everything a bit more focussed. My Own content,  Staff Content, Coconut Shout-outs , and other community members! I hope you will have an amazing new week! And keep chasing your dreams my little lights! Moth-Pinkie loves you all! Though maybe I do love lamps more!

The Cocoon Opens: It’s VBlogger Pinkie

A lonely pink Cocoon hatches!  Fueled by the warmth of all her followers and online friends!  Metamorphosis has occurred. Evolution.. in terms of Pokémon! I have reached my stage 2! Chasing after her dream, the woman named Pinkie has transcended the bounds.. of Mortality! She surpassed her limits and now exists both in reality and beyond! Pinkie has achieved Virtual status! And thus a VBlogger has been born!

Look Mommy I’m A Moth!

Hey hey hey! Look! I dig the new overdesign! It is a work in progress.. and will be commissioned at one point again to make it look better..I promise! Just like Virtual Youtubers! As a Virtual being I have to get used to being updated now! Before I give you my new backstory and all off that stuff.. let’s take a look at my design!  I am a Moth now?!  Why?! I mean .. I have been a duck before!  I like ducks a lot more than moths?!  So why did I settle on a Moth?! Well.. it all started because my sickness made me cocoon and I wanted to arise like a butterfly… but as glamorous as that sounds, my re-emergence isn’t as black and white tale… we don’t just shrug everything off by a second wind.. so while I feel reborn.. I do not feel like a fairytale thing!  I have to make due with my mothiness! Everyone wants to be a butterfly in this world..but sometimes people just turn out to be moths! That is fine as well! So I am going to show you.. that you can be great if you are not the most beautiful or amazing bug in the world..  just being a bug is fine as well!

The Moth as a theme is also fun because  I review Geeky Content… What do those have in common?! Well if you ever played games after dark with only your screen running.. you know! The screen attracts moths as well! I am drawn in by bright things myself, sometimes it would be better if I did not.. but it is who I am! I see a cute anime mascot and I end up watching a bad show just for it to pop up! We are all drawn to fairly visual mediums .. that light, sharing our geekiness is also kind of a light beacon that has brought us all together.  We all flock towards here to tell our tales. Searching for light and positivity is something I have always tried to make a theme on this blog.. though I have not always succeeded.. but as a Moth.. that search for light can be much more prominent and we can just have a lot of fun!  Finally the moth has wings so it can soar high and free… and into an open flame..!  The possibilities are endless, no longer bound by the gravity that prevents us from going where we want.. it reflects breaking free of my current constraints. 

Why did I have to experience Metamorphosis?! Well it is kind of a VTuber or Vperson thing these days to not be human. The Hololive girls have an Immortal Phoenix, A Grim Reaper, an Eldritch Infected person who grew Tentacles by reading the Necronomicon, an Atlantean.. and A detective who is kind of a Gremlin. Indigo recently made me aware of a VTuber called Ironmouse.. while I do not care for a Succubus.. hearing her tale and who she can be herself online without her sickness holding her back.. and that THAT avatar is actually the real her.. She has a autoimmune disease that keeps her bedridden, which is way worse then what I have.. so I won’t say we are alike.. but that one feeling.. of your physical body not being who you really are.. because of restrictions on your body.. or heck even simple biology is a theme that hits home for me… so I wanted that my new self.. would symbolise that limit break a bit! 
While real world Pinkie may lay sick in bed a lot.. VBlogger Pinkie can sore across her island! Of course I am not just a regular moth… I am a spawn of Mothra!

Hey Pappa! This is a much cooler background story.. then you being drunk and canoodely! 

So as you may have read in one of Sunny’s posts.. in fact two of them! Paradise is often visited by a Kaiju!  We thought the big fish was the only one.. but one day Mothra visited as well. Hubris made me try to befriend the monster, as I do believe that almost everyone , without a fake tan or who lives in their gym,  can be awesome people if you can just draw it out.  They are oftenly not worth the effort.. but it CAN be done!  Regardless Mothra was in a bit of a fickle mood and pierced me with poisonous needles that she can spit out! 

As I lay dying I told Mothra I only wanted to be her friend and she seemed to regret her action! A tear fell into my heavily poisoned wounds.. and I began vomiting like crazy! I vomited a Cocoon all over myself! When I was encapsulated everything went dark.. but for a brief moment I heard Mothra apologise to me! She gifted me the immortality she had.. but a bit differently!  If I get hurt or damaged I will cocoon and restore after a while! Even if only a little part of me remains…this will happen.. it can even occur when nothing is left of me.. like Mothra I need to be reborn… however if I evaporate completely someone else will vomit a cocoon and become me! I don’t want that to happen to everyone.. but it is kinda like Dr Who.. but more gross!

So yeah.. I am still the manager of Paradise.. except now I can shoot laser beams from my Antennas! I can fire poison needles from my throat.. and can create big gusts of wind when flapping my wings!  Which is really neat.. because now i get access to all the sweet fruits Paradise has! I really got into eating  fruit and  playing at campfires a lot more now!  Ooow..campfires…!  I do burn myself a lot though.. luckily I can regenerate pretty fast! … Not my clothes though.. so sometimes I dance around a fire Na… Uhm… A Fire Named Sam! Yes that is what I tried to say! 

Gam Gam Check out my new “LaZOR” attack!

As a flying creature I have to by Aerodynamic.. which is a neat of saying that if I ever encounter an anime boy…or another anime lesbian.. they would look at me and think  of floorboards. If they are annoying though I can use my scales to deflect their attacks and show them they are ugly themselves! Ha!  … I still love you even if you are ugly though! .. Platonically! Except for some girls who I love semi-platonically! Uhm right.. I also have a new found sensor to find the light in something.. and I can turn stuff into candy with a beam as well… that’s not a Mothra power.. but I had to absorb some pink blob creature to make my wings pinkish! .. Not sure.. .. it was fat and gooey so I was pretty sure there was enough goo to dye my wings pink! I killed it with my lasers!

At times Mothra speaks to me.. and tells me to go fight some things! Usually anime characters but sometimes Mothra wants me to attack man/animal hybrids as well l! She thinks  they are like me.. and like Kaiju do battle.. as some kind of rule or something.. so do we Kaijuman.. . that is right! That is the term for what I am .. a Kaijuman.. (pronounced Kaai-JHoo-Mahn). I wonder if there are some nice ones out there.. most of them I have encountered. Most of them are kinda Bassholes.. and I don’t mean Basshole himself.. he is actually kind of an old grumpy fart.  Most of them I fight though are mute!  Like that big soft fluffy mouse I attacked! A  big soft duck in a Sailour suit came to his aid.. but with one powerful gust of wind his head fell off! I was banned from Disneyland after that though.. so I am not sure if Mamma Mothra did me right by sending me  there. Regardless.. who knows I might encounter a friendly Kaijuman at one point! I hope I can make friends!

Okay maybe I won’t befriend this Kaijuman

Doctor Doctor , I act a bit differently now!

As a Kaijuman I have a few needs that are different from your average human!  As I said.. I have to do battle with other hybrids if I can’t befriend them.. When I visited my human mother and not my Kaiju Mother to show her I had transformed I decided to meet up at a public spot.. you know.. so she would not make a scene of me transcending humanity without asking her… “I was dying mom .. Mothra killed me” .. So I decided to meet her in Madurodam.. a sort of theme park in the Netherlands.. It is a theme park that has this miniature version of our cities and national monuments etc.. like the Netherlands scaled down, for us to walk through and enjoy! …..I ….. did …..not ….. handle that very well. I am banned for life…  and so was that 6 year old in the Dinosaur costume.. that roared at me… luckily for the kid he died from my poison so he isn’t banned anymore! I also feel a huge urge to step on sandcastles.. back at the Resort?!

I am still the same person though, I like pink things.. especially pink lamps. I still like watching anime.. especially, in a dark room so that my screen is the only thing lit in that room. I do like playing games a lot.. though I do not like The Sims anymore because I never have enough money to buy lamps.. My Favourite Pokémon? That is easy , Sylve…..Chandelure. Huh, okay maybe I have changed a bit! Only a tiny bit though! My attention span has shortened a bit.. like I usually see another interesting light or something and I kinda have to investigate so I can’t write as long of posts as human Pinkie did but maybe I can write more.. Oh right and I am constantly poisoned by those toxic needles I have in my stomach so I might appear a bit fever-dreamish! But yeah other than that.. I am absolutely the same person….who now needs a tailor to adjust all her clothes… I mean let’s talk about cat girls.. do they really push that tail through a hole in their pants everyday? With wings it’s kinda horrible.. I killed like 4 tailors with my poison scales before I figured out how I could put my wings through my dresses.. the trick is to shower and get them wet.. they are a lot more shapeable like that. 

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Let’s see?! Did anything else change? I still have the libido of a wet paper towel, I still can’t drive a car and I am still clumsy as heck.. and these wings don’t work along. Well like I said I eat a lot more fruit! Some of that fruit was meant for reviews! So .. I can do less of them! I am usually friendly though..unless you wear a Dinosaur costume or play with Lego! However there is one fruit I do not eat and that is Coconuts, they are safer than humans even.. so if you do not want to be poisoned by me.. consider becoming a Coconut. Of course just a nice comment is great as well, but followers who support us get an extra little spotlight and become a coconut!  There are two ways you can do that. We have a Kofi and a Patreon! So pick your poison…sort of speak.