Vtuber-Stuff – Pinkie's Paradise

The VTuber Bachelorette: Mori Calliope

As a Princess who blew up her serfs, it can get a bit lonely on my island sometimes! I know in the blogosphere I still have some servan-uhm nakama walking around.. but still! When I searched for an anime waifu.. I found Sayaka a lovely waifu.. who is kinda too young for me… but did you know most Vtubers are like MILLIONS of years old! That’s perfect for a boomer like me! So now we are searching for a Vtuber bride! And today we look at the drop DEATH gorgeous Calliope Mori!

Who is Calliope

First of all let me address the fact that no one ever called her Calliope, so we call her what everyone else calls her.. Calli. Which is a lot easier to type as well! Calli is part of HoloLive EN’s first generation… HoloMyth. She was the first english VTuber I was aware of.. at least actively and drew me in straight away. Calli is a grim reaper, the embodiment of death… see now my typo in the introduction makes sense huh! She allegedly lives in the Underworld but likes to visit modern day Japan a lot! Not only to reap… but to rap! You see while Calli has mixed feelings about the fires of a certain phoenix, she does like to spit flames herself. She often takes a bit of a leadership role of HoloLive En members and is by far the most cool headed of them all.

I would have talked about her debut here.. and dates.. but you know what.. google is your friend. If you care about that history enough it is very easily searchable. If you are into Calli enough you probably know already! If you did not know about her yet, then I bet you don’t really care when she debuted. She is nearing her one year anniversary of streaming and currently has 1.55 million followers! That is the important part! That is quite impressive! Not as impressive as her fellow Gura Gawr who debuted on the same day and now is one of the .. if not the biggest Vtuber around with well over 3 million followers. The latter won’t feature in this series though…because she looks like a kid. That’s a bit of an iffy subject.. so let’s focus on this much more mature lady! Calli not only streams on a regular basis , she also produces a lot of songs, some are even used for games.

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Calliope’s followers are called Deadbeats… you know it’s funny because she lays out them SICK BEATS .. and she is death! Calli’s own nicknames are stuff like CallioP to do that whole rapper thing a bit more, Calli .. like everyone calls her and Dad. Yes this pink haired woman is often referred to as dad for her behaviour and patriarchal role towards Hololive EN.. but also to chat. She also has the nickname/description of being a Tsudereaper…which I will have to adress in her breakdowns of positives and negatives which we will get to shortly! For those wanting to know who Calliope Mori is without dipping in Vtuber culture… here is a two hour podcast!

The Upsites on Dating Calli

Her voice! Her Voice!

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As an greysexual mono-romantic (into female) , trans-woman I have very little urge to do bedroom games! I am not really looking for the bedroom bounce in a girl. I am looking for company and conversation! I think Calli is great for the latter! Because her voice is so unique and distinguished. It makes me feel safe and protected! I love her vocal ticks as well, she is very emotable! .. When she speaks you know exactly what kind of mood she is in, just by hearing her and that makes her easy to be around… don’t get me wrong, I love squeaky voices as well.. but more in an envious way! I am jealous I don’t have Wolychu’s voice , I would sacrifice 100 first born children to get Nyanner’s voice and I would murder all the heroes in Dragon Ball to wish for Ironmouse’s voice… but Calli… well that voice makes me wanna lie on her lap.. cry and she tells me it’s all gonna be okay! She has a good voice for a grim reaper and a good dad voice!
She has an amazing ASMR voice as well! She could read the cat in the hat to me… and I am NOT a cat person!

She inspires me!

Back when I was a moth and I started my Youtube channel I took the action because I was inspired by Calliope and her song about creating. In one of her songs she challenges the so called VTweeters to start creating.. and while I think as a blogger I have always have been creating, I realised that I was settling for creation! I wasn’t happy with just blogging! I wanted more! I had an itch that my blog simply could not scratch and I let my fear of not being deemed a true woman stand in the way. .. when I heard Calli call me out however I was like… I should just start creating indeed.It might not be perfect.. and I might get swept up in the endless pit of Vtubers, but that should never stop me from trying because if I do I will get swept away for sure. While my time as a Moth was short lived.. I did not quite because of disappointing reception of my videos, no .. I wanted this Vtuber experience in a purer form! This was great! I wanted to pursue this without settling as much and that included my voice. I want more options to interact and create.. and while that invoked some powerful demons .. it also made me feel I am more on the right track then ever… and yes I will most likely fail as a creator.. the odds are against me to make it big.. but that isn’t my dream, my dream is to try! To have done this thing… because it is me to some extend! That flame was ignited because of Calli.. and her song!

She is the best Dad (and Sheriff) !

What?! No I don’t want children’s! Eeeeeew! Baka! That’s not why this is a plus! I’d rather have rats then children! And no I don’t want no DADDY either. *Bonk* No.. I will admit I find Calli’s dad behaviour attractive and that is perfectly normal! One can either be drawn in by someone like you, someone like a parent or someone that is an opposite of you! These three are the most normal romantic biasses a person can have… and while Calli is not like my dad very much, she does embody the values i’d want from that. Where Korone whom i discussed last time is more similar to me, in the attraction spectrum of things, that would lead to a relationship that is fun and cosy.. meanwhile a relationship with Daddy Calli would supplement my life. She adds an energy I am severely lacking, albeit in another role. Trough streams she has shown to embody this energy on several occasions and towards people she is romantically shipped with as well. I think the parrent-child archetype of relationship also works best for a romance that is light on bedroom stuff, as Calli would get her satisfaction out of taking care for me and I would get energy by being taken care off! I am a princess after all.. and just look at this clip and tell.. she is a great dad!

The Downsides of Dating Calli

Her Drip is better than mine!

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There is an alarming trend going on in the anime and vtuber world.. and that is the trend of Drip… I HATE Drip. Why would I need to dress like some nineties Urban character with swag and golden chains and a baseball cap! But nowadays kids thing you are cool.. if you have drip.. and oh boy does Calli have drip. Recentenly Hololive EN has gotten their second outfits and Miss Mori’s outfit is unashamed..complete drip! Red as well.. which isn’t a colour I particularly like! I will be honest I do not like the outfit.. or the massive underground rapper act. I mean it is what it is and to an extend that is the true Calli and I accept that …. BUT it can be a bit much. It comes with this urban lingo .. you know peasant talk and as a prim and proper princess that lingo really vexes me. Like Drip.. or flaming mixtape. What is a mixtape even when it’s not on an actual tape?! Spittin Rhymes or Spittin truths sounds so UGLY to me.
I like Calli best when she isn’t doing that thing.. but it is her passion. I could get used to it and I will admit on her it is less annoying and kinda charming then on some other people I see try it … but you know.. if people bow to your royal highness.. that is me.. and my waifu goes.. Yoyoyo Sup Bitches… we might give out mixed signals. Besides.. I can’t stand the thought of people thinking my waifu is more swag than me!

She doesn’t know how a Kazoo works!

So this one might seem petty! It is not like I require my waifu to know how to play the kazoo… and by now Calli DOES know how to play the Kazoo..however when something doesn’t work Calli apparently does toss it aside and just orders another one! She is one of those people who “doesn’t read the manual” … now I will admit.. as a princess, I am a little bit high maintenance.. so I have a manual! Does that mean Calli will toss me aside as well when I am acting up? Chat had to tell her how a Kazoo works because she did not want to deal with figuring out how to make it work herself. She lacks a… scientific curiosity sort of speak.. that might make it difficult for her to hit it off with me. I am like a Kazoo, I am used a bit differently from similar products. I do not have all the parts you expect me to have nor does working with me come natural. I have quirks you need to play around. You can’t dominate me and just force sound out of me because I will shut down.. but if you are to gentle or throw yourself at me without making me do any work.. I wont play a happy tune either. Cali luckily DOES not like people throwing themselves at her romantically either.. so maybe she would understand…but the Kazzoo makes me think otherwise!

That Stupid Bird!!!

Most Vtubers have shipping partners. Korone had Okayu, IronMouse has CdawgVA. Gura and Amelia are a thing.. so it is not surprising that the sexy daddy that is Calli has a ship as well. My rival for her love would be Kiara Takanashi .. a phoenix girl who can’t be killed a always revives.. which is basically the same thing my unicorn blood does for me! However Kiara is very similar to me .. in the sense that she would murder me to get Calli to be hers and hers alone. I would murder her to make Calli mine.. but in the end we would just be in an endless cycle of murder…. and I am lazier than Kiara so I would not bother with it as much! You see I would not want my outfit to be shredded… and the bird attacks with a sword and shield. I just use a polearm/lance . Which means most of the time she will have an advantage as well. That is troublesome! The bird lives into that german country that sounds like Australia as well.. meaning she lives very close by where I live and it could just get very bothersome. Kiara might be needed to networking myself into the big leagues.. so if I make her an enemy, I’d be in trouble! So I have to wonder, is Calli worth giving up my dream of fame?! Perhaps I should date Kiara instead.. I mean I have pink hair and am a bit cold on the romantic side, I live in the Nether(lands) so I do have similarities.. but she is so loud! Kiriki… perhaps if I can trap her in a vault and sink her to the bottom of the ocean i’d be fine… but Gura could just free her since they are friends and she is a shark. This might be one love rival I can not beat.. or that cost me more than it would get!

How eligible is Calli

Now it is time to look how compatible we are… and I must draw a conclusion that … I don’t know! Either we could REALLY hit off, or not work at all! On the one hand I do think we are both looking for the same type of energy in a relationship, we would not smother each other and let each other do their own thing. Which is great! It could be a really healthy relationship…. yet I think it would be a very low energy relationship as well. An inverse friends with benefit type of deals. We comfort each other and support each other like in a relationship, without the lusty stuff. Which would be fine… if things came naturally! However fighting off Kiara, or for her to present next to a girly girl and me to a modern rapper girl.. would take a lot of effort on both of our parts! What we could have WOULD be beautiful and pure…but is it worth the price of admission?! Probably not! I do have a faint sense of lust for her.. but I think she is better as fantasy than as a Waifu! A celerity crush or such! That is why I give her an eligibility score of 6 mic drops!

It’s a new format: Princess Talks – Episode 1

Greetings Pleasants, as people might know I had a recent spell of blogging Dysphoria that made me question if I even want to keep pursuing this blog. It’s a great world and community, but I am not sure if it is fully my community! I do enjoy myself when writing, but dealing with that other stuff has been a struggle, stuff like topic selection, or what I want to achieve with a post. Also stuff like editing efforts and such! So I decided to develop a format that would deal with my issues! And out came out Pinkie Talks.

Why Pinkie Talks was born

I always had a dream of a very interactive blog, focussed on creative content, rather than reviews. However for those topics I am in a niche that isn’t large enough to maintain that interactivity. Reviews would be received well, and I consider tose low effort posts for me personally, while high effort posts did not nearly do as well. When my closest chat friends became aware and pointed out that lots of times my comment sections end up empty I realised I was burning a lot of energy on formats that I could not maintain without interactivity. I can not turn people into conceptual Pokémon if no one in my comments said.. Wow I like this, do me next. I COULD write anime concepts based on random things using wheels and generators.. but again..I’d burn energy to update said wheel, while I rather have it from audience interaction anyway. That is not anyone’s fault , it is just me structuring my posts wrong. I became dependent on my audience, and with me often to find enough energy to make it trough a day I could not keep up with 70 blogs to ensure interaction either.

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WordPress should be obligation free, for anyone. You do not OWE me a response, so I should not demand one. I might be a princess, but that was still wrong. I have no legal authority in your country yet after all! Still the passion to write was there.. so I wanted something that is more static in nature. Yet also something that isn’t what everyone else does. It’s not that I dislike reviewng or dislike all of your reviews… it is a much deeper issue. Whatever I attempted as a kid.. dad always told me I was not good enough in that… he still does! He recently told me I will suck as a streamer/VTuber. He talked down on the whole idea.. and when dad is a video producer/online content maker/web designer.. that stings.

Whatever sport I played as a kid, whatever hobby I picked.. he told me I was not good enough. What’s worse is.. I believed him. It nestled in my brain and stuck there…. so now whenever I do something I see the mass does.. my brain will ALWAYS tell me I am not good enough. I WILL be the worst streamer, I AM the worst blogger…not factually but in my head… in my dads voice that is a truth I still can’t deny! It sucks the joy out of things quite often…. but when I am unique and do things my way… . I might suck…but you also can’t compare me to others.

Now while Pinkie talks, is in essence just a log on what’s happening in my life and mind, and thus it is the very first defintion of blogs, I can escape that sense of judgement..because I am not reporting about Cowboy Bebop.. or Breath of the Wild, I am reporting about ME. I am the only person in the world who makes logs about me… so while I am the worst at it.. most likely I also am the best. I tried to trick myself into this by making my reviews personal…but I saw to many people write about what they wanted to see in reviews and adding standard elements to it.. I fell in that pitfall over and over again.. so I needed to find a way to cope! And doing my own little talkshow and log could work well so I made this a reality!

The Rig of my Dreams… and nightmares

My Vtuber dream is slowly coming to fruition, I am making steps to be the true content creator I desire, and I always admitted that blogging was just me settling, It was the video dream that I had as a kid… but surprise surprise, that costs money, which I did not have at the time. Now Covid helped me save a lot of money because I managed to break free of all those social things I do with friends for quite a while. They all say it costs nothing… it’s just a movie…, it’s just fastfood or it’s a ticket to a theme park but today it’s just … … Well , living on benefits I just realised how much money that costs. About a PC per half year! And that is in a market where scalpers have driven up the prices of pc’s very highly. I love my friends and I love doing stuff with them but my love for them kept my dream under lock and key.. and Covid gave me that key. I could make the sacrifice ..without it being a sacrifice!

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So I bought a great new PC! An “AMD Ryzen 5 5600X 6-Core (12 threads) 3.7Ghz (turbo: 4.6Ghz) Nvidia Geforce RTX 2060 GPU 256GB SSD 16GB DDR4” It even has rainbow fans.. it says on the box! It got delivered to me two days ago! … mostly! The Keyboard I ordered with it did not get delivered…. which is a problem if you have a Laptop! It got delivered in parts anyway and I can’t do the whole pc making thing so a friend of mine will come over to fix that..but I need all parts first so right now it is just sitting pretty on my desk! I proudly showed it to my dad..well the advert to it.. just to realise right after I purchased it .. it dropped 200 euro’s in price! … Frick! Even though I got it on sale, with a banner that said.. this sale will last for 12 more days! It did.. but the base price just lowered! … So that soured my joy a bit!

I got two 24 inch MSI HD screens with it as well! Which had the correct ports to hook it up ot my new tower without problems, and I got those on a fairly sharp sale as well! So I am quite content! They got delivered exactly on time and in good condition so nothing to complain about with that! I am over the moon! With two screens I can finally stream…….. had my microphone been delivered. You see I ordered an adorable Microphone which was supposed to be delivered by amazon yesterday. Including a boom!

Now Insomnia got to me that night so I did not sleep the entire night prior while I was waiting on my early morning delivery! Promising myself I would get a nap afterwards… but alas it got postponed till the afternoon, then until evening and then I got an e-mail saying it would be delivered a few days later. When I woke up this morning I got an email I send them back for a refund which if I did not do this myself meant the goods have been damaged. I will be refunded in 5 to 7 days…. so now I have to order this cutie again! It does mean I can get a capture card along with it as well though! So that’s a plus!

All in all I am super excited to get my new goodies.. but I am being very unlucky in the way I am getting it.

My first Stream

I am quite nervous for today as it will mark my first guest stream! My rig is clearly not set up yet.. but with my headset and an interactive PNG I will make my first appearance on the Twitch page of my new found friend VBI-Kun. Who is a blue cat spicy seiso V-Tuber. Spicy Seiso means … Spicy Pure. This means while the content technically is safe for work, you might want to reconsider showing your boss that this is what you are up to in your spare time. Unwise For Work.. I would call it!

Anyway VBI is a great streamer, who is quite active in the same community as I am and I try to pop by his streams when I can! Besides him I will be playing a game with about six strangers. So I am actually quite nervous! Mostly because it is my voice debut and I hate everything about my voice! I will be talking in character and overly accentuated Falsetto, until I get more speech therapy. So I am kinda nervous! For those interested in the cat man, you can find him at https://www.twitch.tv/vbi_kun

The game we will be playing is called Gartic Phone, which is a web (and I assume mobile) based game where you draw a prompt another player has mentioned. Which can be something weird like “Wolverine eating cabbage” Then the next player is shown your drawing..and they have to make up a new tag for it. Then the next person draws THAT tag and so on! Like one of those old message chain games..but with drawing AND speaking! It’s a really neat game! But there is one problem! I can now draw to save the life of me! Let alone draw within a time limit. Now I know VBI isn’t as much as an artist as many other vtubers either.. but he still draws better than me! So putting my pictures on display for all the world to see is something I look forward to doing.. but I might stand out between artists! Because so many vtubers are artists!… and as people will see tonight (my time) I am not!

Spare Time

I have been pretty insomniac lately so free time is kinda blobbing together with moments of nothingness. I have been watching a lot of Yu-Gi-Oh online content lately which has taken up the slots of my pokemon content , which I am currently on a small break off.. well not really but I just assume less pokémon content. My favourite show to currently follow on the web is Cimooooo’s Progression series. Which is a Yu-Gi-Oh series where the content creator opens Yu-GI-Oh packs (a booster boxx worth of them in virtual form) builds a deck with them.. and then they move to the next set.. getting a new booster box to slowly upgrade their deck!

Man do I enjoy that series! Even though they have entered the horrible generation of pendulums it is nice to see some actualy strategies across the generations that do not involve total blow outs! I also am very much enjoying the History of Yu-Gi-oh series by the same guy! Which highlights iconic decks and Meta builds from ages past! So good! Recently a new series has shown up where he builds one time decks using booster sets in chronological order. .. but this time all the old cards are tossed out! I am hyped for the future!

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I watched a very generic movie about ice road truckers, miners and Liam Neeson… It’s called Ice Road and I did not like the movie. I wanted to watch something dumb… and I kinda got that but it was written al wrong. Exposition focussed on the wrong things, emotional moments did not hit their mark and Lawrence Fishburne was completely wasted in a movie that is very generic. The only thing I did like about it was the story!

After a mining accident, a cooperation hires three truckers to bring them the one thing that can rescue the miners… but unbeknownst to our heroes, that same company wants their mission to fail because they cut back costs and increase productivity by disabeling security systems… I do feel that this is indeed an evil of these times, much more so then all those gangs and human trafficking circuits Liam usually encounters. However this is basically a Steven Segal movie with a 70 year old lead. It’s bland and you are better of watching the Ice Road series on discovery… though that has less crazy antics and gunfire.

I tried to watch an anime but I lacked the energy! I tried to get back into animal crossing on Switch but I found myself less drawn to the cute characters and the tedium as before, I started a new island and I slipped up in a few placements and I realised I would have to wait about a week or so before I could fix that and it deflated my passion. I tried to install Beyond Good and Evil on my laptop which was gifted to me by Indigo.. but it installs in french for me… which is very obnoxious mostly because I dont speak french! It is impossible to change the language because that was selectd in the old launcher.. and that doesnt run on the steam version! If I get the Ubisoft Launcher THAT in english and then install the game clean with no trace files of it left it should play in english…but that means

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I will play it on my new pc instead. I am trying to make my way trough Soma which is an submarine/machine based horror type game! It is really cool, but the fact that I am a machine and not a person does kinda suck the horror out of it! Still a cool game to play! I love making friends with the little lamp robots underwater and finding several ways to solve a puzzle. Quite good even if I am not very excited let alone be scared . It started out really scary though! It kinda makes me want to play Alien Isolation! I have also been playing some serious legacy of the duelist! A yugioh game I got on Switch.. I have nearly completed 100% of the GX matches and I can finally move onto 5d’s which is my favourite era in Yugioh!

Plans

To wrap this post up , let’s talk a bit about what I am planning next week! And to be honest, I am not sure! I hope I can get my pc working that week, but I really need my keyboard and he microphone set to come in in order to make that for work. I am getting some more gender therapy sessions which is good and I think I have an appointment with my psychologist set as well, so all in all it will be a great week for my mental health as having acces to said new pc is to be sure to heighten my spirts as well. If my Insomnia doesn’t break me down to much I plan to do one or two videos for my youtube channel as well. .. Again IF I can get my microphone delivered. I want to make a video where I explain the rules of my channel and maybe do one where I tell a story! I might even convert these Pinkie talks into videos at a certain point.

As for blogs go, will there be any next week?! I am not sure! The laptop had it’s backspace key break! Sometimes it works sometimes it doesn’t, blogging without backspace is quite annoying! So it depends! I will at least try to do something for the anniversary on saturday, but I am currently still unsure what to do. It might be a bit silly to celebrate two years of blogging anyway! So who knows! We might get something we might not, it’s all up to what I feel like. and that feels okay! I am happy with, I feel no more obligation to my blog, now I can finally blog just for fun! Freedom!

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I am back! Sort of…. I think?

Good to see you again pleasants! It has been a while since I last blogged! I needed a break from it all because I wanted to focus on some of my greater ambitions! So what have I been up to? What is going on with Pinkie?! Well today I will tell you all about my pursuit to become a Vtuber and how it has changed things for me!

Why I took a break

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So let’s begin at the start! Why did I take a break?! Well it has been no secret I have not been getting out of blogging what I want to get out of blogging! I really DO like the blogging community and you are all such kind and good people filled with passion and amazing penmanship… but for me this past year of blogging there was something missing from it! I have thoroughly enjoyed my interactions with the Paradise Staff and making up the stories in the blog is really fun. Yet on multiple occasions I have talked about how I missed something, and with my staff becoming less active and my Joy pointing out my comment section is often quite empty, I wondered what it was. I struggled to keep up with other blogs as well as I increasingly fell out of love with anime…. No wait that is wrong. I really do love anime, just not as much as you guys do?! I have several passions that trump that and I found them demanding increasing amounts of time.

I made a lot of Vtuber friends. Like the amazing Millie Fuwaffles, Nephillia and the always funny Patumbra, I also made friends with the amazingly talented and focussed Nini Neen, as well as plenty of others. I try to support them but this means watching about a 3 hour stream every day, I do pop in and out a bit but I want to offer them interaction! I want to be part of the community so that means putting in the hours. Through these interactions I figured out what I was lacking from blogging and that was … spontaneity I want to converse rather than just speak? I do like blogging interactions but compared to streams it’s a bit more “flat”. We say “nice post” .. or “you dumb pink cow, how dare you devaluate us by saying our interactions are flat.. you should die in a hole” or something in between. If I have an issue get good advice and my shoulderpads… but never (except with Joy… I love you for it Joy) you suddenly end up talking about something completely different. In a stream we can talk about the game the streamer is playing and suddenly end up in a conversation about the origin of taffy. All of you may know I thrive on randomness.. so this kinda thing is like my jam!

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I do still have a passion for writing, making up stories and telling stuff, that is still in my blood so it is not like I will stop blogging or that I do not get anything out of it, yet WordPress itself made it less rewarding still. The struggles to get the edit right, the relative amount of effort for a small visual thing no one ever really notices…it took the spontaneity even further away. I have a super cool idea and begin writing and that part is fun, but then comes dealing with the editor.. and it becomes less fun. Glitches, text popping in and out, having to sort my colours every time, it enforced that feeling of .. ugh.. not today for me! So I needed a break and really focus on something I am super passionate about! And that thing was starting my Vtuber career.. and to do that I had to do one of the hardest things I have ever done.

Coming out as a trans-woman

So this one might sound weird to a few of you, as I have in the past spoken openly about this on other people’s blogs! I have always reacted to posts about the subject and in OWLS it was on my “profile”. I have talked in depth about subject matter with people like Mari and Irina as well as some others. Yet on my own blog I never did, so this fact may surprise some of you! Truth of the matter, confessing that isn’t hard at all. I’d tell the truth to all who’d ask. I just feel, and forgive me if this offends you, that you have no business in knowing my genetic make-up…. in all other ways than that I’ve been that girl I said I am.. in fact in the virtual space I have been more true to myself than my parents have ever seen me past the age of 5. You guys have seen the real me…and that is why coming out was so hard for me. I had to corrupt my safe space.

In the text based virtual space, I have no tells that my biological truth may be different from my sociological truth, and since non of you are my doctor geneticist or those who need to write me legal documents, the gender versus genetics thing has always been a non issue. However as an aspiring streamer, I need to be confronted with my greatest shame.. my voice. I truly loathe my voice so much so that I am actually afraid to speak up! I am so scared and displeased by it that in fact I CAN not truly speak up. Health issues complicated that even more so it will be a tricky thing for me to deal with.. but since content making IS a dream, I can not have that fear hold me back anymore… and since the internet is how it is “You sound like a dude” .. or ” I bet she is actually a guy” in comments and all… I decided to embrace my flag though it pains me greatly.

I feel in order to chase my dream, I am leaving a piece of my true identity behind. I am a true woman.. I know it! Yet recently it has become a bit of a “trend” or more “accepted” thing to be Trans… which is great..except it feels wrong to me. I just want to be the woman I know I am.. and the woman I in all but the genetical way am! That doesn’t need to be closer defined. I don’t specify my skin colour, my eye colour or my clumsy demeanour either. I am not a “clumsy” woman.. well I am a clumsy woman but it’s not like a subspecies or something. This might feel stupid but in calling me a “trans-woman” I feel like I will forever be denied “woman”. It’s not as bad as being called a dude.. but imagine if your life long dream is to see Disneyland.. but then you are denied entry past Cinderella’s castle?! It’s still Disneyland sure and you can hug Mickey Mouse all the same.. but it feels like you are missing out on the true experience. That is why I reluctantly wear this flag. Trans… is not a state of being, trans is a journey you undertook to finally become your true self. It is fleeting. I know I had to do this coming out to explain my voice and some other things I will encounter as a streamer .. but I am just very afraid Trans-woman will lead into the JK Rowling mindset, where the opposite of Trans-Woman is her “true-woman” or whatever higher level of womanhood she claims to be on in her tweets. It would deny me from ever reaching my destination… and it makes me really anxious… so I struggled with that.

Becoming a VTube

Now let’s talk about cool things! My path to become a Vtuber! I have made some amazing steps on the way! I am learning more about streaming everyday, and I have found this amazing loving community filled with amazing people who support me and help me and are there for each other. Every time I visit one of their discords it feels as if I am on the floor of an anime convention or something, except we don’t talk about anime that much, we can literally talk about everything. There is a fair bit of anime talk but these people also care a lot about gaming.. much more in the same ratio’s as myself. Where in the blogging community I found people I look up to, and who are very eloquent and are equally as passionate as me , in the Vtuber community I have found my peers. People like me! Who much more share my humor and my quirkiness and a love for randomness. It helped me flesh out the character quite a bit.

For example I made the difficult decision to drop the name Pinkie for my Vtubing. There is this certain pony that completely drowns me out in any search results… except for weird questions like “are Pinkie and Goku in Love” which people apparently googled to land on my blog! I have taken on the handle of Yuni D’uque a japanese frenchie name that is based on my character being a uniduck. D’uque will perform fairly well in search engines once it is time for me to fully start streaming. Most elements are already in play for that! I have my stream overlays sorted out, I have made a lot of visuals, I have my amazing 3d model by Frisout (which kinda clips because she is just a Vroid but it’s an amazing place to start) I have made many new friends and even some collabs already planned. As a blogger I never fully managed to get that off.. because how odd it felt to me! I never felt good enough.. it would be fun but my part would be detrimental to someone else… I do not feel that burden as a streamer.

My New Logo

Basically I have everything I need to be a streamer..except for one thing! A rig with which I could feasibly stream. I need a new pc because I have discovered my system is NOT good enough for that! But that makes it all the more exciting to do this! I have found a system that I am ordering the day after this post goes live and then within a few weeks I am ready to start streaming. I am super excited! So I made a channel promo to highlight what I as a Vtuber will be about! I hired an amazing artist to perform some lyrics I rode to a song that means a lot to me… and of course Disney immediately claimed any rights to make money of that video… but at least they allowed me to use it! So yay!
So I will share that video here with you guys! It explains some new lore about the character.. but also shows she still has plenty of powers! I had a blast making this but you can see a lot of sloppy bits where my computer let me down a bit because I could not do something frame by frame, the laptop skipped a lot of things or jittered a fair bit! I am still kinda proud of it though!

So what about the Blog?

So what is next for my blogging career? Will I stop? Probably not! Will I be as active as I was.. most likely not that either. As much as I hate to admit it, the big issue is the overlap in interests is very little. Vtuber posts do poorly on here, as well as gaming posts (relatively speaking) so it will be a tricky thing to combine. Especially since this thing.. the video content creation thing is much more a passion than writing is. Writing is still fine but really WordPress isn’t.
I will still do creative posts! For example I still have Fred’s anime story about Nudism I need to make and do a Summer as a Pokémon post, as well as an anime story for her.. but again other than that I had very little interaction on the coming up with my own anime thing. So that format I will most likely turn into videos! Not as visual.. as I can’t do art and can only collage.. but somehow I want to do story writing videos where I just tell you stuff. I will also do interactive storytelling streams but I need to sort that out as well.. but let’s just say that some blogging content will turn “hybrid” once I get my rig.

I do not feel like doing anime reviews, I am not good at them, I still like anime but I always feel like I am late to the party, or I can’t compare Girl’s last Tour to that stage play thing Ian Mc Kellen did , so when say the story just gives me happy feelings where I want to wrap myself in a blanket with a bit of soup and look at it on a day I am feeling sick.. I feel.. inferior. Anime is something I love but to keep it as something I love, I feel I must keep it to myself because I do not care about a lot of things from anime. I do not care for studio’s, I do not really care for allegories, I do not care for animation fluidity yet in a review I can not help but feeling I need to include it. I tried to review anime MY way.. but I feel to make something a review I need to do something with it. You know as if a review is a too defined concept for me to excel at! I am more of a rambler! I know it is all in my head but I can’t turn that not good enough switch off. When I write reviews like that all I hear people being angry at me…because well there is also the toxic culture part and it’s just in my system so hard .. when I review I just hear myself go yapyapyap…. stupid insight, mildly funny joke.

I know most of my readers care way less about games, or about Vtubers but these are the things i am currently most passionate about. D&D as well. So honestly I do not know what I will do blogging content wise. I need to pay for my domain again soon and around that time I will make a true decision! It is unlikely I will fully be gone, but during my three week absence I will admit that I did not MISS blogging that much either. Well that is not correct, I did not miss it’s “static” nature, I did miss blogging a bit. So maybe with some exceptions of stuff that is already written I will treat my blog more like an actual weblog and tell you more about my days, my path of being a vtuber, what games I played and what stuff I watched. Or my general feelings on various topics! Less edit heavy, less pictures. I haven’t found out yet what I want.. and I think that is also okay!

In the end I still want to build a geeky community, so in that sense not all that much would change about the blog, I just want to bring more spontaneity to the table. We are nearing the second anniversary of the blog. Last year I had two give aways, both with one responder only and after that they became my most spammed posts so this year we will do something else at the very least. What it is , I am not sure yet! But I hope it will be fun. You will hear more about that! I am not done yet! I just thoroughly lost my way. I will admit that I am lost but also that no matter how things will turn out to be alright!

The Bachelorette VTuber Edition: Inugami Korone

Hear Ye Hear Ye Princess Pinkie is here with her first Vtuber post!

Salutations loyal subjects and sweet Island Guests. Today we open a new category of blog topic, something I have become very endeared to! VTubers. So I came up with a plan to review VTubers.. but that is tricky! Some I enjoy more in clip format, while others I watch streams after the fact that they have streamed and yet others I do enjoy interacting with… so how can I review them all in a fair and funny way?! By bringing back an old format I could not keep up with back then! I may have staff, I may have knights.. but I do not have a real waifu! Well Sayaka is my waifu..but well ..that’s a real person to me.. how about Verson/VTuber/Vblogger me?! She needs a Waifu as well… So let’s look at how weddable these lovely VTubers are while telling you something about you! Today we start with the first VTuber I became aware of! Inugami Korone.

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Who is Korone

To be fair, the first VTuber I was aware of wasn’t really Korone, it was Kizuna AI, but back then it was not really called Vtuber! When she actually began doing sponsored mobile games a lot, I kind of fell off the AI-chan bandwagon! I missed the good old days where she played games like Limbo… Korone is the one that brought me back into the world.. and really hooked me to it! When I saw AI I had a dream to be like this one day .. but she was too technologically advanced to ever live up too. Korone.. was a more reachable goal and while I am far from getting there as well..mostly due to money issues.. she became a big inspiration.

inugami korone and nekomata okayu (hololive) drawn by hanekoto | Danbooru

Inugami Korone is a japanese VTuber , she is a dog who works in a bakery, with her first name Korone being derived from the word Coronet and Inugami meaning “Dog God ”. She is part of the most well known VTuber group, HoloLive. She joined the group in 2019 and after a series of announcements, sneak peaks and teases she had her debut on April 14th. While it took Korone a while to find her style, she nowadays is best known… to me at least, for playing mostly retro games. Which was a big appeal to me! Her on screen persona is oftenly highly energetic and erratic. Korone has shown to be very emotional during many streams which vary from.. hyper-enthusiasm.. too crying so hard she had to end/pause a stream. She also often gets “mad” at her chat! Which has led to numerous memes! Because she tells she would punch chat in the face if she could and she made it possible for her to do so even.

Her fanbase is called Koronesuki, which is depicted as a bald man, drawn in photoshop paint. The avatar of chat is known as Listener-Kun. Often Korone’s dog mascot is seen on top of Listener-Kun.. but Korone has several versions of Listener kun.. including one with his face being punched in.. by Korone’s first. Her name is being used as a pun for donations, which she only picked up on after streaming for two years! Many clip moments of Korone revolve around her interaction with chat,

The upsites on dating Korone

I am a dog person

Vtubers almost exclusively are demi humans, we have ducks, reapers, pirates, demons, alpaca’s nymphs.. and Korone is a dog! She is 92 years old in dog years..or at least her avatar is and I get along with dogs really really well! I have this tranquil energy or something that makes dogs always vibe with me. My sister’s former toy poodle for example was such a restless spirit.. but around me it totally calmed down and would just take naps in my lap! Even when I just met it.. it just wanted to lay down close to me.. and that’s a reaction I often have with dogs! I think having a Waifu that wants to lay down next to me is a pretty good trait to have a solid relationship!

We have similar styles

So Korone manifests as quite the sugary little thing! Despite being a finger collecting, fan punching maniac! I do like them crazy, especially with some sugar on top! Korone totally fits that brief! She might just be Yandere enough.. and I do like them cute with rough edges. I have evil tendencies as well at times so.. we’d be a good fit! Her original song Wonderful World is basically how I would produce a song if I had the vocal cords, the money , and the musicality to do it! The only thing I can really do is write the song and come up with the concept.. but it would be something very very similar to this. I love how she mixes retro gaming tunes with a powerful idol girl song! Most of it is about cutting of fingers and Korone herself as well, using all the memes and iconic things about her! I think that is great… brand yourself.. I try to do that too! You don’t need to do the thing everyone likes… just be you and she is totally doing that in this song, so we match in style as well. If I look at the direction it basically and the images used in this clip it is basically how I do my Sunshine Blogger posts! So.. yeah once again we quite match!

We can play Retro Games together.

Jump, Korone! by Poppysicle on Newgrounds — Art By
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In VTuber terms, even though I am 21….NO! I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE THINKING! BUT I AM NOT!! 34!!! I AM 21! Let’s try that again, so even though I am 21 I am considered a boomer in the Vtubing community! I really love retro games the most! I find a lot of modern day.. (Triple A) games are generic. Why does a game have to have 2000 genres.. why do I have to humiliate other people? There are plenty of Indie games I still like, but mostly because they emulate the experience of the past! Luckily Korone agrees with me! I really hate games like Fortnite, Roblox or Apex so if I had a Vtuber wife who would just play those kinds of games, we would be such a poor match. But original Mario, Metal Slug or Spider Man 2000?! I am a game! I could even protect Korone from some creepy worm-like enemies which she seems to be very afraid of! If she can save me from wasps, or the B enemies in Donkey Kong Country 1 and 2 we’d be a great retro gaming pair!

We both bond with our game companions

pea on Twitter: "#できたてころね I love korone ; u ; i watched a translated older stream with oyayubi-kun and i cried 私の日本語が下手ですごめんなさい私はアメリカ人ですコロネも大好き!… https://t.co/UuvFZA5W5X" — ***Art by***
**Japanese name I can’t read**

The best clip to show the beauty of Korone’s soul.. and how amazing her community is.. comes from a time when she played Monster Rancher 2, she did her voice a bit differently from what she does now as the video is over a year old… but this made me cry so hard. I legit cried for an hour or so.. because I shared the pain that Korone experiences in this video! I play an occasional Nuzlocke and such, yet most of the time when my favourite pokémon dies, I can’t bring myself to play anymore. I will be honest, I do not bond with every Pokémon .. but if I get a nickname just right.. and it develops in the right way and our bond is legit…. I am devastated when they die. I’ve heard Jaiden goes through something similar, I know a pokétuber called MandJTv says he goes through something similar.. but never did I experience their pain.. like when I saw Korone play this game. It shows me that she can bond with something virtual.. which is kinda important considering that my princess self is virtual as well! So now I know we can have a real connection

The Downsides on Dating Korone

She WILL punch me for backseat gaming

Imagine Korone and I are having a date! We are playing a retro game together and things are going well! I am sitting on her couch and it’s her turn! I want to support her and cheer her on! I accidentally get caught up in the hype of seeing my doggo girlfriend/date play the game and cheer for her….with some directions here and there! Well Korone doesn’t really like that very much! I do agree that backseat gaming is annoying..but her chat has driven her to a point that she will now inflict violence upon those who tell her stuff about the game! I like my face… well at least my virtual face! I would rather not have my face punched.. That looks quite painful!
There are plenty of memes out there of Korone murdering people in Minecraft as well, she even has said the Iconic words Falcon Punch! And if you ever played Smash Bros, you know how painful it is to be hit by one of those!

She is a cat person

VTubers flirt with each other a lot, so it is no surprise that Korone does something like this as well , the object of her affection is called Okayu, a cat girl VTuber, whom I may or may not review in the future of this series, right now she is not in my field of interest. I will be honest I am NOT a cat person, at all. I would not go as far as to say I HATE cats, but I just can’t bond with them at all. Even in Pokémon I pretty much never end up using cat pokémon.. even if Skitty is pink! Either way Korone is VERY affectionate about Okayu , the two hang out in real life and Korone throws tamper tantrums when she thinks Okayu is about to leave for home because she doesn’t want her to leave! She wants to be kissed by her and she totally adores the girl.. it’s shown in pretty much every stream they share!

While I do not believe in traditional monogamy, the reason to engage in a relationship for me is to experience being so important to someone while having that person be so important to you as well. In a way that feels great to be a fan of something… but mutual I guess. If I know she places Okayu above me.. that reason to make her my Waifu would kinda vanish! I’d like to be the number one of her affection.. and I am not sure if I’d ever get that, and even if I do I would hear cat stories all day long and I do not like hearing cat stories! I love it if you show you got a cat and introduce them to me through cute photos.. but I mean those stories like “Oh my cat wants pats… oh my cat is grumpy ” .. they are the same every day! So stop it Korone!

She wants my fingers

Like I said before Korone is a bit of a psychopath, she loves taking peoples fingers. The origins of this quirk is odd, she started collecting fingers because she needed an original opening. Among HoloLive Gamers she was the only one who did not have her own little intro and she asked chat if it was okay if she asked chat to give them their fingers. Chat replied Yubi Yubi, and so Korone assumed it was okay! Nowadays it is a commonly known meme! And while we can easily dismiss it as just that.. There have been several sessions of gaming where Korone seems super delighted to collect a finger or more! Not just once.. she seems delighted every time! Now she can cut off my legs if she wants.. I am not using those a lot … but my fingers I very much need to game. She seems to take index fingers mostly and that is my most used finger, it’s my typing finger! Or fingers. I hardly ever type with other fingers! So I would lose the ability to blog and would become much worse in gaming… and over all I would really not want that! I just am afraid that if she tries to put a ring on my finger.. it won’t be attached to my body!

We are gonna have language problems

Holo Live Korone Gifts & Merchandise | Redbubble

Like many Japanese Vtubers Korone doesn’t exactly speak english and I don’t speak Japanese. Maybe if I tried very hard… VERY hard, I could be as good in Japanese as she is in English… but before you scold me, I already speak Dutch, local dialect, english and german and I can’t help myself a tiny bit in french and spanish! Not that it will help me talk to Korone of course. The difference between Korone and most english Vtubers is that Korone is easily one of the most memed ones for her bad understanding of english! She has english only streams as a sort of gag. She says some pretty strange things! For example, she claims to be Mercedes Benz! She is also Volkswagon! I am not into cars! I can’t even drive one!. If she takes a shower in the morning and our pipes are clogged.. I’d have to probably understand something along the lines of. Water..in shower..inversion! Peepay no hole! Okay? She is very bad with adjectives.. and I use a lot of those! Since I am not looking for that much of a physical relation with a Waifu.. I do think communication is a big thing! In fairness I think it would be pretty cute if we tried though.. kind of like that time she tried to defuse a bomb with a shinigami!

How eligible is Korone?

inugami korone (hololive) drawn by momoshiki_tsubaki | Danbooru — **Art by Momoshiki_Tsubaki**

Do we have a future together? Probably not! Okayu is too much of a factor for me to overcome! The two make a great couple and I do not like to rip-up couples! Separations DO happen though in the HoloLive canon, so who knows maybe in the future! I am not even fully a model yet! So there is hope! She hasn’t ever threatened to take Okayu’s fingers as far as I am aware so if she can leave my limbs alone we’d be good! In fact, since we are talking about a bride for my virtual self.. I think my unicorn magic would allow me to regenerate lost limbs anyway.. and she can have my pinky…ironically! In the end I think we would be a cute couple to look at BUT it might be a bit of a superficial mariage! I’d pretend to understand what she likes about Eating Mike Tyson’s ass… but deep down I can’t understand.. I just can’t explain that to her..so we will pretend everything is alright! WoooWoooWooo! In the end I give Korone a wedding score off 7 yubi’s and a fingernail out of 10.

Do you know about Korone?! What is your favourite Vtuber?! Are there any Vtubers you’d like me to review in this series? Let me know! I am looking forward to do more of these! I have a lot of fun plans! So let’s talk about Vtubers in the comments.. or let’s talk about something else in the next post! Untill then! Stay random! *Quack*