Am I Blushing? Or is it the heat?! Sunshine Blogger Award 5 A Love Story

Hello Island Guests! Welcome back to my blog! Right now we are in a HUUUGE heatwave which is has me deal with temperatures between 35 and 40 degrees Celsius, which is in between 95 and 100 degrees Fahrenheit.  So this week I decided to take it a bit easy! I am catching up with by blog tags and not sticking to a rigid schedule!  So expect a lot of tags and fun light stuff. In this post we tackle yet another nomination for the sunshine blogger award.  Number six or so!  But this one is special! Not only was I nominated by my Senpai! It also it is one of the most creative version I have seen of this post!   So here goes!

The Rules

Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link to their blog so that other people can visit them.

Irina is a very important blogger to me! Her unique voice and her passion really make me look up to her and call her my blogging senpai. I doubt I even know anyone in the bloggosphere who doesn’t know Irina but if you haven’t go check out her site! If you do, you probably visit her daily anyway because that is how awesome she is! I feel like I pushed her away a bit recently.. so I do hope things will become super bright in the future!

Answer the 11 questions put to you by the nominator

I did this with great joy I loved this question line so sooo much! So thanks Senpai for offering this sunshine!

Nominate 11 bloggers of your choosing and provide them with a new set of 11 questions to answer.

No I am not going to do that! I will follow Rini’s style of questions and will nominate 3 people to keep the tag alive.. and if you want to play.. you can do so by telling you want in. I will edit this blog than to have relative links in as well! I have a feeling some of you would not like a post this quirky!

Notify the nominees by commenting on one of their blog posts

No to this as well, I do not like promoting my blog on other peoples posts by saying “you have been nominated” I do not mind saying stuff like “Oh recently I wrote a similar post” as it invites for talks..and exchanging ideas and saves on space.. but self promoting my tag posts is something I refuse to do! Also I want people to have their comments relevant! I tag a post instead of a block which means people SHOULD get a notification.

List the rules and display The Sunshine Blogger Award logo within your post or on your blog site.

You see a job offer for a job you didn’t even know existed but is your dream career. What is it and how do you prepare for the interview?

Well clearly I have moved to the United States in that case because that job would be crew member of Critical Role.. with pay!  So social stuff surrounding it and their twitch as well! Basically what Marisha Ray does but less power woman.. more Pinkie!  Someone needs to play an adorable trickster gnome.. or a shy young elf girl who is afraid to socialise so instead she sends out a duplicate.  Critical Role for those who do not know is THE D&D webshow featuring Matthew Mercer and his team of nerdy ass voice actors playing Dungeons and Dragons!  Now they are looking for an extra cast member that gets to do a lot of fan interactions! Wow I am so game for this.  

I would prepare by having build just a ton of amazing characters and introduce them all to them! Now that I gave up my position as a DM the need to roleplay has never been higher and come up with a few good promo’s as well. Perhaps even make something of a bit of a trailer so highlight what I could bring to the table.  Both as a player and part of critical role! With a bit of humor.. kind of like Barney Stinson’s video resume but geekier!  I do feel these guys have a lot of humor and most of all they have their hears in the right places and truly are fellow geeks! that is what I would like to appeal to with them because I think I can still shine there! Now I do need to invent a new word and tie it to myself! The video will not show up in WordPress Reader.

On your way to the interview, the most beautiful person you’ve ever laid eyes on trips and spills the contents of their bag all over the place. They are looking around obviously hoping someone would help but you don’t have a minute to spare. What do you do?

She is a Dojikko, probably slightly older than me, because I am done being the oldest.  I really need an energy that pulls me instead of me pulling them. She is lanky,  a bit awkwardly tall. Brunette with a tainted lock.. white , blue or purple.  er  bag is filled with knick knacks. Like Gachapon esque keychains.  Tissues but one in very colourful boxes or that have the picture of cute animals on it. She wears a long sleeve but embarrassed that I have to help her she pulls the sleeves over er hands and now it’s just sleeves. Her hair slightly dishevelled, eyes that are really pale underneath her slightly darker dominant hair tone. She is pale but a bit red with fluster. She wears glasses that really should have been thinned but she could not afford it so now it slightly warps the size of her eyes. Making them look bigger.. like anime eyes.  To me there is two kinds of beauty. 

There is the easy beauty and contains people I do agree are gorgeous.   People like Liv Taylor, Megan Fox.. the “I would not kick it out of bed”  type of beauty! Symmetrical, healthy looking and if you walk across the street holding their hands heads would turn.. I can appreciate that beauty but I experience ZERO attraction that that. True beauty to me.. is when you love something you know is a deviation of the status quo. Like how I like girls that are to tall or wear thick glasses. I want a girl that is too much of something. To chubby, to skinny, or whatever because that is beauty I know I am really drawn too. I could build a porn body.. but I prefer to love  something real.. something specifically would like.. this amazing person would probably be described as flawed in the common eyes.   

I definitely would help her, because I read ahead! I read question 10! I can be late! But yeah I want a job that thinks helping a person in need and showing up a minute late because I did is a good thing. We aren’t machines! I should not be a minute late because I stopped to smell some flower sure but if I helped! People should be like.. well done .. rather than.. YOUR late.  I would rush to help and look at them to see if she is embarrassed and if she is I would pick up a few things and tell a story on how I dropped my groceries and got tomato all over a dog.. or how I had this really great treat for myself and a dog ate it.. so I look like bigger fool than she does.  Groceries can be easily replaced and I want to make them feel better about themselves! It is quite beautiful to see that happen in a person. That chuckle and smile.. that regardless if you made a joke or were for real shows appreciation and hope that they aren’t the idiot they thought they were.

That evening, while you are casually walking home, you meet that person again and something compels you to go talk to them. What do you say?

If a am to be  myself I’d probably stare at them a bit dreamily and walk into a hedge, this time prompting her to save me.. I genuinely feel I am might not add value to others as they would to mine and that is something I can not talk myself out off. It’s a fear but people have confirmed this. Friends told me I stood in the way of their career.  I’d choose friendship over an career and that made them do the same.. and I was holding them back like that. I think I could to to someone’s party and nobody noticed I’d was gone.. but I do have a charisma I deny myself… but it’s a reactionary charisma. I respond well to people I don’t reach out well to them. Part of why I blog is because I would belief I have things to tell as well! I can talk to someone back no problem..but initiating a conversation.. is going to be difficult.

So  I’d probably place myself in a reactionary situation .. by purpose or accident and draw their attention to me.  If I HAD to act first..I’d probably just say Hi probably looking scared like a deer staring into approaching headlights. Then making inaudible noises or saying “nice weather for a walk.. in a way like I am reading a script as a really bad actress”   I’d not say Hey It’s you.. the girl who dropped her stuff.  I’d embarrass her again. I’d probably stutter a bit and ask her if she’s out for a stroll or something innocent.  I probably would not be Pinkie but Tomato right now though.

You suddenly realize you should introduce yourself and ask their name at the same time – what is it?

I really like names like that end with vowel sounds. Lucy, Mara, Erica, Charlie etc. I would however not take away that magic of hearing her name for me.. I caught the name.. but for onlookers and readers that is secret.. I just hear her name and introduce myself as Denise,  but her name it’s hidden.  

A Dutch singer and attempted politician Henk Westbroek once wrote a love song describing his perfect woman in super vague terms.. but he describes that feeling of being in love perfectly well. Saying that his girl seems so bright.. that even her shadow can blind him. The best line in that song.. and one of my favourite descriptions for being in love however is about names. Translated (so it doesn’t flow as well in English)   it says. Even your name is Beautiful. More Beautiful than that of anyone…..who shares that name with you. I LOVE that line. Whatever my new acquaintance name is..   let’s say Charlie as a placeholder name, her name is the most beautiful I have ever heard.. among all who share that name with her. Also Y.. I do count as a vowel sound. 

Your new very attractive acquaintance is chatting away happily and you can’t believe your ears. What are they saying?

Well judging by question 6 they aren’t talking about anime yet so that is out! So let’s say she mentions she was heading home from her walk to watch the Critical Role live stream which she then realises she overshared with and when I react like OMG did you see what Jester did .. she takes my hands and does two excited hops! OMG YES! I can’t wait to see what happens next.  Or maybe that she is hosting a D&D game herself that night.. something in that nature. I like it when girls have a hobby of their own .. something that isn’t particularly interesting to me but if they talk about it through great lengths because they are so passionate about it! Perhaps she can love plants and be ranting some amazing plant facts. Like how my dress would remind her of a pink flower and flowers become pink because it actually shares genes of red and white plants.. like it’s one of the few plants that actually can be crossbred. .so animal crossing is right? Something like that would be super cute.

Turns out they like anime. No way? What are the odds of that. Here’s your chance to appear all cool thanks to your deep anime knowledge. You lean in and confidently recommend this series.

School Live or Sweet Blue Flowers/Aoi Hana

Why?

I do not know her well enough yet because we have only talked for a few minutes based on the next question.  So it is hard to recommend something so I need a hook!  Sweet Blue Flower is something I can hook onto er earlier topic of gardening and it would further my agenda of putting a little yuri into her mind.. in a very cute and innocent way. Hoping they would identify with Fumi.  I could just go like “speaking about flowers” …  if the conversation doesn’t flow that way I’d probably recommend School Live. Because  reasons! I can’t spoil it without ruining the show! It offered such a unique viewing experience for me and I really loved it for it.  It is a great conversation anime and it has a few sad scenes that might prompt her into letting me cheer her up! Like me coming over for a hug.. or watch the rest with her so she has a shoulder to cry on .. or at least someone to share tissues with.

After a few minutes, almost 60 of them, your companion excuses themselves. It’s getting late and they did have some things to take care of. You reach around for an excuse to see them again. It worked as they are agree. Please tell us how you managed that!

I passed my charisma check?! Wow not sure how that happened , pretty sure I would convince her to go flower shopping with me.. like .. I do not have a lot of plants in house and I’d ask for er advice what plants I can put there with low maintenance effort. Like I would say.. we could go to the city together and she can help me pick out a few plants and I would buy her lunch for her time. Something like that.. that is kinda a date but not really a date. Like should things not really work we could just do our chore and I would gain at least a nice plant out of it. She could rant on her hobby and would get a lunch out of it. I know I am interested in her and I think she is in me.. but when I go on a date, date.. I always feel super insecure.. so I give her a purpose.. if things don’t work they can leave after without feeling awkward. If it’s fun we can both look for excuses to hang out more and we make our intentions pretty clear. 

I will go into a date mostly thinking.. what about if we fall in love and I have to kiss.. how would I approach that.. or thinking of a positive angle. I found out penty approach a date from a negative angle.. so if I give them nothing to lose. At worst they can feel good about themselves as they helped me cheer my place up. At best they notice I am clearly making excuses and just really want to see me as well. When you go out for drinks and are expected to woo each other, things feel very wooden and there is this awkward dance.. but if you have a secondary purpose.. you flirting is optional.. and the romance effort is less.. obvious so you can read intentions much more clear. Way less awkward! She would appreciate that as well.

It’s finally the day to meet them again, you have to make the perfect impression. How do you do that?

I’d probably find my pinkest dress, and put on a very nice perfume!  Like the expensive stuff.. not the cheap stuff I use when going out for minor things.  Lots and lot’s of time go in my hair and make up then as well.. I am very sucky at initiative taking or so I want to give off a signal that I dig her and I definitely look more dressed up than I need to be for buying plants. Not something overly sexy.. as that might push her away again.. but clear enough that I cleaned and brushed myself up a lot lot!..If she can read a little between the lines she’d know I probably did that for her. I’d also tell my friends and social circle.. to not bother me during that time.. so  I can give her my undivided attention.  It’s a shame but the number of times someone watches on a phone is a pretty solid  interest meter.. I want to not have to look at my phone.  I would make sure I am very much me though! I am not trying to look less weird than I am. I am not going to lie about my career.. I am jobless for the duration of this question and I would be open about it but tell her I might join Crit Role… which hopefully leaves a great impression as well.


Bean a friend of mine  really tries to cater to everyone when leaving a good impression. Wearing a decent dress, a social acceptable colour.. driving a car that makes you look decent and hang art on your walls even your mother in law finds respectable. I am not like that. If I had a car it would either look like a Duck or a Hippo, all art on my walls has some deep personal ties to me.. so it’s not just that hotel lobby art everyone has in their house.  On a first date a lot of people treat themselves like hotel lobby art as well. Talking about very standard things like “So do you have any pets?’  “What are your plans for the future”  En Masse we don’t ourselves in classic colours and socially acceptable outfits. I don’t want to make you like that false impression I want you to like me! I am prone to the little gift trope though.. like a cute plant she really liked.. or a adorable d20 dice. Like a nice personal little gift.. perhaps something geeky for in her garden.It symbolises willingness to put energy into the other for me.. and having things she associates with me in a good way does leave a good impression!  If we work out she could look at that dice and miss me.. or water the plant and think… Oh I should hang out with Pinkie again.

Turns out you miraculously got that job. You’re not entirely sure how that’s even possible but you’re not about to look a gift horse in the mouth. How do you celebrate?

I had to move to the US for said dream job so I probably do not have much friends there yet so I would call Charlie and take her out for dinner and drinks.I probably would break my twitter as well! The day I get my dream job will truly be celebrated… hungover the next morning style.  So maybe I’d actually play one of Irina’s drinking games with Charlie.  She’s into anime as well so that could be a great way to celebrate. I’d also treat myself to something I really want, like a game I desire or a figurine I always wanted. Maybe some crazy expensive steel dices. If possible something that fits in with the job I would get. So.. I most likely would play Irina’s drinking game and drunkenly order a figure I always wanted not thinking about the cost! I know I am going to need aspirin in the next morning.

Now that you have your dream fantasy job and a great relationship with the most attractive and surprising person ever, what’s your next move?

I finish my blog post and sigh! Ah would that not be wonderful?!   I walk to my bed, hug all my unicorns and Miss Luckybutt the Giant Micro Pig and put her on my lap as I write this final piece. One day we will meet our Charlie and if not I will always have this unique cute little fantasy! Now it’s time to eternalise this dream with some images and think up some questions for my nominees. Thank you Charlie you were a wonderful dream!

My Questions and Tags

Now it is time for my questions and I do like Irina’s narrative style so I  am blatantly copying it! It is a nice twist on the tag.

1. It’s a very nice day , you are returning home from doing something special, that you like to do but can’t do at your house! What is it? (Convention/A Date/ Shopping etc)

You are whistling a jaunty tune when the camera suddenly pans away from you.. unknown to you of course and we as an audience see it.. the famous anime truck! .. Or truck in anime… if you ever seen an Isekai you know exactly what I am talking about.  The Isekai truck!

2. What would happen that ends with you getting hit by said truck?!  (Save a kid, thinking to much about Yaoi, a Meteor struck and cut your leg off ..making you fall in front ot the truck etc)

You open your eyes and you are nowhere.. a warm glow appears in front of you and speaks with a familiar voice to you.. an almost indescribable.. but to you very familiar and pleasant feeling  entity appears to you.

3. Describe how this god of the new world looks like to you and how do they sound?!

Like always in a deep respectful voice they tell you, you have died but it was not your time yet so you will reborn in another world! But in trade for the inconvenience you can pick a boon! That will help you in your next life!

4. What is that boon?!

You are then send to your new world, it is a world you have always dreamed living in.

5. Describe that world!

Immediately you hear a squeaky voice.. in being teleported in you stepped on a tiny creature.. which is now sunken in the mud a bit. This will be your animal companion!

6. Tell us how it will look like and what you will call it.

You notice you have a bit of a warrior(or a fantasy class more accurately)  like outfit on.. an anime protagonist outfit.. h

7. How does the outfit look and what does it tell you about your combat abilities (Are you good with swords, axes, daggers, magic, laser weapons etc)

After seeing your new outfit you hear some towns people cry… their village is under attack.. being the newly reborn hero that you are..you of course rush over towards the town!

8. Describe the scene you see there and what is the first enemy you fight in this other world?

You saved the town and are hailed a hero! You are recruited into a group of heroes or mercinaries that allow you to travel across the world and do quests for them

9. What is the name of the organisation you join and why do you join them?

After numerous missions with this group and losing a few of these people in very emotional anime series they decide to give you a nickname… based on your fighting style and how you have grown as an anime character!

10. What is the nickname and why did they give it you. (This is a bonus question you could skip it)

Oh no! It is revealed the guild master… your boss was evil all along… or good if you decided to be evil.. anyway this DEFINITELY will  be in the Top 10 anime betrayals.They clearly  are your antagonist..even representing.. something or someone you hate in real life very much! There are strange parallels at work here!

11. Describe your Antagonist!  Give us a name a look and a motivation!


After a long and hard fought battle your anime series comes to a close and your antagonist lies defeated. Along the way you have fallen in love! But now that there is no more need for you, you need to make a decision.

12. Where will you go from here?

A) Will you go back home and find your worlds counterpart of the person you fell in love with?
B) Do you stay in the Isekai world and settle down with the person who stole your heart?
C) Do you keep wandering this world or a next one.. in search for evil or good to vanquish.. remaining ever alone .. but ever vigilant!

Since this tag is super strange.. I am not doing a lot of nominations just three! For reasons!
If you want to join! Just let me know and I will edit you into the list! Including links to your blog. So I nominate EVERYONE! A lot of people really only want to do this if they are tagged but just leave a comment and you can do this one!

Celestial Sparkles DOES get nominated because I promised to get my “revenge” for bouncing a nomination right back at me!
Anime and Fan Fiction gets a nomination because I am taking one of her..sorta tags but I am going to do my own thing with it so she can do that with this as well!
Raistlin gets nominated because he is sorta back! People should know! and rejoice!
Foovay gets a nomination as well because one of my pillows told me, she would really want to partake in these questions but would need to find a way and courage to ask for a nomination otherwise!

Of coursel like always all coconuts get auto nominated! A coconut is someone who supported me on Kofi.. so if for some reason you are to scared to comment you can also get yourself nominated by supporting my Kofi!

Pinkie wants to dress up: Top 5 Dream Cosplays

With only a few conventions under my belt, biggest being Dutch Anime Con, on an annual basis as well as FACTS in Belgium and Abunai in the Netherlands, I have dabbled in the wonderful world of cosplay. This ranged from a Skull Kid cosplay, to a simple appearance s Pokémon Lass. From a Pikachu onesie to a Tommy Wiseau crossplay where we toss the football around with people in suits. Yet we always have some hopes and dreams and since today I am changing my looks with a new haircut, I guess it’s a good enough time to stalk about changing my looks through the magic of cosplay.  Dream cosplays to be exact, currently out of my reach but who knows?! A girl can dream!

Dream Cosplay 5 :  Sylveon
(Pokemon Gijinka)

Of course my love for pokémon means I have a lot of pokémon dream cosplays! For some weird reason I would really love to cosplay a Metapod once.Such a fun idea. Genderbend Giovanni is also high on my list. Giovanna would be my name.. but I would want a stand behind.. I am a Giovanna after all. My dream cosplay however is that of my favorite pokemon Sylveon. A Gijinka cosplay to be exact. This is when we humanise a non human character. The version I would love to play has become an avatar of me in a few D&D roleplays. This is a cosplay which I would have already done with a former friend of mine. We shall call her Lauren. Lauren and me would have done our first show cosplay. A cute little Yuri Scene where Sylveon warmed up Glaceon’s frozen heart. It was a truly lovely scene and during our practice i became really infatuated with Lauren. She had a good job and a bought and would make the cosplays for us. During one rehearsal I got caught up in the little romance scene and  confessed I really liked her. She got creeped out and sent me home, saying she wasn’t really expecting this. After a bit of silence I tried to make amends and apologise , saying I could act professionally. I quickly found out I was recast because she did not feel comfortable doing the scene with me, she already had an issue with my motor skills and this was the final straw.. since she paid for the whole thing I guess it was fair for her to make that decision . Hence the Cosplay went to someone else as well. In the end I don’t even think they did the act but that design is still want to cosplay one day. As I do really love sylveon and would love to show my love to the world while cosplaying it. This one is the lowest on my list because of how much I actually plan to make it happen one day. This is not just a dream cosplay this is something I will cosplay even if I have to be a woman in my late thirties to do so.

Dream Cosplay 4: Jester Lavorre
(Critical Role)

I already made a post on Critical Role, probably the most famous online Dungeons and Dragons Live stream Show. You should be able to read it here.  One of the characters I found absolutely adorable is the blue tiefling Jester, played by Laura Bailey. Critical Role has a huuuuge cosplay community and I would love to partake in that for once. The Little Sapphire  has a personality that would be fun to portray and I would love too to walk around the convention with some plushie unicorns as my spirit guardians and a giant lollipop as my weapon. I don’t even think the cosplay would be that hard to make.  However there is a reason I am putting this on my dream cosplay list. You see, I am sort of allergic to face paint. Even foundation can make my face look a bit puffy and tingly. Face paint will flat out turn it into a tomato. While the swelling usually goes away very quickly it is a matter of timing. I can’t do this during a three day con during the first or second day. Usually we have dinner with friends on the third day so in that case an allergic tomato face might also not be very appetizing to other guests. So I need to save this one for a one day con with no dinner or where we eat with enough cosplayers to leave my makeup on. Unfortunately none of my friends are really cosplayers…though some begin to dabble. So this is not a lost cause for me yet.  One day I might play this cheerful Tiefling! Maybe sooner than I would think.

Dream Cosplay Number 3: My Avatar
(Pinkie’s Paradise)

I really love my blog and I also have a good deal of affection for my own avatar. While I still think I need a more reliable source than Chibi Maker, I would really love to cosplay as Pinkie one day. The idea of playing an OC is already great as I don’t have to care about to much about my body language. While I love cosplay I really kinda dislike photographs. Here is where my motor skills come in play. I always feel so wooden and fake when I cosplay. However Pinkie is wooden as all heck! So I would love the freedom to just  make things awkward and stiff. I would love to own a cutesie pink dress as she does and since she is a chibi my somewhat fuller body shape isn’t to detrimental to the look of my cosplay. Don’t get me wrong I think everyone should be allowed to cosplay who their want and no one should be body shamed. If you are a bit heavier and you can cosplay a character with confidence all the more power to you but I tend to want something made for my size. With Sylveon I do not mind as it’s like a reimagining of a character not an original character.  Jester I can easily see get a bit pugier, but my number 2 entry for example would not be my body shape. Pinkie.. as my OC however I can bend however I want and I would just feel happy to do it with no pressure at all A lot of the convention community however is not really into OC’s which is understandable but a lot of them can be actually quite negative. It happens to a few friends of mine on two separate occasions. Being short on cash it would hurt to spend a lot of coin on the cosplay just to be told off by someone that that isn’t cosplay. So I just have to get really famous so that everyone will recognise me and problem solved! Yay! I love it when a plan comes together.

Dream Cosplay Number 2: Dark Magician Girl
(Yu-gi-oh)

By now it should be fairly know that this Yu-Gi-Oh playing card is one of my favorite characters ever. I love her! To a point where I can kinda crush on her. So maybe I just will have to become my Waifu. However I do not feel like I have the right body shape to portray the character that I love.  I would not feel like in my current form. The dream is a nice weight loss goal though. Like the ENTIRE top 5 until this point Dark Magician Girl shares the same personality with number 5 through 3. All are fun loving slightly magical , ladies with pink elements. So in a way I do not have to really have to put myself on the block and be ungrateful in the mirror. I do not mind being a bit more plumb because there is a story there. It’ has to do with who I am and I actually like who I am. I do not want to lose weight because “it’s healthy” or because  we have this ideal vision of beauty. I will try to lose weight though to chase a dream. Which I think is a much healthier way, although shy on the discipline. Still I think it would be hilarious if I manage to slim down enough to look like my favorite playing card ever. I would be the one dark magician girl who completely is oblivious to innuendo and instead of winking sweetly at guys and gals, I’d be winking at sweets! I am pretty darn innocent if I am to believe my friends. so I’d be the purest 6 star dark type monster out on the field. Maybe instead of the girl I will cosplay the card! That way I can get away with being a bit flat!

Dream Cosplay Number 1: Alphonse Elric
(Full Metal Alchemist)

This one is NEVER gonna happen but  how I would love to walk around in full armor like Al’s at a con. And then I would walk near a bubble tea stand and ask in my own voice to an Al cosplayer. Nii-san could you buy be a bubble tea. I would be completely crippled inside the armor though. Probably I wouldn’t even be able to carry the weight unless I make it lke super light. It’s one of those.. you gotta have a buddy with you cosplays. Unfortunately my buddies are kinda selfish at cons and rush of everywhere and I will see them when I see them so asking one to be my armor buddy most likely would not pan out. Though I have one or two viable options. I would just for once like to experience what the pro cosplayers experience. I once saw this guy.. I think from Thailand or China cosplay Optimus prime and he looked so badass. So just for the experience I would one day like to wear something big and epic. Alphonse would be my dream choice because of his girly voice. I could talk without breaking character and childlike behaviour makes him fun for me to roleplay.  I do not like though as nails warriors, they are very far from my bed. Even the evil Sith I roleplayed in Star Wars was Pink and all about making friends. (Still kinda evil though)  Most big characters thusly would not suit me but Al.. is a great fit. Another option would be like one of those theme park like Hello Kitty suitts but why would I play a human when I could play a set of armor.  Also the contrast isn’t as great. Me in a big armor with my own voice sounds pretty much like a mindtrick. I already saw Hello Kitty do a breakdance in the disco of anime con and I also saw Baymax bob along the beat as well. I have never seen a Alphonse yet though..so that is mine. Alphonese has a big plus as well. Whenever I fall to the ground… which will will happen a lot,  I can say that I was trying to do alchemy! So I got my own Dojikoness covered with it as well. Sometimes I think these trough so well I even scare myself!

700 Hours on Youtube: Pinkie Watches Critical Role

Originally I planned to make a post about the new Star Wars movie in this spot first. Yet I really I went with the direction of love, and I didn’t love the New Star Wars movie . This Sci-Fi fantasy epic has dumbed down, to nothing more Ethan a entertainment thrill ride. Still entertaining as long as you turn of your brain and just enjoy the pew pew and the swoosh swoosh! Luckily the Star Wars show are still pretty good. However since Lord of the Rings is already finished, I needed something to get my fantasy adventure shot. As a D&D DM I have 3 hours fantasy adventures every thursday! But each week I also get provided by a 3 to 4 hour epic fantasy adventure to follow.  The youtube channel or Twitch Channel .. of Critical Role. Happy Happy Joy Joy!

Nerdy voice actors, playing dungeons and dragons

Critical Role in it’s concept is nothing more than a bunch of nerdy ass voice actors playing dungeons and dragons. The games are led by Matthew Mercer, who is probably best known for his voice work in the fire emblem games and that cowboy guy that clearly doesn’t have a correct watch in Overwatch. Kinda weird when you think about it right.. a cowboy always thinking it’s high noon.. in a group called overWATCh..you’d figure he’d know the correct time. Even if Matthew might not be a great time teller, he is a great DM that helms not one but two fantasy epic in the form of the Vox Machina Campaign and the Mighty Nein campaign. Both to be found on youtube and the second one being ongoing. The first one has become so popular that it has inspired a origin comic and soon even an animated series. I myself have only really started following the second campaign, which is produced in a lot higher quality and starts it’s campaign right at the beginning of their adventure. Vox Machina they played as a game of friends before they started streaming so we pick up this tale a fair bit into the adventure.

So who are the players in these wonderful campaigns? Travis Willingham , who is known as the voice of Turalyon in World of Warcraft and Knuckles in  most of the current sonic games. He is accompanied by his partner Laura Bailey is the voice of Jaina Proudmoore from World of Warcraft, Blaze the Cat in Sonic and kid Trunks in Dragon Ball Z. Matthew Mercer’s partner Marisha Ray is also part of the team, she has done work on the Persona franchise but is mostly working on the twitch channel of Geek and Sundry. Taliesin Jaffe plays along as well this man you might know from the english hellsing dub and like most of them has a role in World of Warcraft in the form of Darion Mograine and Admiral Ripsnarl. Liam O’Brien plays Caleb Widogast in the second campaign, my favorite mage character ever. When he speaks you might know him as Illidan Stormrage! .. yes that is from Warcraft as well. Ashley Johnson is the final girl on the table. Her hollywood career prevents her from being ever present at the game table, she currently stars in the tv series blindspot but I think the most people here would best know her as Ellie, from the last of us.  Academy Award Winner Sam Riegel finishes up the table. While he had his fair share of career moments, amongst us I think we best know him as Tristan Taylor and Rex Raptor from Yu-Gi-Oh. He also played Clovis la Britannia in the Code Geass dub. Together this casts puts on a very enjoyable show that is somewhat reminiscent of those old radio plays… but a lot geekier. 

That’s a lot of rolling!

Critical role currently has somewhere near and over 200 episodes I think With them being three to four hours long that is a lot of campaign to cover. So where do you begin to watch an 700 hour series? (which is excluding all the bonus one shot and special episodes)  Start at the first episode of the second campaign! High production value, good sound quality, plenty of recap episodes to be found and the story is separated from the first. Vox Machina will soon have a animated series, it has a comic and so much more that it will be easy to familiarise yourself with it anyway. The second campaign is a bit more chaotic but also a bit more lighthearted. Which is a great place to start if you don’t know much about D&D and want to see if it might be something for you. Still this series already has about 90 episodes so there’s still a lot of ground to cover. Keep in mind though that the quality of this game doesn’t really reflect an actual D&D game, a fair part of this is somewhat scripted and Matthew has an entire writing team behind him to aid in his endeavours to prepare for each game. Your average DM would not have that, but as a result this kind of feels like D&D the movie.  Yes there is a Dungeons and Dragons movie but…if you see blue lipstick on a guy.. back off! Don’t watch it. There are a few other D&D movies but those I shall cover another time.

Critical Role Campaign two focuses on the (mis)adventures of the mighty nein, a group of ragtag adventurous who get drawn together after there an incident when the circus is in town. What begins as a series of mercenary like mission soon begins to evolve into a greater adventure involving Eldritch like creatures and a mysterious artifact of tremendous power.
Each episode is an actual session of D&D , which can include social encounters, traveling, random combat or complete dungeons. The series is very nicely paced where even dungeon like encounters are mostly done entirely in our heads. Only when doodoo gets real Matthew takes out a model of the area and we get the classical grid based movement that comes with D&D. These are all stunningly made and increase the atmosphere so much. On occasion we see the group practice their sessions at big conventions in front of a live audience, which is also a treat to see. So many people are so engaged with the hobby and that is so mesmerising and really oozes that atmosphere of we are geeks for geeks this show succeeds atso greatly. There is so much content from both campaigns too the one shots. The even promoted the My Little Pony role playing game by playing it! It was friggin adorable to see them fight hellhound …by playing with them and pacifying them. Famous geeks oftenly make guest appearances, like Wil Wheaton , Wesley Crusher from Star Trek the next generation, the big bang theory and his own youtube endeavours for example. But also Deborah Ann Woll , best known for her role as Jessica Hamby in true blood.  Apparently she is a huuuuge geek, and when she played her character Twiggy on the show .. I had a little celebrity crush moment. She also hosts her own show on the Twitch as a DM but unfortunately due to bad time zones that isn’t really watchable to me….I wish she would get a regular seat in the game… than again.. I would celebrity crush all over again.

Fun fun fantasy

With three hours plus each episode, there is very little going on at the sessions visually. Which makes Critical Role the perfect webshow to put on when cleaning. Compare it too an audio book, but instead of that narrative flow where you know the main character will never really die anyway and you can sort off predict if other characters will die or not everything here is decided by a roll of the dice. Just about everything can happen. There may be a script but all you need is one bad dice roll to completely toss that off track. Part of the fun  greatness that is Critical Role is seeing the players have fun, try something out of the box and stump the DM. This is exactly the fun that D&D should be about and even though this version is streamlined for entertainment purposes, it still captures that sense of chaos of an actual game. A lot of the other online campaigns lack that sensation a bit. Here we see the despair on the face of the dm, the fear of death in the players eyes and that irresistible urge to metagame when someone clearly isn’t thinking straight or overlooks their best options.  This still truly is D&D. Trough the voice acting of mostly Mercer but also great acting from Laura Bailey for example in her role as the mischievous tiefling jester Lavorre, this fantasy world comes to live like no other. With no visuals to speak of except for some fan art and location models it all plays off in your head , but unlike most audio books i, in so many different voices that it’s something truly unique. We can hear the characters AND the players, and we can feel both of them having fun! Which turns these adventures into true delights.

Some of the highlights to me are when the game opens and Sam Riegel talks about their sponsors. Each week he prepares a little sketch to promote their sponsor and they are all so weird , funny and out there. We do not see a professional Academy Award Winner doing this.. even if he is.. we see a guy having some fun with it,  like as if we made these skits up right before our dungeons and dragon games. I wrote Jingles on my bard character like he did, I promoted in game stuff when my character was magicly compelled just like he did. I just didn’t happen to get mine produced into an 80’s cartoon commercial..like he did !It all feels just soooooo … geeky and like one of us… that you almost feel as if you are sitting with them at that gaming table. Their animated introduction is something that is truly amazing making me yearn for the day that their animated show finally gets out. It can get a bit commercial here and there.. but that kind of comes with the territory of twitch and youtube.  These guys have found a great community, where geeks unite, this is what I aspire to find.. well not as big and not on my blog persé but I want to be a part of that crowd, a part of people who love each other for loving that one thing they all love.  This show is carried by that community and in a way made for that community. Rather than trying to aim this on a bigger crowd or playing this safe in terms of story Critical Role is not afraid to take risks. Yet they never forget their core audience. While each day new people become Critters (fans of Critical Role are referred as such)  they will never stop doing what made them so amazing in the first place. 

So while we may see an end of epic storytelling in the cinemas where complex stories of moral dilemmas get replaced by battles of absolute good versus absolute evil, we will always have that place where we can turn too for the stories we loved before. While the silver screen rather caters do a few extra dollars than their core audience, somewhere we can still find those epic tales of old being told to us …by people like us. While subtlety and secrecy have less and less of a place in blockbusters in favor of in your face comedy, spectacular boom boom, pow pow that doesn’t need a proper build and where your hand is held in terms of plot.. there is still a place where we can wonder about why that line was spoken so callously, where we can wonder of a guy can be trusted without it being shown to us in the next shot or we jokes can be subtle and require you to see something else to get. To mer personally both The Hobbit and the new Star Wars trilogy have shown that the age of epic storytelling in cinema is over.  We have entered the age of epic visual story telling. While that is entertaining in it’s own way it’s like comparing the joy of a rollercoaster to that of a good book. Luckily youtube has the perfect replacement for geeks like me… we just gotta use a little bit more of our own imagination…but with a community as amazing as the Critters even in that we can be helped. Not by the movie makers, but by one another and to be honest that is an even more epic way to experience these things. Because everything is JUST like we imagine it.

OWLS Fantasy Special: A CLASS in Chaos

Believe it or not, I do not spend every waking moment thinking about pokémon.  I have some other hobbies as well. One of the includes being a Dungeon Master in three games. Though of course one is a  pokémon, another one is a classical high fantasy D&D 5th game. The type where you face dragons and crazed goblins side by  side with your friends using twenty sided dice to overcome any challenge along the way. Over my years of playing and mostly hosting campaigns I have noticed something however, no matter what campaign you play, who you play with or even how long you play… each campaign has “that guy’. Several of them even.

Classes

My fellow OWLS came up with the topic of Fantasy to be the theme of October. 

“The genre of fantasy focuses on telling stories about our external and internal environments. There are many ways we can interpret the word, fantasy. For example, we can talk about how a fantastical place could glorify what reality should be or the dangers of ideal expectations. Fantasy could also be seen as taking a “wild journey” or a “hallucination” and how that can affect our psyche and well-being.  Fantasy can also focus on our personal dreams and expectations and how those expectations do not align with our reality. “

My post will focus on a combination of these aspects through the beautiful medium of Dungeons and Dragons or other tabletop RPGs , answering how and why we play it. How we deal with fantasy and D&D can be divided into ‘Classes’ a trope that is very connected to pen and paper, or even any , role playing games. We can not colour outside the lines to much because in these games we SHARE our fantasies. So not only do we have to live up to our own expectations, we also have make sure the others see that same character we want to be. When we push our fantasy outside of the limits, people will think we are bad at this whole fantasy theme.. so as a result we have developed certain arch-types which always work  for enjoyment. As a DM however I also see how these ‘Classes” can create ‘Broken Parties’.
The anime ‘Konosuba’ portrays this wonderfully well and the main heroes of the story really resemble the types of players one can get in a D&D. So let’s examine this .

The Hero

The first archetype I wish to discuss is the noble hero. The knight in shining armor. Players who follow the path of the hero usually choose character classes in D&D  like Paladin, Fighter or Ranger. That being said, your class doesn’t always have to be one of the three but people are naturally inclined to gravitate towards these roles. Oftenly they prefer to play fairly standard races, like Humans or Elves but basically any race is a possibility to them because everybody can have a good heart.  Oftenly they come from noble backgrounds but got fed up with the injustice in the world. Sons or daughters of people who matter or mattered. They follow the path of Bruce Wayne or oppose their “tyrannical noble father and have been outcast. The characters are often very religious with strong moral fiber. They have denounced love or have created a loved one NPC that  drives them to do what they do. Characters developed by the ‘Hero’ will oftenly abstain from drinking alcohol and will relatively have few vices. Yet most of their story arcs revolve around redemption.

(Ashley Johnson is an
example of the Hero
)

Players in this “class’ will be recognisable by always taking the  ‘good’ option. A friend got kidnapped and they demand ransom? They will at least show up with whatever the bad guy wants in return as well as set up a trap for them.. so that evil will not prevail that day.  They will try try remove the corrupt from their seat of power and try to turn whatever fantasy world they are into a utopia. Their characters are often played as naive OR overly cautious and aware of everything. This is the archetype that is most appealing to new players. They follow the DM’s story very neatly and their own goals are made to align with that of the campaign. They are by far the easiest players to deal with, but the easiest to disappoint when the DM throws a spanner into their plans. They do enjoy their comedic moments from the more chaotic party members and make sure they can aid them at all times. The hero does like the serious moments a lot better though.

Lalatina Dustiness Ford, better known as Darkness,  from Konosuba highlights what creates chaos with these types of players. Your average hero is extremely self sacrificial, putting themselves in harms way to save the rest of the party. They have little to no self preservation and would give their lives to save a party member from a low level imp creature , if it was bluffing it had an instant death curse. They are tension breakers, who like Darkness have some masochistic tendencies. If someone loses their character first, it should be them, if someone has to be punished for the rogue stealing things.. it should be them.  Darkness loves being punished and it arouses her. While I am not implying this goes for every hero player they do share a lot of similarities.

They oftenly reject quest rewards because taking payment for saving people is wrong. During campaigns it means these people can easily get undergeared while still throwing themselves first into danger.  They have tend low self-esteem in real life and value them and their character less over the enjoyment of others. However since they are often very armoured they can be incredibly difficult to hit. Creating stalemates where they are to undergeared to hit anything properly, but are too to take damage. Exactly like Darkness! She can’t hit a thing, but can survive critical hits from bosses like it’s nothing. While players do not flaunt their masochism as much as Darkness does it will always be them who pays toll for their fellows who are either short on cash or unwilling to pay. When someone has to drink a poison to move through a trial it will always be them, and if someone has to take a cursed ring that can eat on one’s sanity it will ALWAYS be them. At times their noble and even corrective behaviour can really put other player out of play. However these people are often the heart of the party, and can bring balance between the more serious and the more wacky players. They enjoy this experience with their friends and alongside the DM they will try to make sure others have a good time as well.

The High Roller

The second type is the High Roller, this type of player doesn’t really care about being noble nor does he aspire to be evil. In fact this one doesn’t even care about the story all that much. The High Roller just wants to outdamage everyone. They want to roll as much dice as possible and maximise their damage output. If someone deals more damage as them, they’ll have a bad session. The High Roller mostly sticks to classes who deal magic damage. Wizard and Sorcerer are very popular with them but they may also dabble with Rogues and are the first person who will ask the DM if they can use third party classes. They play races which benefit their chosen class. So if they play a Wizard, they will choose a race that has an intelligence bonus. Characters they play have less of a fleshed out background , because their story is not that relevant to the numbers they roll. More often than not they play edgy loner characters. The ones who do not make friends easily, who sit alone in a dark corner in the tavern where everyone starts their adventure. For a DM these are the hardest type of characters to get involved into the main story. Be prepared for some creative storytelling. High Roller players have optimal stats for damage , as a result their characters are not very versatile. They can’t use a sword because “strength” is a dump stat,  they can’t talk their way out of things .. because Charisma is a dump stat. Characters of the High Roller almost disappear when they have some time off from slaying goblins and oftenly just pick up a book and read until it is time to kill again.

(Liam O’Brien is a High Roller)

The High Roller player are very driven by the printed game rulings, they do not take kindly to homebrew rules and other interpretations  and are the ones who will argue with the DM the most. High Rollers know which spell they will take for many levels ahead. From the moment of creation their character is already fully build out. They know what spells to take, what feats to select and they know what sort of enemies not to hit. They want to be the one that kills the boss of each session, they want to be praised for that 72 damage they did when the ranger only did 20. It’s the big hits that count. Even if the rogue hit the enemy 5x with 15 damage .. that single 72 roll is still better. The high roller doesn’t like to spare enemies as it means they miss out on the kill. These are people who love to track how much relevant kills each player has made and more often than not they will be on the top of that list.  While most High Rollers do not care as much for a place in the spotlight there are those who do. Because they do so much damage a lot of those tend to get “protagonist” syndrome where they inflate their own importance compared to the rest of the group, oftenly resulting in the character and sometimes the player being less liked. In puzzles they also want to be the one who finally solves it, even if their friends actually solved the riddle, they will take credit for opening the door.

Megumin is the character in Konosuba who fulfills this role. She is an archwizard who has learned the most powerful spell EXPLOSION. Due to it being a spell that is over her limit however she can only cast it once before falling to the ground completely useless. However she is so in love with casting this damage spell she will oftenly put herself in harm’s way to be able to do so. This is a classical high roller player problem. They do not always play that nicely as a team. The High Roller has to do the biggest number each session so sometimes even though he is frail he has to put himself in harm’s way just so he can roll those dice.  This can create chaotic situations where everyone has to save the glass cannon all of the sudden, forcing them to turn their backs on enemies and they can find themselves up a creek without a paddle. Plot Twists that the final boss, was not actually the final boss can be extremely dangerous for your party if the High Roller is baited into using all his good spells early. Megumin embodies this so well, even the fact that she almost “steals” screen time. Her odd ‘non immersive’ name is another indicator where she doesnt care if she even fits in the world. It’s all about that damage. 

 Players who follow this path oftenly feel unrecognised and invisible in the real world, a trope that oftenly is liked by the ‘number’ guys of gal of the group. The “smart” ones as it were. People who like this role tend to flaunt their intelligence in real life a bit, oftenly choosing more serious table conversations than the other three categories. Not exactly the life of the party but these people are very grateful towards the DM because they are granted something by them that they lack. Their loyalty to the game is oftenly unsurpassed and with some health cheating from a DM (and we all do that)  they are among the easiest of crowds to please, which will give them actually great joy. In most groups the High Roller feels like the odd one out, yet we all need them to keep the game into motion because….

The Survivor

D&D is a game where characters can  and in case of long campaigns, most likely WILL die. However there is one type of player who above anything else is very afraid to lose their imaginative character. I call these people the survivors. They tend to play versatile classes, which have access to self heals, ranged attacks and even some melee possibilities .. just in case they ever got forced into such a situation. They like to play healers as well as those tend to be targeted less (unlike in my campaigns where enemies ACTUALLY have eyes and will take countermeasures) . They tend to play some of the more relatable races like humans and elves again. Oftenly very beautiful and sweet. They aren’t adverse to picking another good looking race though, if it gives them better stats. The survivor tends to choose a background story that makes their character beloved and popular or at the very least desired by their beauty. They are oftenly the rightful noble ruler of a land who had to flee or got taken off the throne by some mysterious force. These characters fall in line the fairytale tropes a lot. Even when played by non-females they prefer choose to make a female character. I have seen male survivor characters but they occur significantly less. These characters tend to be very fleshed out, with players even being able to describe what scent their character have or how they move their eyes, in an instant . They tend to be obsessed with even the smallest details of their looks and will describe every single outfit within fine detail.  Characters like these blossom in downtime/ free time , making themselves very popular in towns and being kind to most npc’s, as long as they are not evil.

(Laura Bailey is a Survivor)

The Survivor themselves however is not nearly as strong or confident as they make their character. Ruled by a constant fear of losing their character they would wish their character was a god. In terms of building their character they are the exact opposite of the High Roller. When A survivor gets in trouble because of poison, the player will tend to choose a spell or gain new equipment to counter that in the future.  They “patch’ out their weaknesses as it were but tend to lose oversight of the bigger picture trough their fears . When I as a DM send you through a poisonous bog, it will most likely mean you will not encounter a similar challenge for a good while after. However the survivor is paranoid by nature, they saw they were weak to this.. they know I saw, what if I use it to finish them off now better patch it out. The Survivor tends to demonise the DM , sees them as a heinous monster just out to kill them in the most brutal way possible.A survivor oftenly refers to their character as themselves . They also tend to suffer from protagonist-syndrome even more so than the High Roller. They are unmissable to the story in their eyes and will make an effort and play to actually be that.. They will carry the macguffin,  as long as it does not harm their character. They will offer to be be the leader of the group, as long as that doesn’t put them into additional danger. They will do anything to inflate their character’s importance as that equals survivability in their eyes. To kill the character would be to kill the story. They keep looking backward instead of forward, taking abilities to overcome trials like the one they just overcame and banking on importance of NPCs they befriended when they already moved past.

Aqua, the former goddess from Konosuba is a bit of a spoof of the classical survivor trope. While we do not see her take useless skills in the form of “after event skills” she spends all her skill points in their magical world on party tricks. Which she uses to make herself more popular and beloved. Claiming to be an actual goddess (which in her case is true)  and very much disliking the current god Erris (Which is basically is sort of the DM of that world) she even goes as far as to blackmail that god into bringing back a dead character for her own sake. Her over reliance on ‘useless’ skills can make her extremely situational and sometimes even completely offside her, which we see happen when she tries to punch some toads. During her dealings with the poisoned lake we also see the typical panic that goes through a Survivor type player. She is portrayed whining a lot, and crying , overvaluing  herself and her items.

When rolling a dice you average about half of it rounding up, effectively.  This means if you can roll a d6 for damage you average 4..This is not the case in the eyes of a survivor. They will always assume the worst. A survivor will ‘never’ risk their character even if there is only a 1% chance of death. I once saw a Survivor player flee a dungeon, leaving the party behind causing one player death because there was a 0.16% chance that she would be finished off before she could end the fight. In the eyes of a survivor they will always get the worst outcome possible and they will act accordingly. This can drag on encounters a lot longer than they need to be and the survivor will always take the longest to finish their turns. Players who follow the path of the survivor are oftenly uncertain in real life and their fear can cripple themselves as well as your game. However this type tends to heal and find more confidence in themselves trough games over time. The survivor is the easiest to spot as he or she will be the player who will have the other players reaching for their phones.  They can not plan ahead because they need all information before they can decide on any play. Survivors are among the  greatest of roleplayers though, they make sure you care about their character and really make it a part of this world. They are the easiest of characters for everyone party member to hang out with and where the hero united players out of character, the survivor does so in character.

The Disruptor

The Hero can break your tension arcs or force you into using overpowered monsters, the High Roller can risk party-strategies and is not very well equipped for sudden twists and the survivor can make your game very panicky and long winded. The ‘worst’ one however and the true “that guy” of them all is the disruptor. They  will always be there in any fantasy game and their goal is to break your story. Where the other 3 classes try to follow the game’s story the disruptor actively tries to make your adventures NOT about what the DM planned. Rogues and Bards are by far their preferred classes, but they also Barbarian. Disruptors rarely play humans, they like to play races like Orcs, Goblins and alcoholic Dwarfs. Their backstories are loaded with vices, be it ale, women or recreational herbs, gambling or a knew crazy thing they invent themselves.  Regardless if their character is a rogue or not .. they always have skill points invested in Sleight of Hand (which is pickpocketing) and the law means about as much to their character as the DM’s will to the players. They are extremely quirky and quite cartoonesk. I DMed for a goblin named Scruffy ones, who lost all sense of reality after he fell in some sort of hallucinogenic potion as a result he had a pet he named Ugly Batstard.. a bat that didn’t exist. Within the first two minutes of the campaign he walked over to a table with the bulkiest dude and said “Hey Ugly Batstard” get your fat ass off, Chaos was born. In another campaign there is a guy who plays a chicken, he robbed a store quite early in the game.

(Sam Riegel is THE Disruptor)

The disruptor type player is the one who enjoys the game the most though, come high or come low rolls, the disruptor is the player who is always entertained. The disruptor lives for the RP using it to act out like they can not in real life. They don’t play to win, they play to break some rules and have fun doing it. If you as a DM describe “a tavern and a man sitting , he is reading a treasure map of sorts scratching his stubbles with a dagger while he has a cloak that seems to fancy for him,” the disruptor will ask ‘who else is there?. If you say ‘some random goblin by the name of  Skurft the disruptor will go talk to Skurft. If you say no one, they will walk outside to talk to random people there. They do not want to play by the rules and they WILL find way to skip encounters or even complete dungeons. They will cost the DM hours of work by simply, not going to the route you had planned before them and someday they will succeed. Each DM learns about the ‘Illusion’ of choice  trough disruptor type players. Sometimes you only have to make players think they are making a game changing choice. While the rest of the archetypes described play against the game, the disruptor plays against the DM, they want to stump their creativity want to dumbstruck them. A DM drawing a blank is their victory.

Kazuma is 100% a disruptor, so much even that the guy who played that Goblin (and the chicken too)  made him his avatar for about a year. From the moment we get introduced to the man he is a clear and plain disruptor. Sometimes by his own design, like when he choose Aqua to be his weapon in this new world and drags her away from her god status, too random moments where his high luck stat causes things to move in a very unexpected path. ‘I’ll cripple the enemy by stealing their weapon!’ He ends up crippling them by stealing their panties instead. ‘A magical powerful weapon comes onto your path?’ Sell if for money so I can booze a lot. Kazuma feels very detrimental to the story progression of Konosuba, where they plan to stop the Evil Demon king, but Kazuma’s action basically constantly creating ‘side arcs’ and side quest that have to be resolved first.  Because of their massive impact and alterations on the story disruptors often end up becoming a sort of main character of the campaigns they are in. Kazuma again fills this role quite well. They are always deeply flawed characters and I do not think that I need to convince anyone who saw the anime that this boy is a flawed character.

Disruptors unlike most of the other archetypes are relatively more socially outgoing, they like to mess with their friends , they aren’t that insecure about themselves  and they are the most socially capable of all the Player Archetypes, in general. They aren’t necessarily socially strong either though. Disruptors tend to be people who tend to be “bored” in reality , who feel suffocated by having to be normal and that usually does mean they can’t really let themselves go in a bar either. They tend to be a bit more random in real life though too , perhaps being a bit shunned because how strange they can be. The real disruptors can not 100% hide that they are a bit goofy. As a player I myself am a disruptor, you notice I am socially “odd” in real life but when I rp I can let that side out and be myself. I played an heavily Autistic Draenei clumsy in World of Warcraft and I played a pink wearing , singing cheery Sith who claims Friendship is Magic in Star Wars the Old Republic. I like to break the mold. While by their very nature they cause chaos the Disruptor also makes your game so much more vibrant and alive. They make all other classes better at their roles and stronger roleplayers, because they always have to expect the unexpected and they can boost your creativity. They pay close attention to every word the DM says (to use it against them) and really can bring a game-table alive.

Order and Chaos

So even in the limitless world of fantasy we are somewhat bound, by who we are, no matter who we play or where we pretend to be, there is always that part of who we are that we can not truly shake. No matter if I am an kawaii evil space wizard or a dojikko demon girl , I am a disruptor. No matter where my best friend her boyfriend plays his campaigns he will always be a hero. There is a thoughtprocess we can not shake even if we shed ourselves of our limits. There order even in imaginatio and fantasy. No matter who you pretend to be, deep down you do it because of who you are. You can never truly betray yourself and this is why tabletop roleplay will always feel so therapeutic. 

While I do think your typical hero does have little self esteem, trough rp he can see that he in fact IS needed. We can rationalise it and say.. he is just needed in this fictional game.. but for the survivor this is much more than a game, it’s an escape they truly need. So a hero can ACTUALLY be a hero in reality, even if it is acted out trough fantasy. A disruptor can shed their shackles , even if it is just for a three hour gaming session. The high roller can proof their intelligence can gets them far, because the numbers he crunches in real life might seem insignificant in the big pile of real life, in the small contained world of D&D his numbers visibly matter. In real life he might , if lucky ,  get a compliment from his boss.. once.. and that’s it, in fantasy he can use that same skill to see numbers explode. He can be himself in a rewarding way. The survivor can get validation, a sense of winning by surviving a game and see their character grow up to be a noble king or queen, their good intentions recognised by npc’s. While arguably an npc is ‘not real’ they still react to the words of the players, they offer them feedback and when Dm’ed correctly they have their own feelings and emotions. The social interaction thusly in a way.. being still real.

We can learn, grow and truly discover who we are through the power of fantasy. Not in the chaos we create by doing our thing but in looking at the order that is left when we take the chaos of both the fantasy world and our own world away. We aren’t defined by our flaws or our quirks, we have those flaws and quirks because of who we are. To deny them is to deny a piece of yourself. So through fantasy  and D&D we can find who we are, not though what we create but trough what we bring to each world no matter the world. While our goals may never really align with one another, even if they seem to directly contradict there is a symbiosis between the four archetypes as well. We all have our roles to play, even our flaws allow our party to shine. No matter who are what you are, you will always contribute to the fantasy of D&D , be it to yourself or to the party! You can discover who you are in your very core and be that person you want to be! That way in fantasy and outside it you can build a stronger character.

Question to my Readers:

Which Player-Class would you be in?

Let me know what class you would be in in the comments. If you still want more OWLS check out Matt in the Hat’s post about Kingdom Hearts right here! His profile picture doesn’t show him wearing a hat though? So is he actually in a hat?! That must be a big hat then!
Tomorrow it’s time for Flow. The subject will be some fantasy Light Novels and some angry melodic music called death metal. While that music is not pink enough for me I will take a careful peak, or even better you guys take a peak for me and tell me how angry the music was! I’m scared! Then come back and tell me if the music is too angry for me! Flow’s blog is here! Be sure to check the Youtube channel as well.
Let’s do that! I am counting on you my little monsters!

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