Tag: Romance

Pink Girls can’t Flirt: Pinkie about Flirting

Hello Island Guests! It’s time to get up close and personal with me in this post! Today I will deal with those awkward situations in life that come with being me.. when flirting! I am so bad at it..that I might even have developed a super power. I can negate sexiness.. or even sex.. not even just myself! For this achievement my group has awarded me the title of “Group Panda”. In Dutch there is also something called Panda-Points.. which is a score you get for not having sex for extended periods of time. I racked up quite a few! Laugh at and with me today while we look at the awkwardness that is flirting.

Why do we Flirt?

First of all let me begin with a small rant on the stupid idea behind flirting. Like we flirt to show interest in a potential partner.Yet it is really awkward! If a girl likes a guy… she has to play with her hair and smile at him to give off a signal. Sometimes girls even start feeling each other up a bit.. or kissing each other teasingly to warm a guy up to them. HOW?! Why?! With my motor skills being limited motor skills for example I can’t wink with my left  eye.. which we all know is the sexiest eye to wink with if I try I look more like I am having a seizure. Then if I wink at the wrong girl a guy will come over angry and say.. are you looking at my Girlfriend. I get in trouble as I explain that she moved her hair while looking at me. Her hair was in front of her eyes.. he says! Now I have to flee!  Why can’t we use clear signals! Like a bracelet you wear in a pub, taken, available or not looking. Then maybe a colour pink if you are looking for a girl, blue  if you’re wanting to hook up with a guy and purple if you will go for either and military green if you prefer Attack Helicopters. Everyone can understand that! Or we could just wear signs! Or make an app where we check in and you can check our status!

But Noooooo! Even if we manage to convey those visual cues then it even gets more complicated because . then you need an opening line or have someone open a conversation against you.  Guys walked up to me to flirt because I had an itch behind my ear or because I was trying to read text on their shirt. What do you say when someone comes over and asks “Hey have you seen something pretty today yet, cause I sure have”. I can go like “Sure I watched Promare today that had nice visuals” but normally that will not end well. I could go like “sorry I am not interested in guys” yet then I assume he is interested in me! That seems SO arrogant. Maybe he just wants to make small talk.. those people ARE out there.  Maybe he is really nice as a person and shutting him off like that is rude. Why do we need an original catchphrase? People told me the weirdest thing and I have tried some odd lines on girls. 

Why is “Hi , I am interested in you visually, I would like to see if we match mentally as well, are you up for a conversation’ weirder to say than… “Girl you might be cosplayed as an Eevee right now.. but when I am done with you  you will be an Umbreon.. cause I am going to level you all night long”. “Be Original” to win over my heart?! That is just some weird ass gatekeeping. To show interest in a girl I can’t show interest.. no instead I have to be clever?!  Then why most girls end up with such idiotic guys?! Luckily I am a girl into girls so there is a 50/50 of having to be the one initiating.. but this seems like a weird way to deal with things regardless. I have been rejected by a girl for not using a line and instead just saying hi! I am to weird for opening lines you know!

The Awkwardness Dance

I don’t like going to pick-up bars.. you know that place where girls go to pick up girls or guys go to pick up guys. I am not going out to pick up a girl.. I want to go out just to go out.. but apparently.. you have to go out to “pull sum birds”  as Geordie Shore calls it. So when my single friends go out with me.. usually they flock away leaving me behind. So then you have to look around and see if there is someone you can make contact with. Well I live in a small town here.. most girls don’t follow my way and if they do, I might not give off that vibe as I  prefer to act feminine if at all possible. Dress that way as well. I feel like a cow at an auction..looking to purchase another cow. Once you have acquired a target you have to go to so many steps that can fail. First you gotta look appealing and get their attention. Now the one time I bought a girl a drink to get her attention I raised my glass to her and hit the booze rack on the bar, breaking my glass and getting myself covered in drink! Safe to say.. she did not really  want anything for my attention afterwards. I am physically awkward so okay no physical flirting.

There were a few times that a girl actually approached me, usually at a Con or at a party of a friend or something.For example one time my friend gave a movie party, and I knew the answers because I was a big movie buff and a geek. One girl did not need answers to a quiz but came over under the guise of needing that..as others did as well. She began asking me about movie related things and I helped her.. just like I helped everyone else.. she was apparently giving heavy signals but since she packaged it cleverly I just assumed she just wanted my help. Eventually since I reacted so dryly to everything she believed I had no interest.. but I only found out she was interested when I was told.  Why do we flirt so secretively?!  Had she asked, so who do you usually go to the movies with?! Boyfriend , girlfriend?! I might have been cued in but no! To flirt you gotta be vague! Then when you do notice the flirting you start this weird game of doing flirts back and forth.

 The con girl was a good example.  She came and said a flirty line to me.  My friend was flirting with the Bubble Tea girl and left me alone for a bit when a girl approached me and said.. guys right?! In a flirty way.. so I said “that’s why I stick to girls” she agreed but  did not notice my hair flip. So I launched a flirty line at her, aimed at her cosplay.. She took it too seriously and began rambling on about the series. She flirted again, and I flirted back.. but neither could bend that into going to do something together.. it was like we were dancing together but none of us really led so we just stood there and threw invitations to move further at each other until both our respective friend groups came to collect us for our next activity. I searched for her later but could not find her anymore! Now I am not even sure if she was interested still despite the heavy flirting I still think.. perhaps I just misunderstood and that is why she did not ask me to go have a drink with her.. she approached me with a flirty line so I assumed she wanted to ask me for a drink?!  You should let hunters hunt right?! I really don’t get it. I am pretty sure we “danced” but it was not very effective!

Trying to Flirt

The few times I tried to flirt were even more awkward. I am not very sexual so .. the sexy flirting, isn’t really a thing I do. I am utterly and completely unable to tell if people are sexually interested in me, or when they want to get physical. I have no idea on how to tell that. I don’t tend to think that way so usually I have to flirt with humor or cleverness. This often results in me doing the “Pokedex” as I call it. In which case I see a girl do something and I “flirt” by telling her about it. “Did you know that a bowl of peanuts blabla bla”  it’s super awkward. This is why I prefer to flirt at conventions..at least you know  you can talk about an anime or a game and it will invoke a reaction.In the pub I once saw a girl talk about the fact that Japanese had women on pillows you could hug and I went to her and said. Oh that is a Dakimakura. That conversation did not last long either. The pokédex rarely works and since I have such an odd sense of humor I strike out with that as well. I once even made a dead baby joke to a girl in order to win her attention… If I had a dunce cap I’d wear it right now!

Approaching girls is not for me, yet reading interest in me is hard as well.. so I once came up with a strategy I learned during German class. We had to listen to an audio cassette and tell what the german girl was saying. She was a skeeler girl who flirted with boys by throwing herself on the ground in front of cute boys! If they helped her up she would offer them a drink if they walked past she knew they weren’t worthy of her or interested. I believe in the helpful nature of people and I thought that would be cute! I could offer them a drink and we could chat about my fall and then about the drink so we would have plenty to talk about.  So one time I tossed myself on the ground in front of a girl. I landed quite poorly and knocked all the breath out of my lungs.Nearly had an ambulance called as I could barely breathe from pain. She did help me up and asked if I was alright but I was so winded I could not speak. Too much time passed and she waved my friends over to come take care of me and that I was in pain.  I later thanked her for helping me but could not start a conversation!

Another story is how my friends tried to make me flirt. So they got me very drunk on shots. So I felt bold and dared to speak to girls. I am terrified of speaking first.. due to me speaking up for myself in the past and being bullied out of my entire life for about 5 horrible years. I think way too much on what I should say or if it holds any value! Yet my friends were sure that very drunk Pinkie could flirt. Very drunk Pinkie does basically everything for a bet. People can pay me a few Euros and I will talk to everyone to win! However very drunk Pinkie goes from Greysexual to Asexual. From I would love to cuddle and hug.. to.. I dare to talk to you because I am drunk but I want nothing from you now! Drunk Pinkie is a loner. So while I do end up talking to girls , I talk about Mario Kart or Pokémon.. I am very passionate about my stories but I can’t flirt anymore! Even if girls like me and I like them .. drunk Pinkie.. mostly likes Mario Kart and Pokémon…. usually the day after I do crave for some companionship.. but drunk Pinkie doesn’t know how to flirt so she just doesn’t do it. Even if friends whisper in my ears what drunk me should say it doesn’t work as she lacks any intention to wrinkle sheets with people and just says it very wholesomely and friendly. I have made new friends like this but never landed a flirt.

Divine Intervention

I do not get the act of flirting! I feel awkward and it is not a nice way to have a conversation. It is as if a normal conversation with a friend feels like a chemical reaction. They add something and suddenly something bubbles up in my brain to talk about. Our DnD adventures, series we saw, anime characters, game characters. I am passionate about being geeky but I don’t like a lot of the mundane stuff. I am not into music, I am not into politics, I am not into trends. This makes small talk a bit harder but not impossible.. however when you add the act of flirting to it. it feels like conversations are one of those old timy cars you had to get started with this winge thing! Or a lawn mower with one of those pull cord things! I never can get those things fired up! Neither can I maintain flirty conversation. Yet my power goes beyond that I did not receive my Panda powers for nothing.

One time I went on a Holiday with friends. To the island of Mallorca , Spain. There you have a few vacation zones, The Dutch and German zones of El Arenal and the predominantly British visited Magaluf. British people have a reputation and one of my friends really wanted a vacation that meant pants pleasures.  I figured I could entertain myself with my 3ds , a book and the drinks and the beach anyway so I agreed. Yet unlike my friend one night for Arceus knows what reason.. it looked like I would get lucky. Mind you.. this is a place where people looked at the clock and said to total strangers. “Hi It’s 2AM I see you haven’t found anyone to fuck yet..wanna go back to my room?”  That sort of technique worked there.. so getting lucky is barely an achievement there. I met a really pretty girl who was heavily into me and pink and I figured. You only live ones.. let’s see where this will go

. So she took me to the dance floor and we had a dance together…she whispered sweet things in my ear and invited me to her hotel to spend the night. I normally am not inclined to do such things but since my friend constantly bailed on me.. I figured.. might as well see this through.. but then I looked at the girl and I wondered. Was her skin always that green?! I took her outside to get her some fresh air and she looked a lot better soon after. She then looked at my shoes.  She said I had nice shoes.. and then… they were not so nice anymore. The girl got sicker and sicker. I washed up at one of those beach showers and delivered the girl to her hotel and went home to have a proper shower.  At least the girl lost a lot of weight I would judge given how intense our trip to her hotel was. 

Another time I went internet dating. I can flirt a bit more and I at least know their intention when they talk to me! So I met a girl who I very much clicked with. She was a geek as well.. a bit soft core but geeky enough as well. We would eventually meet for a date but as I was traveling towards her we had a huge train black-out! I could no longer make it to the date and we postponed. The second time we actually had a date and went to eat sushi. It was nice and we matched very well. We were hinting at each other that we would be open for seeing each other more and kind of asking each other if we could end the date with a kiss. Or if we would be up for that at least. Then a very nervous waiter came to tell us that dinner was on the house.. they might have served a bad batch of squid that was mislabeled… we both had a lot of the squid sushi. I am not sure how my most successful flirting stories end up in the same way… but we felt SO horrible after that the association with each other was too weird to date from there on out. Before we could get over it she got offered a job abroad as well so she left for a long time and we just lost touch.



Then there was this girl who I met who wanted to do soft Yuri Cosplay act with me..she was into girls and wanted to do a cosplay act of Sylveon and Glaceon.. where Sylveon thawed out Glaceon’s icey heart. I only recently discovered I was into girls and she was into both.. but she was so pretty! The act made me fall head over heels for her. I had to pretend being in love.. but I ended up falling in love through fake flirting. She seemed into it too. Then one day when I planned to make my move during our rehearsal..she told me she wanted to replace me in the act. My awkward movement might cause trouble. I cried and confessed I have fallen for her and she told me she decided she would rather be with a boy instead as it would leave a better impression if I had made my move just one rehearsal before.. it might have been different.. she just had a realisation now.. so she was glad I did not act earlier because then she would have to break my heart and now she could let me down a bit easier.

So the flirt I fell for hardest was script and I ended up being written out! I guess that was the universe telling me that this is not meant for me!  Don’t mistake that for me not believing in love.. because I do.. I just have to find a girl that one day finds me and tells me she has feelings for me! I should not actively pursue this thing because Divine intervention will strike down that ambition! Why do we even have to flirt?!  My ideal girl won’t flirt with me! She will just tell me.. Okay.. so I know you will not be able to tell so here is the deal “Pinkie I like you”!
Until that day I have my 47 cats and oddly enough that is fine for me for now!

And that includes my stories with flirting?! Can you flirt yourself?! Are you as baffled at it as me?! What is the best way to flirt?! Have you been flirting with me and I have not noticed?!
What are some of the most awkward opening lines you used or have been used on you?!
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Pinkie watches a Random Anime: Saki

Hello my sweet island guests! For my Saturday anime posts I have been covering ways to discover anime for the past two weeks! Ending with how excited I was to watch some random anime using the Random Anime Generator Website! Now once a month, or at least I will try to do so, I will generate one random anime and watch it’s first five episodes (about a movie length) discussing my thoughts about it and whether or not I would pick it up to finish it! My first randomised anime came up as: Saki!

I did not read any descriptions I just generated a random anime title , looked if it was available to me and watched the show. Saki should still be available for everyone using Crunchyroll but I am not sure how everything works for that. The first opening minute I saw a slightly tomboyish girl  looking at another girl thinking she is super pretty! I never heard of this anime before and I had no clue what to expect.. but already I was getting some Yuri vibes. Lucky! The tame kind too! It was also clear there would be a lot fan service.. even though it’s fairly tame.. I did find myself kind of annoyed by it, but that is mostly because I really like the character being lewded a lot. They at times make her out to be just a pair of boobs .. and they have to really go out of their way to set it up as well so yes in this case I found it unpleasant. Still I get why you do it.. gotta keep Mahjong interesting.. because yes I stumbled upon an anime about Mahjong. With a pink seemingly gay (semi) main character , some flashy weird animations and people taking part in a tournament. This SHOW random show really hit some marks for me.

I’ll be honest, I have started watching A Certain Magical Index as well, but now that I am five episodes in for both! This one has my preference to finish first. The show is about a girl named Saki .. if you would believe it… a young girl who comes from a broken family. During family game night they would always play Mahjong but if she did to well her sister would throw a tantrum and people would get mad at her and if she did to poorly she would not get any candy! So Saki learned to play perfectly average and is blessed with incredible luck playing this game. She finds out the beautiful girl is in the Mahjong club because a friend asked her to help her out for a bit.. and little by little Saki begins to enjoy the game of Mahjong again .. that she learned to hate under her broken family! Now that same game has the chance to bring the family back together as her sister represents another regions team, playing in the Tokyo nationals. Before they do that though they have to win regionals.. which according to the first five episode holds some very scary and evil girls they have to face. As well as super powers?! I am not sure yet!

I have no idea how to play competitive Mahjong , only that tower stack thing we get from internet games here.. well that is not the Mahjong this is about. This is about changing together events, like Ron and Richi and Kan or whatever they are called. I have no idea but this anime certainly makes it look impressive. Studio Gonzo produced the first 14 episodes ..which obviously includes the first five I have seen and they certainly know how to frame the game nicely.  The dramatic reveal of hands really have this larger than life vibe. Which is great because this series very much knows what it is. There is a strong cast of character that are larger than life which again compliments the series very well. Saki is the overly nice naive girl that is attracted to pink girl , with big boobs, talents in spades and a child like demeanour, Nodoka. Nodoka is a very calculative person who secretly is into Saki as well but also someone who can not comprehend her luck (yet) . They represent two aspect a skilled player needs to have , skill and luck! Nodoka has a plush penguin named Etopen which I find adorable! Could it be that she is Waifu material?!

Kyoutarou is the only boy in the Mahjong club.. he dreams of being with Nodoka he wants to play with them tiddies.. but of course he doesn’t know she looks at Saki!  His fantasies about her are often interrupted by Yuuki, a tiny energetic bubbly girl, who loves taco and tako. She likes to play house with him calling him darling or husband. She has a wild imagination and always seems to twist reality around her! She lacks the ability to do proper math which results in her being weaker in the game than she could be.   The cast is rounded off by the student council president.. though .. she calls it Student Congress President , she is a strategist and plays the group to make them better and then there is Mako.. the presidents bestie whose parents have a maid café.  She seems leaned back but also very analytical.  

Five episodes in and I really like this cast a whole lot more than I like the main cast of Magical Index. These feel like people I’d enjoy being around. . if I would be their age. I honestly did not expect that I would like this anime this much. Yuuki can be a tad annoying with how her voice sounds but I rather found that endearing. I even smiled empathically at how Kyoutarou is such a loner just for being a guy! If you can make me care for the kinda bro-ish boy .. you are doing something right!

I really like how these first episodes where paced out. Without getting into spoilers to much, episode one sets up the main character Saki and episode 2 sets up Nodoka. Episode 3 sets up the main plot.. that is participating in the tournament while episode 4 lets reality set  in and turns down Nodoka’s amazing talent and Saki’s luck by putting in into perspective by having them learn they are not ready for the tournament yet. Which perfectly sets up for episode 5, training camp! Every episode flows very nicely into the next and each episode and as a result each episode can stand on its own. It’s all well defined tiles that when put together form a nice combo. I notice how this is in contrast with Hikaru no Go for example which has stronger episodes in their lineup..but a weaker flow between them. While Hikaru tells the better tale.. it has slack water.. dead tides in between. This show (At least so far)  flows nicely. In fact there are very few anime I’ve recently been watching that match it’s amazing pacing.

Toss in a lot of cuteness and this show becomes something that does warm my heart. The Blossoming friendship between our main characters works well. Saki feeling awkward around Nodoka in  the beginning makes sense because of how toxic her family games were. When the titular character finally begins to enjoy winning this goes at the cost of Nodoka which makes her passion feel invalidated as Saki claimed not to like the game. It sucks to be beaten by someone who doesn’t take your passion seriously.  These emotions feel legit and make sense with the characters that are established.

This does come at the cost of the personality of the other team members though. While Hisa the team leader still shows some proper character.. but mostly in her understanding how others work, Yuuki,  Kyoutarou and Maki remain rather 2 dimensional. I am not sure if this is a bad thing though. I found Yuuki’s flat and shallow character quite hilarious and it breaks up awkwardness of two closet lesbians playing with some tiles. Maki is the exposition character. “Boss did you set that up to teach them a lesson” .. “Do you think she realises she has that ability” .. that’s her type of dialogue. It could be painful but since they made her a bit of an analytical slightly colder person.. it works. Kyou makes the awkward romantic stuff more comedical by putting it into perspective. So everyone adds their bit to the pot.

The only thing detrimental to this is the fan service. Our pink haired girl has a fully developed chest while the others don more humble models. Nosoka thusly often gets the butt of some jokes that kinda feel out of place. For example how hugging her plushy means hiding the thing under her boobs. I might be flat so I could not compare.. but I hold my plushies near my heart or chest at , Etopen is quite large though so it makes sense from a perspective that she also has to play Mahjong.. But still that feels like hugging a friend in my belly button area! That just feels awkward!  There are a few cheap shots like that like having her run through the rain and giving her a dramatic talk while zooming in on her chest emphasises her white shirt got wet and all. If that floats your boat good for you but I did not like it. I am not against the use of fan service as long as it is used in moments where it’s not detrimental to the main emotions and that’s where the show misses a few swings for me personally. It just feels like Nosoka’s character on occasion has to make room so she can give some fan service at times.. which is a wrong way to go about this.

The opening song and the ending song are AMAZING! Well they aren’t that memorable but the fact that they could make this work for them  as a Mahjong series was pretty good! It has action in it but also some beauty..it is almost shot as a shounen opening which I really could appreciate.  The ending is so cute that this one one of the few ED’s I ended up watching three out of five times. Well two and a half but normally I don’t watch it at all so thats HUGE!
Like I said Yuuki’s voice can be a bit annoying at times when she talks to long or has to shout for shouting sake. but this also endeared her a bit to me at the same time.. that is who she is. The final knitpick is that this does not make it very clear on how to play Majong.. which is also i’s strength.. it’s not a game you easily pick up I think there is a lot involved so since everyone in universe would more less know how to play.. there is little exposition to explain. There are a few schedules and diagrams but there might as well have been a unicorn poster there! I did not get info at all. The characters do though so that is good.. but I guess I just have to believe the words and the flow here.

I know Ron is a good thing for the one who declares it. So I will use that term for my final evaluation! Five episodes in and I am very pleasantly surprised by this series. So much so in fact that I am probably going to finish this series and bench Magical Index for a while. This series spoke a lot more to me. It’s just cute , slightly yuri , fun with characters I really enjoy and stylistic and visual choices I enjoy even more!  I very much hope it keeps this nice buttery smooth pacing throughout the show because that to me was it’s absolute strength.
I could not tell you what I think about the animation because I haven’t really paid much attention it it. I noticed it was from 2009 and I would have guessed it was slightly earlier.. but the visuals worked for me. 

The colours are nice and vibrant  but never obnoxious, there is plenty set-up going on that makes me feel this might quite the interesting show.  So yes I do want to finish this show. With only 25 episodes I should be able to do so before the next randomisation is up but this is also a great series to cheer me up so I might save some of it until I need some Etopen and Yuri Mahjong goodness in my life! We will see but I really think the first five episodes of this Mahjong show where very good! The only thing that prevents it getting my highest score is my inability to comprehend Mahjong.. and my inability to care for boobs!

Random Anime : Saki
Episodes Watched: 5
Watching On?: Yes
Favorite Character: Etopen
Score:

My Geeky “Firsts”

I originally wanted to talk about board games with you today.. but then I realised those aren’t really relevant right now.. So I was beginning to crack my poor brain to stuff in my past that I could use for a blog!  Before I could even start I was like! Oh I could talk about my first steps as a geek!

My First Cosplay
(sort of)

I do not remember getting my NES or Ducktales so in my memory it was always there… at least my years of sensibility. I know I was still of the tricycle age so I assume I was about 4, when I got Turtles 2 the arcade game. It was the first game I remember getting. It could not have been my birthday because I was playing outside, grandpa came over to visit and he had a gift for me. A turtle bandanna (the purple one) , with a turtle horn for on my trikey a compass and even the turtles NES game. It was nice weather outside and I was still horrible (AKA) a child. So I wanted to play outside first. Now that I had the turtle headband I was like a turtle.. but I needed a shell as well. So I made myself one. I found myself a dish tub below the sink and got my colouring pencils out and made green blocks which I pasted on the tub.. they did not stick very well but it half looked like a shell.  I am pretty sure I had help from someone though because somehow the tub got four holes in it with some string or ribbon so I could now wear it as a backpack. 

Now Donatello had a big Bo staff so of course I had to go out and find a stick. Luckily I lived super close to a park so off I went. Navigating with my new compass! But not Really I just knew where the park was. I think my uncle came along.. I do not remember. What I do remember is finding the perfect stick! It was just laying their in the pushes so I climbed in.  Now I forgot to mention this but at first I just rode my trikey with a mask and the horn for about an hour or so , I think I got the idea of making the shell after my parents got annoyed from me honking all the time. I was kinda tired in my legs and unstable so I fell. Into a big pile of Poison ivy. Turtle Ouw’er. I managed to roll onto my shell until I was rescued. Maybe it was my aunt..because I remember a woman. I do vividly remember coming back home and grandpa trying hard not to laugh at my misery.  Which made me angry! My first quest for cosplay ended in failure, and mom needed a new tub to do her hand wash in as well! Luckily when I was covered in cooling cream, I could play Turtles 2 the Arcade game ..which made up for my first cosplay attempt.

My first cosplay
The Real One

My first actual cosplay would not come until way , waaaay later. My first actual cosplay was just about 6  years ago. While I planned to go maid, my awkward dutch size made that kinda hard. So I ended up with a Yukata version of Megurine Luka, while my friend cosplayed a Yukata version of Hatsune Miku. It was a cute cosplay but I was a bit flat for Luka. So I had to stuff.  That didn’t go to well initially. I overstuffed which led to several wardrobe malfunctions as well as causing me to drop about a  half a toilet roll worth of toilet paper in the pond like stuff in front of Europol headquarters. Whoops! Luckily I managed to clean most of it up and go into to toilets of the con to restuff and dry my wet yukata.


After that I stuffed less and I had a blast in the cosplay, it was super weather appropriate, my foot was stepped on only once that hurt, and I could walk on those Japanese slippers I bought surprisingly well.  It was so good I cosplayed it again the next day. I had a weird golden sort of nail polish with it cause I thought it really matched the cosplay well.. what I did forget was that I did not plan on putting on nail polish through the weekend, I thought I would be a maid so wear gloves after all… so I ended up without nail polish remover on a Sunday! My friend also did not have any on her since she wore a normal colour. So when we sat at the restaurant on the way back, I sat there with tacky nails that matched with my outfit as well as my personality matches with a Gothic lifestyle. It shined so much I kinda liked like a Bottom Bitch or something. 

My first time in a game store

I was a bit of a loner kid after the bullying started, which meant I never really had a nice shopping experience for games. I had no one to browse with and compare with. Mamma Pinkie usually went with me. Well I would go shopping with her and as a reward I would get a game or a toy.  On rare occasions I got a great report card at Pappa Pinkie would go with me to look at games in another city. He was the only one he could drive so he was the one who chauffeured me if I did something deserving a reward. Pappa Pinkie was not a very patient man though, I should pick and run out.. he gave be about 4 minutes to browse because he wanted to be in and out in five minutes. Which did not really work. One time I got sold something really sucky in a toy store.. just by listening to them. We returned the game the next day and Dad suggested to me I would look at a store called Game City.

This store was run by a woman named Patricia and she is the one who gave me Pokémon Gold before it even launched here.. It was not region locked or something or she got it ahead of europe launch. I had it before everyone else. Beside for everyone who shopped at her place. However the first time I got there was in the days of the SNES. I had no idea what game to get and as usual Dad was very impatient and I was getting flustered, saying I did not need a game I could not find anything so fast. Yet I was close to crying for losing something I really wanted . Dad went more annoyed saying Mom would not allow that so I had to pick when Patricia stepped in. She asked me which games I liked to play and she recommended Mickey Mania for SNES. I followed her advice and it quickly became one of my favorite games. Patricia was a great sales person as she was the one that got my dad into racing games and flight sims. She did not really sell the hardware he needed and he ended up pirating a lot of the games instead of buying them but in her store I could finally look around a bit for games while she could talk to him about stuff he liked as well.

Such a great store far until into the Gamecube age I got nearly all my games there . Nowadays it doesn’t exist anymore. It got competed away by a big second hand game retail franchise. While in some towns the service is great.. they clearly do not always hire gamers for the job.. or at least no Patricia. She was our patron saint of gaming in our local area! Now.. there is just a random guy in a green shirt.

My first geeky romance

I did not have a lot of Geeky romance encounters, though I got a few romantic interests to play Mario or take a look into gaming which was nice but never did i really have a romance who was a geek as well. One day Pinkie was in one of her grocery stores as she saw a beautiful girl with hairs as black as ebony and eyes as blue as the tropical seas. Her name is to difficult for non dutchies so my friend the Multifaceted Ocelot dubbed her Lauren..which is the name we will use for her. I giggled and stumbled in front of her cash register and was trying to figure out where I knew her from. I could not figure it out for a while, back then I had PonPonPon said up as my ringtone which she recognised. Suddenly she recognised me from seeing me at a Con and we got talking. We started meeting after a few talks and just geeking out. I had known I might not have been into guys before but I never had a female love before either and well Lauren. . made me feel things I did not feel before. Especially when we decided we would do a pokémon act together. She said we should make it kinda Yuri.

She came up with an act with a loving Sylveon trying to win the heart of a cold Glaceon. As she explained what I should do things we get a bit flirty. Eventually we went a bit of scene and I kissed a girl. A short romance blossomed up it was fun and it felt way better than another relation in terms of.. well it was more right.. yet that did not last to long. As I become more and more infatuated with Lauren, she become more and more obsessed with the cosplay act. In the end I was more a means to an end to her to give her the act she wanted.. but she cared about me enough to realise this. Eventually Lauren recast me with a straight friend she had. She also broke up with me after about two month’s being a thing. She was more into guys and with me it was something more spontaneous for her. While I do occasionally talk to her she has since become a bit preoccupied with what other people think of her and things and can very much not be herself. I know her and this isn’t her and that hurts. We still bond over new pokémon stuff from time to time or talk about cute stuff..maybe one day I can defrost her icy heart!

My first geeky stalker

On the opposite side of the spectrum at a Con I also met my first following admirer. My first follower, even before I had a blog. Apparently I talked to him about Power Rangers on either an earlier con or an earlier day but on a con saturday I was suddenly approached by a guy in a Harry Potter Cosplay.  It was one of those awkward “Hey it’s you again “ talks and me just going “Harry Potter, It has been to long,  the last time I saw you you did not have that scar yet”.. which probably was true since he laughed He totally fell for my bluff! He just talked over it. He brought Power Rangers up again which is why I know I talked to him about that before.. still I could not remember it.. In fact I am not even sure he had the right person! I mean I DO like Power Rangers so its plausible.. but either I was drunk before or not very interested.. based on what happened next I would guess the latter. Though since it was at a con.. probably both!

Harry began asking me how I have been so I stuck to events of the day to keep safe and when I asked how he had been he suddenly kept complaining. I am in a hotel room with some random con people! Can you believe they want to  stay up after 11 at cons?! They keep playing cards after that. Meanwhile last night I stayed up until 3 with some friends visiting various events on the con late at night and then drinking and playing cards in our airBnB. I said “Well sometimes I do that do.. you only live once right?” He suddenly completely agreed with me before he went complaining that one of them played western music in the house which annoyed him. I don’t care for music either way so I just shrugged and gave him a backpad. “There There”. I should not have done that.

After that he kept meeting up again the entire day and the day after. He wanted to buy me lunch, he wanted to talk between the two of us and while I had no issue with him following me it did not take him very long to become possessive and demanding. I was oblivious to his interest I was just thinking he was a bit socially awkward before that.  I told him I was into girls.. but he did not believe me.  Things grew a bit scary as I asked him to back off a little he apologised and backed off. Then suddenly I began getting texts. Apparently he followed a friend of mine and asked them what my number was since he lost his old phone.. like he completely lied. He began sending me texts that he hoped I was not to mad. Way past his self proclaimed bed time.

I wanted to resolve things because I felt like I did not want to block him. The guy was nice enough so on the con I took him apart just before I went home and told him it was never going to happen but that I liked talking geeky with him. We ended up taking about our favorite power ranger villains and we even parted with a hug! Yet after the con the texts kept coming. Growing increasingly delusional , eventually constantly mentioning.. If only would be into guys. We had a real moment there! He never met someone who understood him as much. He hoped that we could still be friends and eventually one day.. things might happen.

He found me on Badoo, which I had to delete because of that, by pretending to be a girl and some other red flags. At one point he started adding all my Facebook friends and asking them if I had a new number.  He always used geeky references because I said I liked that in him…. in a friendly way but eventually he pissed Pinkie off. I told him I would block his number and never wanted to talk to him again. If he bothered any of my friends or me I would press charges.  Two years later he comes up to me again and apologizes and he has a partner. Very clingy but a cute couple. I talk to them occasional if we walk past each other but only if they are together… For all you potential stalkers out there feel free to talk.. but if I say no it’s a a no! Never will be a yes either. If you can accept that we can be friends! If you can’t .. i’ll be angry!