LIfestyle – Pinkie's Paradise

Pinkie “Shops” Adorable Home Additions for a Moth-Girl!

Konichiwa my little lights! I have yet to be sponsored by Japan Trend Shop to promote their stuff..but until then I will continue to do it for free… in a rather silly way! Fairly random as well! I always pick a theme…. this year instead of making New Year’s Resolutions I decided to pick New Years Wishes… Not something I really will buy..but something I like to dream about! Because it’s good to have dreams…and lamps!

All I want for 2021 is…… A Thousand Dollar Plushie!

So you all know I like plushies right? Turning into a Kaijuman did not stop me from loving soft fluffy animals.. but Japan Trend Store usually doesn’t have a lot of them.. so when I was browsing and encountered this one.. I was really intrigued! I really wanted to hug this thing… and battle it to the death..but mostly hug…after I killed it?! No! Behave! You are a nice Kaijuman! Regardless.. it is a nice plushie! Why would I want a thousand dollar plushie you might ask?! Well It’s made by Steiff! Steiff is like “THE” brand for Teddy Bears and those things only go up in value. So rather than seeing it as a plushie you can see it as an investment in Mohair and stuffing! And with only 1954 made .. I could actually kill 1953 .. and hug one and make my investment worth it!

Why were they made in 1954 made? Well that is the year in which Godzilla first was seen. That’s right he is a fair bit older than most of us.. In 2014 Steiff made this toy to commemorate his 60th anniversary. Coming in at 50 centimeter it will also look like a Kaiju compared to most of my plushies and if I get some Lego’s I can build a city and let my thousand Dollar Toy destroy the city! RAWR….CRASH..STOMP! .. WIND BLAST.. wait now I am destroying my own lego city! Oh well! guess Zilly and I are nakama in being destroyers now! Smash! Just look at it’s cute face! It looks so fluffy! So if you want me to come destroy your toy.. buy this for yourself! As long as you don’t live in a tiny house you should be fine and we can hang out afterwards!

Okay so I might also want ……… a Pineapple Scented Lamp

If you are a bit like me you’ll often sniff your lamp in melancholy! “Why can’t my lamp smell like a Pineapple?!” It is such a shame because I find myself close to lamps a lot lately. Yet they all kind of smell like plastic! How am I supposed to get that tropical island feeling from that?! Well luckily the clever scientists made a thingy just for me! That is right the Pineapple Scented Lamp is here! No I am not talking about one of those lamps you add oil to! I tried those but they aren’t very lampy! Oftenly I over oil and one of those oil bubbles sucked into that little nozzle thing and the thing barely works after unless you clean it for hours! This one is different! With just glass and Paraffin fragrance there isn’t too much to hold you from admiring your lamp in full glory! It will set you back €32,- or $39,- which is a bit pricey for a Lamp that seems to be able to “run out” but these clever people of Japan have thought of a solution for that!

You see.. the light is not just a cutesy light! It also features a beautiful starry Cityscape as a pattern! All lights look purple and cute when extinguished but when activated with the power of two CR2032 Batteries your scene comes to live in beautiful colours. There are three scents we can purchase. Raspberry, which colours your night sky in a beautiful sunset purple and pink.. then there is the Citrus scent.. which colours the sky orange and yellow, like a sunset on the Spanish Orchards. And then there is the Pineapple Scented one.. which turns the sky Yellow and Green…. and now all of you naysayers will wonder.. V-Pinkie, the sky isn’t green! Well it is on Namek! Most of us Kaijumans can go into space you know.. though I really would need help from Elon… regardless green skies do exist.. like the Aurora Borealis that is green as well! I bet it would really be nice to smell pineapples in the regions where you can see it too! It doesn’t grow on trees there! All in all.. it might be worth the money and after it is done you can smash the lamp on the ground real hard! HEHEHEHE! Bye bye little city HEHEHEHE!

Might as well wish something else when that runs out … LED Pokémon Wall Light

So even the non Virtual me would have liked this.. but I love it even more! I genuinely and truly do think these would look amazing as well decorations in my bedroom. Plus I could use a bit of a night light as I am pretty blind in the dark… that MUST be why I like Lamps so much! Anyway this Pokémon LED lights look cute as a button! With five varieties to choose from you can truly catch them all… though it is a bit of a shame that two of these are Pikachu! *Sigh* Merchandise caters so much to the normies.. what great Pokémon like Lampent and Chandelure! I think they would have made great wall lights! It’s not like I am asking for hard stuff like Xuriktree! But at least we get Mimikyu and Gengar.. I can vibe with those so those would be the first two I would get as well.. and lucky me they are the cheapest as well.

Coming in at 51 dollars these are quite adorable! And you can get the set of all five for like 256 dollars.. which is like a 10 ish dollar discount. Since the Pikachu’s and Eevee’s cost extra. … Hmmm paying extra to be basic..the horror! At least when you get them all you don’t pay extra for the crowd favourites.. so I guess that is the only way I would buy those…is that smart marketing? I am not sure! I also wonder why Mimikyu is the only one that has eyes! I get why a shiny ghost night light SHOULD NOT have eyes.. so I go understand why Gengar doesn’t have eyes.. and the eyes on Mimikyu’s fake head aren’t there.. but those aren’t his real eyes! It’s the tiny ones we see down below! Well… I want the one with eyes the most so I guess I will go for the Mimku one!

Oh and I also want…. One Piece Nico Robin Sunglasses

This one is on my wishlist because I find it comically over priced.. and hey it’s nice that I desire something other than a lamp right?! Well I find myself staring at a bunch of light recently so I figured finding a good pair of sunglasses might be useful! Those are kind of hard to come by right now for me though ..because it’s Winter.. not a lot of sunglasses on sale… I know I am a Megane Moth but.. I can wear contacts for the right pair of Sunglasses.. and since these cost $365 they better darn be the best sunglasses I have ever had. Of course.. for that price it is not just sunglasses it also comes with a wiping cloth with Nico Robin printed on it.. and a case with the One Piece logo!

Okay..so the frame has to be by a designer right? I mean…. otherwise $365 for two sheets of some acrylic glass and a thin frame seems a bit overpriced… NO! It’s made by Bandai’s Toy Division… So this is a toy?!It does look stylish. I will give it that. It has UV400 Protection so that is good.. but as a cosplay article.. I have seen other yellow tinted glasses before and with such a thin frame like the one Robin uses.. no one will really fine tooth comb that stuff… you pay because this is OFFICIAL.. this is not just a cosplay prop! These ARE the exact same glasses Robin wears or something.. well.. I want them.. I just would never pay for them.. but if you are a millionaire and are looking to give me a cute gift.. I’ll happily take this as it will let me look at the world a little bit more as if it was a lamp, all yellow and all!

Honourable mention here goes to the Fun’iki Digital Eyewear.. which are glasses.. that flash in a colour every time you get an email or a phone notification! This so that you don’t ever have to check your phone to see if that email already arrived. For $450 dollars you can save all that time you spend looking on your phone falsely.. and instead you get constant flashing eyes in your face.. I am a Moth and I am afraid I might get epilepsy from this…if things seem dire.. there should really be a way that you can tell a new notification has popped up on your phone.. you know maybe a sound signal.. or a vibration?!…. Oh wait! Talk about solving a non problem!

Check out this video hyping them up though!

And Finally I’d really like a ……… Godzilla Humidifier

Now that we have to spend so much time at home here in lockdown, we might as well assure it’s the best quality time we have. With a quality time becomes a quality climate. In 1992 Momma Mothra fought Godzilla and well, I kind of want revenge! Now for $125 dollar I can make Godzilla work for me! To make sure my wings don’t go to try! He got downsized a bit to make sure he fits my home to about a 20 centimeter size. So even if I am not using the humidifier! It will look like a cool decorative piece in my plushie and figure cabinet. Unlike my figures though it has a bit of a function and generally one I kind of actually need! It looks sturdy enough so I can probably slap it around a bit and tell Mamma I beat Godzilla so all the more reason for me to like it.

What Godzilla does, he does with flair! Of course he doesn’t just breath a delightfully moist mist! A little blue Led Light will tint the mist blue in dark rooms! So when Indigo dims my lights again! …. Baka! … I will see the blue mist! Just like Godzilla’s atomic breath! It also comes equipped with sounds from Mothra vs Gozilla. Mostly it’s roars of course… which might be kind of distrubing for my neighbour, as if Godzilla cries I tend to do my cry as well. I still need to work on it because I keep ending up with Wrrrrrryyyyyy but people will always remember another guy for that. Regardless… Godzilla comes with a second “tail” that you can hook up with your power grid (provided you have the right adapter as it will have a Japanese plug). Shinji Nishikawa has designed the packaging. Well.. kind of, he helped illustrate it so the box art is nice.. and just look at the little guy! Doesn’t he look adorable?!

This one has promotional video as well! So be sure to check that out if you are not on Reader!

As you may have noticed I have kind of expensive tastes.. I am trying to reduce those urges but hey a moth needs pretty lamps! I saw a VTuber review toilet once.. I could do that with lamps! Still tough , if you want to encourage my purchasing behaviour please consider joining my Patreon. I have recently lowered the price of my second Tier to make it a little bit more accessible. I might add another tier to play the D&D with Coconuts in the future as well (without some of the other advantages) so check it out! OR leave a nice little gadget lamp or something else in the comments! I love comments almost as much as I love lamps!

Pinkie Recommends: The YouTube Series Series Episode 1: Princess in Japan

Hello my Little Lights! I haven’t been in much of a movie mood lately! Nor did I want to sit through a big series, I just haven’t been into a lot of western content recently at all to be fair.. could it be that it is because I have Kaiju blood running through my veins? I do really prefer East! There is one thing I still like to do a lot though and that is seeing Western Content creators on YouTube! So I will be taking you on a trip between some of my favourite creators on the platform that holds my dreams. However instead of just highlighting the person I decided to pick “series” on their channel that I like. I call it the YouTube Series Series… because I found that funny! … I am a weird Moth… Welcome to the first Episode.

The Content Creator

The Princess in Japan series is done by a YouTuber named Princess Peachie. She started her channel in 2010 and produces content on an irregular basis. She is a geeky lifestyle vlogger, having diverse content such as Lolita Fashion blogs, reviewing Polly Pocket toys and a tour across her home. Peachie doesn’t Vlog in a professional capacity, meaning she doesn’t make a living by it and relies on another job as her main source of income. Her channel has about 71K subscribers so she is like 70.5k followers ahead of your beloved Moth.. and well since I am not even really on YouTube yet, maybe even more! An average video does about 12k likes and between 25 to 75 five people interact on her videos. She is currently ranked 69.366 on the famous Birthday ranking list.

Peachie is a Scottish content creator that I really vibe with because of her witty and humoristic blogging style with a hyper cute aesthetic. She is a big Pokémon fan, she is pretty deeply into D&D and she is a fair bit of a gamer! HEAVILY into animal crossing but recently taking a liking to the Final Fantasy VII remake as well. She is very active on Twitter and I have had some interactions with her that always feel friendly and warm and her person is someone I think I could be easily friends with, had I been Scottish. Though bagpipe music totally makes me anxious so perhaps it is better that I am not Scottish.. also being Peachie’s friend seems to be rather expensive! She is a lovely person who you often see buying gifts for her friends or significant other though. All in all a pretty delightful person to witness on screen, and with some skill in video design she is pretty good in editing as well, showing some more advance stuff such as motion tracking objects onto moving people etc.

The Series to me

By far her most popular content on the channel is the subject I want to talk to you about today.. the Princess in Japan series. As you can imagine by the name! It’s a travel vlog, showing off her adventures while in Japan back in 2018. Though recently she has started editing and putting out Princess in Japan Redux a second season in which she returns to Japan as well. For convenience sake I will treat Redux as part of the same series. I included an episode in this post.. but like always! It won’t show up on reader! In the first series however she travels to Japan with her best friend Jewels, and in the second series she visits the land of the rising sun with her boyfriend. Jewels being a film-girl herself also shoots footage so the first season has a lot more dynamic camera work, showing us a lot more of Peachie in third person while the second season is more of a “first person” travel report. Content also varies slightly as well with Jewels being into a lot more girly things than “The Mister is” As a result though both offer a fairly different take on a trip to Tokyo (and some neighbouring areas).

What makes this travel vlog so special to me is that is is really done by someone like me. So Peachie visits many of the places I would visit. Including the Pokémon Café and Sanrio Puroland. She also visits Disney Tokyo… which I would not visit or the Barbie Café but those are all short and very nice and are super entertaining as well. In all honesty, I don’t think my Japan dream will ever come alive for me, my health is keeping me from working, both Mentally and physically it has issues.. and things need to change for that to properly happen. So Peachie offers me a taste of what I might never see with my own eyes.. trough a lense that is super close to my own eyes. Her content also feels like one of those old school family vacation shoots but with some really fun editing put on top of it. It feels reachable and sincere. She is a huge weeb, and can get pretty socially awkward at times at it is nice to see that side of things. I love virtual YouTubers as well but in Peachie I see a lot of the person I want to be in real life. It offers a sweet little fantasy!

The Series to You

Of course Peachie will not be a proxy to everyone.. yet I still would recommend the show to you all! Why is that?! Because regardless if she is like you or not, Peachie is one of us.. geeks and Otaku. She sees so many interesting things in Japan. Are you into Lolita clothing.. there is an episode where she goes to a weird Mall to get Lolita gear cheap, are you are game nerd? There is an episode that is halfy dedicated to Pokémon. There is a Pretty Cure episode for the anime fans and she does stuff that all of us might find interesting. She visits the Monster Café.. that unfortunately went out of business due to Covid at the start of this year. She visits regular combini’s and talks about how shopping in Japan works. She joins a pack of Harajuku girls. She visits a big tourist Onsen that includes a pain pool. Shinto temples, wearing classical kimonos there is so much to see! I love how often they go and grab little Gachapon to bring home towards their friends for example or how we get a talk about airport bathrooms. Why? Because she just films her trip as she tries to entertain herself. She is having an amazing time rather than to try and entertain us and it really shows! That is the type of content I want to make! I want to have fun and share that with you! I think she can be a great inspiration for anyone who feels like they don’t know what to write or create!

Because Peachie is a small content creator, we do not see her get special treatment, we do not see her yell catchphrases in the lense or pick attractions that will do well in the algorithm.. we see a journey through Japan as we would experience it. No filming in restricted areas and no real knowledge or studied script beforehand. As a girl it is nice to see them get up early.. but snooze their way through their makeup time.. so now they are going to have to find some subway station bathroom to put their makeup on for a day in Disneyland. You see them making plans but then it begins to rain so the plans adapt and we see them walking into a lot more niche places. Places you would never plan to visit during a trip to Japan but might stumble upon! I would never visit the Barbie café for example and I found it a bit creepy and underwhelming.. I think there is one dish on the menu where you eat the clothes of a barbie doll! It is fascinating to see though and it’s nice to see these girls take it on with a massive enthusiasm but also a lot of humor.

My Favourite Episode

Obviously the Episode in which Peachie visits the Pokémon Café is my favourite of them all! There is so much fun to be had in seeing all the Pokémon, seeing the food and seeing Peachie spill her MooMoo milk flavouring almost on the person sitting next to her.. I bet I would do that too! I was delighted to see all the Pokémon toys and hear her apologise to the food shaped like Pokémon, feeling bad she has to tear apart Pikachu’s head and making body gore jokes about it! I felt so connected with her at that moment! She did order the wrong desert as the only correct option is the Jigglypuff Cheesecake of course but I will forgive her for that one! The mimikyu crepe Jewels ate looked delightful as well! After a good Poké-meal they go shopping in the Pokémon Center and Jewels picks up an Alolan Vulpix to check out how it looks, instantly falling in love with it.. she knows she has to buy it now! I would get into that type of situation! The wall of evil Pikachu’s also really got me! I’d need to go in the Pokemon Center DX with a supervisor and without a credit card. Cash only! So much cute stuff to be found!

Later in that same episode they visit a made café, no special treatment for them so they can’t film the whole Moe Moe Kyun ritual thing but at least that made things a bit less cringe to watch. While I would love to go along with the atmosphere while I sit at the table seeing other people do it when you can’t vibe the atmosphere isn’t as swell. Because of rain they also end up in a random shop that sells cute cosplays for dirt cheap so that would be a great encounter for me… though I would have spent all my money in the Pokémon center already! It just highlights two aspects of Japanese culture that I like very much, Pokémon and the Maid/Idol culture so this episode scores high points. The one where she visits the Monster Café and the one with the Onsen are other personal favourites of mine! They are all good but those three I hold closest in my heart. If you want a nice down to earth Japan travel blog with a lot of girly sweetness and innocence poured on top.. be sure to check this creator out! I will leave you with the 5th episode as a little idea of what she is about! Let me know what you think! Do you know a creator like this?!

Elon Musk if you are reading this and are like… “Now that I have beaten Jeff Bezos” I need a new thing to do.. but charities are so passé! Help this girl’s dreams come through! I’d figure I would need about 6000 euros for a trip to Japan? That would include spending money! Maybe a bit more maybe a bit less it depends on the season. I’d need to have something similar to become a professional VTuber ..but I will put Space-X or Tesla logo on my VTuber outfit! Then maybe a few thousand to improve my health with medical treatments and quality of life improvements.. Email me and I am sure we can work something out! OR you can make a large Donation on Kofi!..if you do it fast I’ll promise to take Peachie with me.. your welcome for me recommending Peachie to you Elon!

The Paradise Weekly Gazette 4: 30 November to 6 December

The first month of Steampunk Month has already come and went by! While the animini’s did not change, the look of our website outside the reader certainly did! Let’s look back on this week and see what sorts of stuff we did and of course what is up next! We will also discuss with you what is happening around the blogosphere! So strap in for a ride through all our posts as we bring you our fourth ever Paradise Weekly Gazette.

The Animinis

We had an okay week of Anime this week, with a really strong Digimon episode, a super charming Natsume and a new show which I .. kinda liked in the form of Revolutionary Girl Utena. Not exactly new I know.. but a lot of you seem to really enjoy me watching classics and I lack a lot of them and I am having a lot of fun with them! Two shows I really like have entered “drop” quality for me though so let’s hope they pick up again soon! Luckily both are nearly finished as well!

Digimon Episode 13: Garudamon of the Crimson Wings

Samurai Flamenco Episode 20: Boy from the Past

That Time I got Reincarnated as a Slime Episode 19: Charybdis

Revolutionary Girl Utena Episode 1: The Rode Bride

Hikaru no Go Episode 24: Akira vs The Oza

Natsume Book of Friends Episode 4: Shigure and The Girl

Cowboy Bebop Episode 4: Gateway Shuffle

My favourite watch actually was Digimon, though Hikaru no Go came super close! I just liked the voice of Fanbeemon so much, and the colours and everything in Digimon that it really struck a chord that I really needed this week! My least favourite view is probably Slime.. though Samurai Flamenco really annoyed me as well.. the last one mostly hurts because they had a really good ending already and this is kind of wrecking it!

Pinkie’s Other Post

Of course we also had to create some Steampunk posts .. after all it is Steampunk month!
On monday it was still november though so I had to pay my respects to my Senpai first! After that we could move ahead full steam.. that pun sounded way to corny I am so sorry! Here is the other stuff I did this week!

I made Irina into a Pokémon.. and also determined what type of trainer she would be!

I determined how my life would be had we lived in a Steampunk society!

I watched a city attack a wall and get beaten by a usb drive plus a million things!

I gushed about how amazing my favourite Final Fantasy game is in a love letter!

I wrote this post! So if you want you can click here to go to this post!

Camp Coconut Updates

No Kofi donations this week for me so no stories to tell about the Coconuts either.. they might be hibernating and saving their money for christmas.. I have been playing around with the idea of creating a Patreon.. with a few fun tiers but I need better reward for lurking people who don’t like to socialise and Pokémon Battle. So this is a work in progress. I might ask an audience with king Coconut to see what would be good tiers! Hail the Wise King Coconut!

You can sprout a Coconut based on you by supporting our Kofi once.. but supporting it regularly your Coconut will get into several adventures that will be mentioned here..and your Coconut might start to look a bit fancier.. though I still need to update the Shy Coconut’s art.. I have since chosen a design element I want to add! However we might change things up a bit when Patreon comes around.. so keep following the news or assure yourself of a coconut!

Posts that Impressed Pinkie

Now that we move from November into December, a lot of posts are summaries of the past month.. I will not share those.. I want you to explore these blogs for yourself. I just wish to wet your appetites.

I always like to include one activating shout out! Where you can participate in something.. or where a blogger is being celebrated. This week Amelia is starting her A Girl and Her Anime Awards and while I have seen virtually nothing on her list to vote for and was to lazy to figure out if Digimon was a Summer of Fall Anime.. so I backed out of voting. I am an old lady after all I watch past stuff! But for all you seasonal watchers out there! Vote on her amazing list so we can find the best anime out there! If I actually send you there .. vote for me for most influential blogger! That we all win…but mostly me! .. Uhm I mean Amelia!

Lyn really really enjoyed the Promised Neverland and he pretty much sold me on it as well! I already heard good things.. but this made me want to watch it more.. In fact I think I will replace Samurai Flamenco with it on my watch list whenever I am done with that. So I will probably pick this up soon! I do not like his post .. as in press the button. That often but that is because I usually read his reviews after he tweets them out.. on my phone .. and I am not logged in on WordPress there! I am waaaay behind stuff so I don’t read episode summaries of shows I want to see.. but seeing people enjoy shows I don’t like.. also gives me pleasure! Make sure to check out his reviews if you haven’t already!

Ospreyshire is such a good guy! He reviews movies and anime that tend to fly a bit under the radar so you might not have heard of him , I know my friends on the Scott-Jon Spencer front follow him but he always deserves more. I am a bit of a different kind of blogger but there is so much I can find in his posts I can respect.. but who better to explain what he is all about then the man himself. In this post he describes why he writes and it is amazing!

My blogging friend Joy is one of the most unique personalities you’ll ever see. She’s kind of like .. part Vulcan , part genius inventor, and a whole lot of programmer. Her ramblings on life are unique , spirited and playful! I do not consider myself a dumb person but when I read her quote Dante, when I see her tell her stories in her own way.. I feel dwarfed..and slightly attracted. I might be a Sapio-Romantic? Who knows! Joy discusses the heavy team of our own mortality and its implications.. but she does so in a very Joy way. The topic is something I am quite familiar with but her visions and her revelations at the end make for an interesting read for anyone. So do visit Joy .. and follow her blog.. she will be the president one day.. and remember a vote for Joy is a vote for love! So I assume a Like for Joy is like liking love as well!

Pinkie Away from Keyboard

I have had my ups and downs this week and the down is mostly been in my energy levels. I do have this a lot but the weather shifting to being super cold is flooring me and making my energy levels next to non existent. That also means I have done next to no exciting stuff! I am playing Dishonored for a Steampunk Review later this month.. and I am having an .. okay time with that so far. Not exactly my game .. but the setting is a lot of fun! I have also been feeling the call to return to Pokémon Shield again, do some shiny hunting and complete the dlc! But that will probably be something for a bit later. I really want to get my shiny Wooloo though! It will be fun to let Whippy the Allcreamie get a Giantamax form as well. Just so many games to play.

Other than that I have had a good talk with my psych.. he did a good job but it did not help my fatigue. I had a good but heavy talk and that took me out of wednesday and a migraine crippled me a bit on thursday which reduced my ability to work ahead. Mind you working ahead does mean writing four posts per day so that might be asking a bit much on days like those but yes unless I find lots of energy today I might not be able to make that guest post for Irina’s blog I tried to make this week! Oh well I will find a way to make everything work.

On Saturday the 5th of December the Dutch and the Belgian people celebrate a tradition called Sinterklaas. It’s about a Saint Nick that comes bearing gifts! The modern western Santa is a mix between our Sinterklaas and the British Father Christmas. Though both outdate the tradition of Santa. Saint Nicolas will stuff your shoes with a present if you have been good.. or a bunch of twigs for corporal punishment if you were bad.. though of course concerned moms abolished those twigs called “de roe” a few years ago. Nowadays more of the tradition is being scrutinized.. for just enough reasons but the country is going made and being divided. So to celebrate the tradition this year I am going to visit my mom, we exchange gifts and share a meal together. No large gifts we will do that around christmas.. but just a nice little gesture. I will go out to do so right after scheduling this post so I can’t tell you what my gift just yet .. but if I am fit enough .. I might update this..probably not though.

Next wednesday I am going to Amsterdam for two days, spend some time in a hotel and do some important stuff while I am there as well, health stuff, but also take my time and enjoy a change of setting for a night. I might not be able to travel back so just making so booked a place to stay just in case and will make the next day an enjoyable one. We are going to eat some Tapas at the hotel, with some drinks at the hotel bar.. a friend is coming along to drive me and for support. And we will go to the Vondelpark or zoo depending the next day to relax a bit! Depending on how crowded the city is!

Plans

Depending on my energy levels I might skip a daytime post or two so I can relieve my workload a bit and work ahead a bit more.. if I am good with energy however, I do plan to bring you my interpretation of a Pokémon Steampunk Game. I want to talk about a Steampunk anime movie, and watch another Steampunk movie as well! I also managed to beat the super hard game Steel Empire for Americans.. but Empire of Steel for us Europeans so you can expect a review for that to drop soon as well!

Regardless of my energy levels the animini’s will at least keep coming! So that is seven posts of anime already! … As long as I don’t get murdered in Amsterdam at least! Who knows! Regardless on what happens I plan to make the next week a great one! And I hope you will do so to! Let me know how your week has been in the comments and onto the next! 2021 is drawing closer!

How Pink is Pinkie’s Home?! My new Home Tour!

Hell once again my dear Island Guests! Most of you may know that I recently moved into a new place! A better place! However I bet a lot of you wonder… IS it a PINK place! …Well today I decided to let you find out by giving you a bit of a virtual tour down my new home! I need to wait for my vacuum-cleaner to arrive before I can drill holes in my walls to hang up most of my paintings though! so far only one got done!

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The Dining area and Entry

I am not showing my basement, shared garden and other shared locations with you guys because .. I can not really make that my own so it doesn’t really tell you anything about me! So we go straight to my apartment and as you enter the door you might notice something straight away. I do not have pink walls. Later on I might want a pink wall somewhere but for the time being I decided to live in a white apartment. There is a couple of stairs in my apartment which makes painting that wall pink a hassle.. and other walls I will wait till I know a bit how the light makes things look! For now all walls are white to keep things nice and spacey.. as I do like crowded decorations. Right at my door I built a little go station!
A cabinet for my keys, face masks and other disinfectants.. a small bag for my groceries.. disguised as a pink little pig, a trolley for heavier groceries and of course a pink little umbrella for when it rains. There is also air freshener there.. which of course is in a pink little container. There is also a pink travel brush in there, to tidy up my hair after a windy walk or comb everything a bit loose to go to the store after a day of laying on the couch! I also have a unicorn on my keychain that features some pink! All in all.. a not that pink entryway

By taking about one step ahead, you will step into my dining area. It is a simple Ikea Diner table with four chairs called Thomas. I forgot the table’s name but I gave them different names. The table is called Tamara Table, or Tamara for short and the chairs are called Percy, Gordon Henry and James. Percy and James being the chairs furthest from the wall and the ones I tend to use the most for now. Gordon and Henry will see use in a little while. Tamara is decorated with pink Placemats and some white and pink plastic flowers as well as a little pink jar with light! Normally there are also pink scented candles on there.. but the white ones came with a meal I ordered. The stone chalice is something I got a castle party my uncle threw for his companies 25th birthday.. I got drunk a lot that day.. so now I use it as a candle burner that reminds me to not over indulge. There are gray cushions on my chair.. because as you will see black grey and pink will be a theme. On the wall is a big painting that holds some posters from Japan and a promotional poster of the first blog I ever joined and what introduced me to the geek community! Of course that blog no longer exists and I edited it out of the image.. it is a big life changer for me though so I display it there for me!

The pink intensity begins to pick up as soon as we reach my window! While it is not showing right now there are pink roller blinds that I can put down if I want to avoid peeping eyes! Then there are more pink flowers on my windowsill and another of those pink light pots! The whiter flowers are in pink pots and there is a ute little pink light I turn on at night if I want a cosy atmosphere. Then there are two painted wine bottles my friend Bean made for me! Of course they feature a heavy dose of pink.. with some sky blue for some colour variation. The view is your run of the mill street

The Living Room

Next we go and take a peek in my living room! Let’s focus on my coffee table here and my tv cabinet. The Table is from my old home.. It is called Lak from Ikea and I wanted it in Wenge as this one came from my old apartment and is a bit damaged by years of it being the only table I could use. However Lak Wenge was sold out so for the time being Lakitu is still with me.. he will be replaced by a darker variant however sometime soon! Lakitu will most likely move to the ready other side of the ready cabinet to function as a sort of shoe shelf. The tv cabinet has loads of decorations. Including my figurine of Lala from To Love Ru, many Board games and a small selection of pop figures. My favourite one is Bob Ross with Racoon.. or as I call it Pop Ross. My consoles and board games are all there as well. Also yes I do have a pink background and theme on my laptop! My windows bar and mouse pointer are also pink!

Then we have my couch Hugo. I bought Hugo from the original owner of the apartment and we have been best friends ever since. I put a pink fuzzy blanket over Hugo so when I am laying on the couch I just can grab Blanche the Blanket and wrap myself like a Burrito with pillows. Howard the Duckslipper is a two foot slipper I usually wear to keep my feet warm. My floor is a bit creaky so I prefer to walk with fluffy slippers or barefoot. Howard is there for those barefoot moments! The window behind Hugo is decorated with Sake glasses and sake containers as well as a Budha.. I used to have Budha sit next to my Mani Neko on Steve the Tv Cabinet ..well I mean they sat next to each other in my old house.. but they are split up now, yet the two did not get along and gave off a strange vibe..so now they feel much better. Budha also has two mini charms next to him and a scented candle in one of my favourite scents for winter. Apple Cinnamon. My second favourite is wild berry.. which is a pink candle! I also have a pink gold clock which since has been mounted but hey I write these early and did the prep work early!

The Kitchen

The kitchen is one of the hardest rooms to pinkify! Yet I think I did a pretty good job! i have mostly pink dishware, I have pink dishware, pink dish soap, pink sponges, a pink brush for my dishes and Pinky from Pacman is on my improvised little bar! Right now I do not have a bottle of Rosé to put on there as I am more of a Red Wine person.. but I have lots of Sake and some other products. I also have a peach wine..but that turned out a lot more orange. Other than that it is a bit of a regular kitchen. I have a white board my friends like to draw on but I use mostly as a daily planner. There is a little cabinet that holds tools, cleaning stuff, medicine and other stuff. On top are some paper plates, paper cups and bowls used for a spontaneous party!.. Not that those are relevant these days.. but hey I had a lot of disposable stuff left over from living in boxes.. now when I really want to keep stuff clean they can come in super handy! I have a neat little table shelf that I use for an oven and microwave and I have a combi thing that might be broken! I am not sure! There is now a blanket on my fridge.. because.. I wanted it in my freezer!

Frankie the Freezer is a bit sad as he had to leave his friend Coolio behind in the old apartment. Now I have one of those.. build in cabinet fridges. I haven’t bonded enough with it yet to give it a name we are close.. I think it feels more femine and happy than Coolio. I am thinking to name her Chrissy.. but that might still change. The kitchen has a lot of extra storage space so there are a lot of things not really belonging in a kitchen as well.. such as my collection of big shoppers, all my cleaning supplies and my non electric tools. That way they are always at hand when I need them without me having to climb the stairs or exit the apartment or exit the apartment! I also have some dog treats here for my landlords Pomeranian Bobo! He is adorable! … Not my Landlord.. but Bobo!

There is more kitchen to behold as I skipped a whole other corner.. but there is a LOT of things I have there with some personal info so Imagine a kitchen dresser, with a black supply shelf.. with some pink jams sitting on top. A White Board with a drawing of a cheeky girl and my appointments and some notes.. my little ledger and stuff like that!

The Bathroom

I did not have the budget for pink bath tiles but if you go upstairs in my apartment you can go to either my bathroom done in an anthracite floor tile with white glossy wall tiles. I have a little wall build with some glass blocks that contain my shower with flappy doors. In front of my shower is a pink little rug and inside is my pink unicorn sponge and of course some pink showergel. I dry myself off with pink or anthracite towels with matching washcloths at my sink for some make up removal and minor fixes.. and of course I have a pink toothbrush that is sitting in a pink container. The rest is mostly white furniture .. to match my laundry machine and dryer. There was no pink toilet rug so we went with a grey one.. because Ikea sucks when it comes to having matching sets! But since my colours in house are pink black, white and grey.. it still works. There are two little garbage bins in baby blue in the bathroom which are just hand me downs but I will replace them whenever I encounter something better… no rush though!

There isn’t to much more to tell about my bathroom, there are a lot of pink close in my hamper. The unicorn sponge is called Crenshaw. Crenshaw the cleaner. My Washer and Dryer were a hassle and a half to get up there. I lack the physical strength to achieve such a feat so I had to pay some people a bit extra to carry it up! Then we found out the dimensions printed on the box were wrong and the washing machine would not fit. So I had to take out a door, and the lifting people had to do some sort of tumble shenanigans! However I am super happy with my bathroom! It is one story up from my other rooms.. aside from the bedroom. Which means I can take late night showers without worrying that I wake people up! I will fall down the stairs one day because I showered to hot and got dizzy.. or I will slip!.. I know I will but if I fall correctly I can land or Hugo!.. I need to nudge myself off a wall first though!

The Bedroom

Finally the bedroom! I have a single one, but that is enough for little old me. The bedroom is easily the pinkest room in my house. Pink rugs, pink bed linnens, pink plushies, pink lights, pink figures such as Halloween Chan and a Pinkie Pie toy! Of course my unicorn neckpillow Sir Ebi Neckjoy is there as well.. because muscle spasms often cramp up my neck and back. So I have a whole nightstand filled with electronic heating lights, massages and other stuff. Yet Ebi Neckjoy is the easiest tool to use. I fairly reguarly cramp up when I get stressed and it can make sleeping hard but with sir Ebi Neckjoy it all isn’t that bad. I have a very simple bed but I like that. It isn’t overly large so I don’t feel lonely and I can squirm around plenty! I might get another one day but I like the fact that it is is a simple white one, it matches well with my Kalax Ikea cabinet. It is the home for my plushies and handheld games! I put my Wii U in the cabinet as well because I gave away most of my books. I read them and would not read them again.. so it kinda felt like weight I did not want to take.. resulting in an empty cabinet. Old consoles solve first world problems!

One of my most precious possesions is my Sylveon rug! A friend gave it to me and I love the stained glass look.. even if the pokeball has some weird discolouration! The Pink Parasol was from a Yukata cosplay I did for a con once. It was amazing and fun and it looked super cute to walk with it besides my friend. There is lots of shelf space which holds my power tools, the boxes of my figures and consoles I want to save. Now I have two power tools. A Bosch Ixo and a drill I found somewhere that still worked. Offscreen there is also a cabinet for my linnens, and a closet that holds my iron and ironing board. It also holds my suitcase if I ever will end up going on a vacation again. Then there is a big two door closet that holds all my clothes. On top of it and underneath my bed are my purses, hats, and other stuff. Some weird stuff I have are a Tommy Wisseau Football and a little parrot plushie I rescued from the trash. I have a small box of memorabilia and lots of it are unwanted toys I rescued! So I bet that in a while my Bedroom will look like a lost toy orphanage.

Now as some time passes I want to upgrade my home a little bit! In a corner I want to put a little desk with maybe a pc instead of a Laptop! For a bit more of a focused blogging workspace. As well as a tool to potentially expand into YouTube or other endeavours. So this has now become our new coffee project! If you want to support the evolution of Paradise, please consider supporting my Ko-Fi! You will become a Coconut, which will provide you with a coconut avatar with it’s own bit of lore, a link of your choice, for example to your own website and you will always be nominated for all my blog tags by default. If I do more give-aways all Coconut entries will also count double!

Thank you all for reading this blog and I hope to see you all in the comments! Let me know what I should make pink next! Do you think I do have enough pink stuff? Do you name your tables?! Let me know!

Pinkie Plays On the Internet: Random Topic Generator

Hello Island Guests! I felt like doing something a bit odd today. Perhaps I am running a fever, perhaps I am slipping into a insanity but I wanted to talk about stuff I would normally never talk about.. as well as find a way to keep myself entertained! So i found a random topic generator and as a blog I will adres some topics it spouts at me! Onto the first topic!

Topic: Where is the most beautiful place you have been?

Hmmm well I have been to lots of places that have been beautiful to me for lots of different reasons. If we have to do the generic general aesthetic concept of beauty I would have to say it’s a tie between the wooded areas near Alanya Turkey or the city of Porto. The turkish forests I visited during a Jeep Safari thing while traveling there with friends. We were invited in a classic turkish home in the middle of the wilderness and it was quite a sight to behold. Yet.. I would not want to live there ..so I’d have to say the city of Porto takes the win in the end. It’s such a pretty city so few from above. It is a very layed city with all sorts of plateaus and coloured houses, almost as if a child builds with legos.. there is colour everywhere.

There are so many beautiful spots in this city like the mozaic train station, the port and of course the famous bookstore the Livraria Lello. This bookstore is an important inspiration for Hogwarts and it doesn’t take a lot of imagination to see the similarities. It’s the prettiest store I have ever seen and truly seems magical. If only I could read portuguese I would have bought a book.. but things there are a bit pricey. A bought a super pretty pink bottle of water though, which was the most beautiful throw away bottle of water I have ever seen. I might even still have that around somewhere. If you ever find yourself in Porto definitely visit this bookstore.. and of course visit the boulevard and the major bridge as well. Don’t go in heels though or Porto will kill you.

Topic: What is the Most Frustrating App You ever Tried

Hmmm this is a hard one, I don’t play a lot on my phone, I guess for me the most frustrating one would be Pokémon Masters. You see… I happen to like Pokémon but because of in game purchases this game was not allowed to release her in the Netherlands.. So I installed it through a work around. At first the game was a bit sparse, while I enjoyed it very much I felt so much iconic stuff was missing. Also the one weakness mechanic while understandable felt super counter intuitive for what I have known for most my life now .That’s when I learned about events.. all those super iconic trainers are available on alternating banners.. event banners. So my issue got fixed or so I thought.

It would soon turn out that for every event I would need to update my game, and my work around for installation of Masters could not allow updates. Which basically meant each update I had to uninstall wait a few days for the updated file to be presented for me to install on a website I trusted.. grind out the event with a few days less and NOT pull any of the major event characters. I never got one of the major pulls. Since I am not allowed to play this officially I was afraid to put money in it as well so that was no option .. and the way to gather actually currency is just way to slow, given the time I have available for such a thing. It was a lot of work to get nothing over and over again.. until eventually I stopped updating, moving on.

Topic: What is the least favorite job you ever had?

There are actually two jobs that come to mind. First was pressing buttons in a bread factory. They were implementing a new production line and I had to press buttons at a certain interval to make the machine learn. Yet the machine broke that so many times I had to do something else like working the oven. Pinkie is not heatproof. Even though I said I could not take it they made me do it until I fainted.. they brought me back and I was feeling miserable and they made me work there for another two hours. People who worked three years with each other didn’t even know from each other they were married so it wasn’t very sociable either. It was horrible and I felt sick constantly due to the smells and the heat.

Another job I had was with a company that important american goods and sold them to a us europeans. Stuff like special cans of Monster Energie, Twinkies, snickers. I had to put some orders in boxes, put a label on them and make sure they were safe for shipping. I got a bunch of papers i could shred to make fillings and all in all, it seemed like a fairly nice job with low pressure, I could easily keep up. However things began seeming off when the supervisor who would judge if I did a proper job or not went on vacation during almost the entirety for my evaluation period.

I discovered that the papers I shredded was our invoices.. the pieces of paper that said how much we paid for stuff. I noticed people ordering a single can of monster energy drink shipping it to finland or sweden for over 3x times what the can itself cost. Maybe someone collected the cans? When the same address ordered a box of twinkies for 7x more delivery cost than the costs of goods however I began to have serious doubts. I would get the day off for the weirdest reason like.. “we have a party tonight and we want to sleep in, let’s just skip a day” I presented this to my mediator who immediately pulled me out after that.

Topic: If you could learn the answer of one question about your future which would it be?

When will I die? It would suck to know that I am about to die, but since I am sick I think that oftenly enough. Think about all the insurance money I could save and not having to worry about my own sickness and whether or not it will kill me. If the answer would be tomorrow or something close by I would be super upset but hey at least I can now do things I was afraid to. I can eat Fugu without worrying if I will die or not, I could even walk everywhere in the world without having to worry.. to much. While I do not think I would be happier, I think it is a matter of problem substitution , I would at least have a bit more money!

Topic: What is the craziest, most outrageous thing you want to achieve?

I am not that outrages in my plans at least something that I am actively pursuing. Winning the lottery seems like one of those but that is such a boring answer. I do believe that I have enough bad luck to compensate though so I am an active believer that I can have that turn around magic moment, where suddenly I can break free of my monetary and entropic chains and live without a limit. I keep playing in lotteries because it is something I very much belief in. Magic is possible and due to my health issues I am a bit stuck right now so in magic I must belief.

Achieving magic might be another thing I try to achieve.. I do feel there is more to this world than we can see, I saw ghosts in the past, I felt as if I could do more with my mind. It feels as if something is locked away and discovering what lies deep inside me can be that outrageous think that Pinkie strives for. I can read people very well and I do not know why. I have these intuitions and this feeling that is more than what I currently can define and I wish to discover what else is out there. I just know there is more.

Topic: Where is the worst place you have been stuck for a long time

Okay, this is not a really fun story, but at least you all might get a laugh out of it. I told you all in some of those tag posts that I can get stupidly unlucky and that I was left in a forest once. Well that second statement was not fully correct it happened twice, though the second time was way more mean spirited. We had a school camp and we had a game where we would play drug runners. Having to run from some parents trying to capture us we had to outsmart them and score as much as we could. If you got caught wearing drugs the parent could tie you to a tree for 5 minutes or so as a time out. … now you can already probably see where this is going.

When my time was just about to be up a boy ran by.. drawing the parent guarding me away for a bit… a shout from that boy could be heard as the boy twisted his ankle maybe even broke it so was thought at the time. The parent went along with him.. forgetting me. The game wrapped up and a few boys were tasked to check if everyone is complete. The boy who found me was someone who bullied me in the past and just grinned and left me. The boy who was injured was a friend of mine so for a bit it was believed that I went along with them. It wasn’t until after the parent returned with the boy from the hospital they noticed I wasn’t there.

The girls whom I shared a room with did not really mention anything either, to this day I do not know if this was out of disliking me or because they thought I went to the hospital with my friend.. they claim the latter but timewise it doesn’t fully check out. I got freed after being tied to that tree for about two hours maybe even more. This was before cellphones as well so I could not text.. I left camp the next day as it was ruined for me. The boy who left me got expelled from camp so that was a bit awkward.

Final Topic: Do you have any siblings?

Yes Pinkie has a little sister, we aren’t particularly close but when we do see each other we can be really similar. While she isn’t a geek we have the same comedic timing, we laugh at the same sort of things and we just can agree on so many things. It’s really nice, she has a very calming presence on my mind as well. Normally I am trying to come off more sociable or more normal than I am but around her I really am me. In the past we could not have been more different she wanted attention, I wanted less, she would rather smack someone I would rather flee, I was not good at fleeing so I often got smacked.

Even though we have little contact , the talks we do have are always nice.. as of late. We had a bit of a troubled past which is mostly due to her former partner who wronged our family and I could forgive for what they made me go trough. That is water under the bridge now.. but now that I think about that.. the partner caused me to be stuck in a place as well.. but I kinda really liked it there so unlike the tree i guess it wouldn’t count. Me and my sister are doing great now and I am happy to have her in my life.

Now this concludes my first Random Topic Generator post, it was actually kind of fun! I might do it again if inspiration fails me! Want to try it out for yourself? This is the random topic generator I used this time! I only skipped two questions it gave me, one was very similar to the travel one and one topic I recently talked about. Hope to see you next time!

XO
Pinkie

When Pink Geeks Try Social

The difference I keep between a geek and a nerd to me is that a nerd tries to avoid social situations. Geeks go to cons, nerds watch blizzcon at home. Geeks play exploding kittens with friends, nerds play it trough tabletop simulator online. I count myself as a geek, but just because I get involved into social situations that doesn’t mean I am very capable in them. My inner geek completely overtakes my social self at times.. and this can be quite awkward. So how do I geek in social situations and how do I try to salvage it? In this post I will highlight how my mind can work different from those I call Normies. The muggles of geekism. The fortnite players under the real gamers and the people who think the best game franchise is FIFA. There are even people out there who do not game at all, they like prefer to play actual soccer, or go dancing in discotheques. Strange creatures those normies.. Here is how to handle..or not handle them.

Social Situation 1: Your Normie friends invite you to something you are NOT interested in.

“Hey Pinkie do you want to go to Amsterdam to visit the sex museum and then we go to the zoo and visit the Heineken store. Do you want to come?” Sociable as I am I say yes of course, but in actuality I think, what the heck is sex, the zoo is very stinky and I do not like Heineken beer, I prefer Belgian Abbey Ales which I can drink a lot in my local pub. Okay I do not actually think “what is sex’ but it just doesn’t do anything for me, so a museum about sex seems duller to me than staring at Kristen Stewart’s face for 24 hours. There is just nothing to see. In these situations I pretend to be normal and fake interest to entertain my friends. I giggle looking at ancient sex toys, I pretend to be impressed by a lion and when someone when an Amsterdam waiter asks me what I want to drink I say “I don’t care what it is.. just as long as it is much’ During our drinks we talk about the weather and tv shows I do not watch and I pretend that I might go watch them. My normie friends are into those reality type shows where someone has their own hair salon or where they like act like neanderthals on an island where you can only talk about sex and booze. My normie friends are sweet but sometimes I can feel like a real alien amongst them. I do not agree well with the casual television, everywhere there seems to be an obsession with sex in there. Like I get why sex is nice and all.. but what is the point in seeing others have sex.. what is funny about seeing the first dildo? I mean I hope it helped the lady .. or guy who invented it I guess but I do not really find it more lewd than a back scratcher same need.. different spot. I am aware I think oif these subjects differently than the general populous so during events like these I am swimming in my head a lot

One of the normie friends is someone I really care for, she is like a duckling I feel a need to protect. Yet she also is very close minded, I need to act normal and do the mundane with her, or she will feel sad and misunderstood. So I do my utmost and swim away. When swimming in my head I feel lost. She for example tells me that she hopes that Farmer Bob should really choose Hilda as his girl instead of Laura in the tv show.. Farmer looking for a Wife (Yes that’s an actually massively popular tv show here) . She then proceeds to gossip about women she hasn’t even met yet and tells something about how Hilda and Bob bonded over picking green beans, she knows I do not watch the show so she talks about all the emotions. When she asks me if she if I would pick that true green bean love Hilda.. or stupid good looking Laura… I know which I have to say.. but I have no idea why. I can not see why other people care about some farmer and some girl. I mean.. I hope farmer bob finds someone but I don’t know the bloke.. nor would I from watching tv.. so let him pick who he wants. Small talk during these events can be a hassle. So what I do to solve this is one of either two things. Option 1 I keep engaged with other things… that’s a nice purse is it new.. shal lI get us another drink.. should we get a snack as well? Something to keep me busy.. oftenly resulting in me getting drunk or overeating. The other thing I do which seems to work is make things personal. Instead of farmer Bob’s romantic endeavours I bend the subject to not be smalltalk anymore. “What do YOU think over bonding at green beans, what would you like to see in your romantic partner’ I can talk about that kind of stuff as it concerns my friends. I like finding out what makes them tick.. but as a result of our differences I can’t really talk about “that new commercial or the new flavor of M&M’s .. let alone the sex/romance talk of people I never even heard and thus can not care for. Sometimes I feel like I am Frasier Crane…but poor.

Social Situation 2: Your Normie friends invite you to something you are VERY MUCH interested in.

“Pinkie do you want to go eat Sushi and then visit a Karaoke Café?” Oh my Arceus.. YES! YES! Sushi has become mundane enough for everyone to enjoy but I am the kind of girl who orders Saké with it, yells Kampai and Itadakimasu! Regardless who I bring. I know about Saké flavors based on how they are numbered, I want to eat Fugu one day and know a fair bit more japanese words than my Normie friends. Sometimes that excitement can’t help but spill out. “Pinkie , you are doing it again’.. when I ramble on about my favorite words I know in Japanese. In once like rambled for like 15 minutes on end when a friend of mine asked why some Saké was cold and some was hot. If someone mentions the weird vending machines in Japan .. I ramble on night… yes this gets my passion flowing! Lemme talk! I love everything geeky and during food it can get a bit akward, I am a low key foodie, who knows my flavors so when we eat sushi I talk about the importance of Umami and stuff. Awkward and I bet to the disinterest of my Normie friends but this I think is fairly common.

*(How people react when I talk about Sake or Sushi)*

*(And just because I found this and thought it was to cute not to share)*

If we take it one step further and move on to the Karaoke things get very weird. You see , my karaoke is VERY different from their karaoke. I am used to Karaoke at conventions and that is my jam, but the theming is very different. To me Karaoke is sing the pokémon theme song with everyone together, or Let it Go. Well kids, that’s not the Karaoke you really get when out with normies, to a normie karaoke place. They expect Paradise by the Dashboard Light or No Woman No Cry. This happened once to me during a weekend in Antwerp we found a Karaoke bar and had to go in. Remember what I told earlier about abbey ales? Well there is a lot to try in this Belgian city so I was nice and loose and decided to go with the classic musings of Jason Paige. They DID have it for me to sing.. but I did not really check the audience in the bar very well. As I sang my heart out I was met with utter silence and confused stares why this followed Meatloaf. Even my friends did not sing along at least not the second verse. Even in my inherbiated state I kept watching to the stage left to see if a guy with that weird hook staff thing would not come up to yank me by the neck off stage. While that did not happen I really wanted to leave the bar quite soon after I was done.
While I had fun while singing afterwards I felt so alien and unwelcome in the bar, watched as well. I felt like that pug dog from men in black. So then we went to a monastery café to drink some more abbey ales. Yet I rather make a fool out of myself than not have a story at all. Just be aware that not everyone will like your thing and do not let it discourage you to be you. Just have your fun……… and then bail.

Social Situation 3: Clubbing

‘Hey Pinkie let’s go to the club’ the dreaded question. I do not like going to the club.. but to spend some time with my friends sometimes it is the only option available to me. I put on some make up, dress up my hair , play the little who is driving game (I can’t drive so I just play judge) and travel to that big club, to let myself be deafened by the same tunes I can hear in my local bar (which I llove to go too with my geeky friends by the way) I overpay for my drinks and for even being there and wait till the rest gets tired of it and goes home. While I can’t say I have a bad time at the club each time it is a very neutral experience to me. I like talking to my friends, but in a club that isn’t very easy. To me clubbing is the biggest mass dillusion the common folk does together. Why do we go to the clubs? Honest answer , I think people go to clubs to find a mate. And while you could go and argue “me and my friends just want to dance on some sweet sweet music’ let me add that if you go out just to dance, there is no need to wear a fancy dress all that jewelry and more make up than a harley quinn cosplayer. To some level you want attention from those who do not know you. Clubbing isnt about spending time with your friends, it’s either about making new friends , showing oif your moves or finding someone to help you ruin your sheets with you. Now all that I am saying is assuming random clubbing.. say your David Guetta is playing in a club , I can see it maybe being different but I am talking about your standard saturday evening clubbing. That is all about peacocking to what you hope to achieve. For some reason we delude ourselves into it being a fun group activity.. but clubbing really is about yourself. I mean sure as a girl you can flirt with a guy .. by dancing with a friend and wingmanning is a thing for guys.. but clubbing is about you. It’s about you getting what you want from that place… and there isnt really anything I want from there.

I am not a huge music fan , I like listening to it fine, but it doesnt have that magic appeal that it seems to have for everything else. Music for me is not something I enjoy as a stand alone thing. It’s the seasoning that can make my blogging more pleasant or my roleplays more epic. I have fond memories of the ducktales moon theme because it came with an experience not because it is just composed well. I like video game concerts because it reminds me of video games. Rihanna, Justin Bieber, Kanye West all those icons mean nothing to me nor their music. I do not care about their world or that lover that got away , the new love and eventually another heartbreak. I don’t know them so I don’t really care about those songs about matters of the heart. I am not that into it. My favorite normal songs, if I even have any they are about random stuff. So I do not go to a club for courting , nor for the music and there usually are better way to talk to my friend so in a club I tend to feel lost. To entertain myself I study people. What do “normal” people do to pick someone else in the club. What are actual opening lines that work. Why do they work. Being and Identifying as a female .. (marginally) interested in other females in a less than average sexual way isn’t really people pick up upon. Girls flirting with me .. and sometimes even boys is mostly completely lost on me.I’ll socialise with them like any other person I meet and attempt small talk but I all seem them as just being nice. Like they see me standing there being awkward and want to help me like I am a deer staring into the headlights. Sometimes this is true .. but other times they actually take romantic interest in me. I can pick up on any social cue just fine, In fact I can usually read people very well to a point where I can tell really small social cues, like friends not feeling well, or keeping a secret from me. Yet flirting is the one thing I do not get. I can determine it well enough to see that I might be flirted with and I can ask myself.. Are they flirting with me, but I never seem to be fully able to grasp it. Which makes clubbing a very odd experience.

Over time I have given up on being normal. I now mostly act like myself. I still sing Disney songs on Karaoke nights, I still geek out during Sushi and when Farmer looking for a Wife is on tv I make sure people know I am steering clear of it. Even that normie friend who is so frail , as well as myself is going to accept I am who I am. I can still socialise I just can’t do it when I am pretending to be the person you want me to be. I might look like an alien at the social venues I visit, but at least I now visit them as me. Despite looking awkward , I have my own fun at these kind of social things and while it might not be reaction your average person react. Why everyone has to have the same feelings about these tv shows, about sexuality, music and how to act around friends is beyond me.. Man being normal sure is weird!

I am BACK!

Hello again Island Guests, the resort has been closed for a far while but after doing some mental cleaning I am finally back again. To start off let’s discuss a bit what has been happening with me over the past few weeks.

Identity Crisis

In real life I try to be more and more like my online persona, the cheerful pink bubbly me, which I actually consider to be the truest version of myself. However there are several obstacles in my way to do this. These include my health, but also my family situation. I am an advocate of unconditional love, of being yourself to the fullest, love me for the geek I am and not for the normie socialite I on occasion pretend to be to make things easier and all. On my birthday and date of my last post my dad made a one minute telephone call to me to congratulate me on my birthday, but that he did not have any time to spend with me for the next month or so. He had no time for my birthday or for me, he had one day available to me but unfortunately that day I had made a solemn promise to a dear friend. Something important to that friend, something in the geeky nature. This friend has always been a devoted follower of my tabletop role plays but since his education had called him away on roleplay nights we never saw him anymore. Due to his social anxiety we could also not see that friend in social situations so we decided to host him one big group night, ages before my dad told me that was the only day he had available on my birthday. No matter how important things are to me, if I make a promise to a friend I stick by them, unless I am utterly unable to do so. So I told my dad , that this date did not work out for me and that I promised to give my friend whom I haven’t seen in ages and who missed us dealy a geeky night centered around him.

This was not to my dad’s liking and he told me to stop thinking the geeky things are important, while he blew me off for his band pratice the day before he was available. This friday I would see him again finally and we could talk things out, something I desperately needed, his brother is giving this big Christmas party and he was supposed to show .. as his employee. It would be the only time my sister and I see him before christmas and New Year too. However he cancelled these plans because he could go to some snooty Jazz concert he preferred over seeing his own kids. The whole , christmas spirit along with the message of unconditional love and togetherness made me realise, that I did not have that. It broke me, perhaps I had to change perhaps my search for identity is misguided and I should just be who the wold wanted me to be, perhaps I did not matter. All those happy families on the commercials are also perfectly normal.

The toxicity of happiness

The season did not really help, mother is working with christmas, my sister is moving up north to celebrate at her boyfriend’s place. While I do not particularly mind being alone, the season of happiness emphasises that something was wrong with me. I am not looking for a romance, I am not looking for that sitting near a fireplace and carolling together. Yet the way the season portrays it is, that if you are even remotely loved, you’ll have to spend the holidays together or you are NOT loved. I am more likely than not, to spend Christmas day, and potentially boxing day alone. Something I do not inherently mind, but the tv is making it seems that that means I am unloved. Something I do mind.

November and December are enforcing this to the extreme and are causing me extreme discomfort. It’s the month where I choose to betray myself to gain that fake TV happiness or where I am Alienated even further than I already am. It’s a month of toxic happiness Bigotry and Commercialism try to suppress individuality . While I do have some people who’d want to celebrate Christmas with me.. it’s just something that isn’t happening this year, which is not bad .. but it is made to be so. Even if I don’t have a merry christmas for perfectly valid reasons, the season depicts it as if it means I am unloved .. something am really vulnerable for right now.

No Rest

While I keep struggling and can’t really find my footing until these dreadful days are over, there also is no safe space for me. My place is being cleared of asbestos which means that every week day from 7am to 4pm I have construction workers, chopping ot windows, woking on metal scaffolding, hopping on my balcony and shouting in front of my windows.. day in day out. I live in a seven floor studio, if I lay in bed they see me… they will comment on it. If I play a game they will shout at me that someone like me should not play games or just some other stuff. It created a constant state of anxiety and restlessness that completely broke me down. i did not want to be at home because of the noise, but I did not want to be n the city either because of all the enforced happiness. My best friend, seemed to be moving away from me (which in the end she did not but for the last two months it seemed like she would move a lot further away) meaning she had little time to lunch and only had to look at houses further and further away from me. I could not go to here either like I used to. My most geeky friends turned very reclusive due to similar reactions to the holidays as me as well.. but instead of still ..kinda wanting love.. they just live through their avatars in their mmo’s .. meaning I could not hang out with them anymore either. No place was safe, no where could I catch my breath let alone reset my mind to begin blogging again.

Charlie

It all would change when I had a salon-day with my sister and mother. Mother tried to make a deeper effort to understand me and who I am at that day, we had deep talks and improved our bond, which wasn’t that bad to begin with..just a bit alien at times. Mother is somewhat classical and wanted to look normal in front of people, over the past few years she little by little came to accept that people can accept her while not being the standard either which led to us becoming closer. During the two days we were there we find out who we truly are and to stop filling in ideals that might play in each others heads. It was during this time if I could look over my sisters dog for the weekend. His name was Charlie, a toy poodle (it’s a real dog type not an actual toy ) that has a hint of something else in it’s blood. That was the weekend I really got some unconditional love from the little creature. The three days I could spend with it gave me a second wind, restored some of my ambitions and beliefs. My day with mom and my sister laid the groundwork and Charlie really helped me build the stairs I needed to crawl out my hole. Of course Charlie had to go home again after the weekend and I cried my eyes out after he left, but it felt like an emotional blokkade had finally left me.

A void in me had been sort of filled. A dormant side of me woke up and for the first time in quite a while, I felt alive and that the things I preach feel real again. Charlie gave me my voice back. Unfortunately since the dog is just Co-owned by my sister and a complicated situation there I am unsure if I can get Charlie to stay over that more oftenly, we bonded super well but I do not want to further that bond of those complications can take Charlie even further away. So while the happiness is fleeting it is real nonetheless. It was enough to bring me back and ready myself for a new season. On Pinkie’s Paradise I can decide my own holidays, I can be the me I want, I do not have to be like those people on tv. I can finally relax again! So resort is back open boys girls and all you lovely non-binaries.
Welcome back and welcome back me!