It is here! My First YouTube Video! Pinkie Ningennoga goes Live!

Hello my little lights! It is time today for a shameless self plug! I have expanded beyond just WordPress and finally started my life as a VTuber. Well the non streaming variant of that at least. I started making YouTube Videos as a Virtual presence in pursuit of my dream! Yesterday my first post went live! So today I celebrate by taking a day off from content creation and just making you aware of my video!

So tell us about this “Video” You Made

Why certainly, Snary me, pretending to be my readers! It isn’t anything all that special really! Just an introduction video! No me playing any games yet! I have noticed that a few VTubers I adore do this character sheet kind of thing, filling in one of those “friendship book pages” of old as it where! The one you let all your friends sign in which they would tell their favourite food, their favourite colour and stuff! It does that whole thing. Not only do my superior peers do that , it will also help people get a good grasp of me as a creator and the retro vibe might actually fit my plans really really well! So i just went for it! It was Sugoi to make! The moment I finally made my Thumbnail felt so liberating. I finally took a step towards my dream!

I made the video using nothing but free software. The only thing I do use that is paid is Photoshop but that ws a gift from a friend. All the images I made can be made in Gimp or any free software that allows you to create transparent background images and use different layers, whatever you prefer. For the Video Editing Software I use a program called Da Vinci Resolve , which despite a few annoying flaws I have really taken a shine through as my editing journey started. It has so much features and it is relatively light to run as well! As long as I can get used to the fact that Audio and Movie tracks are always synchronized I will do a lot better with my videos in the future as well! It has a professional version and a free version, but the options on the free version are amazing already! I can green screen, I can colour correct do some pretty amazing things I haven’t even begun to discover yet!

My model is made with a program called VRoid Studio. Which is a free Program that is available on Steam! It allows you to 3d draw on a puppet and make it your own! With a whole website of extra tools being available on VRoid Hub. You can design your own clothes or buy one.. I did a combination! I found a free one I liked as a basis and drew my own signature outfit onto it! While it took me a fair while to get this done I spend relatively little time wading through tutorials. Overall I might have watched about an hour or so. Probably less! I had a lot of fun experimenting. It isn’t flawless and I already updated my model to version 1.1 after my last first two videos, but that is the beauty of this software, by seeing your model in motion you get a better idea where it’s flaws are. And you can fix it more natural.. just by being active and creating! That is a style that I really REALLY like to learn with! So while you may see it in the video you can also watch me develop as I get into this more and more and I think that tells a story as well! I want to document that journey so that is mentioned in this video as well.

So it’s just a video about you?! Done Clunkily?!

Wow myself making these titles! Rude! Though also not entirely untrue! I had some struggles with making the first video. The problem lies in the last two programs I use, 3Tene to make my model move. Which is another great tool! It is like Facerig, but it works for free! No water marks and allows for way easier customisation. It allows you to register your self moving the character and allows for a lot of poses and actions, and it comes with a lot of fun anime effects! The problem though! It supports a mouth that moves either based on your webcam OR Your Microphone. However My voice isn’t reliable due to my muscle issues and it is something I really hate so I use text to Speech! Which brings a lot of problems in the mix! Luckily I have found that if I use my text to speech program,do the edit in Resolve, I can use the recorder function of my phone to record that .. and then I add it to my capture software to fairly okay results!

Then there is a problem in overlaying the mute video and the actual words being said in the main project as well! For this I use a lot of timers. I record dead air with the Audio recorder making an audible noise as I start the actual audio track. Then when I record my avatar I make her look up or down quickly on the moment i head the click and then I try to sync up my time by counting the seconds of dead air and matching it up! I think 3tene does allow me to record audio as well but I am not sure! I will figure that out as I go! I will make it work! I need to find a way to add cuts though! That will make things a bit easier! Maybe add in some cool effect or change camera perspective at certain intervals. That is just stuff I need to tinker with though! The text to speech program I use is called Balabolka by the way! It is also whatever other text to speech things you have installed, but is very easy to use! Pretty good!

Okay so just plug the video already!

Patience young Padawan! I worked hard on this video, I’d say somewhere between 15 and 20 hours went into making this (though that does include a fair bit of concept creating time as well). I had a blast making this and I want people to know where it comes from! It will be another bit of humble beginnings! But that does mean I really will look to you all to help me out here! Please watch the video and like it! I would love to see you subscribe but I won’t force you to do that! But if you like this post, I hope you will leave a like on the video as well! It may just help make my character become a blip on the radar! I am pretty sure most of you will have a YouTube account anyway! Thank you in advance and for those who aren’t watching this in wordpress reader: Here is the video!

For those who are reading this in reader! It would be appreciated if you would log into my site to at least give it a watch! I hope you will like my YouTube Debut and thanks for reading! Shine on my little Lights!

Oyasumi!

Geeky Dreams Explain: Pinkie’s Weirdest Bizarre Vacation

Hello Island Guests! In this blog we are going to do something special! We are going to analyse one of my most vivid and geeky little dreams I have had in awhile. I still remember the story very well. So I thought it would be a good and funny tale to tell. It turns out…it might have had deeper issues than I thought. I have had this dream twice now with only minor variants.. like in the second run I was aware I had this dream before so I could alter some of the events.. but only to minor effect.  For all intents and purposes I shall tell you the story of the first variation of the dream.

My dream begins in the Southern of France, there is some sort of Formula 1 like race going on.. but the cars are also racing Sonic the Hedgehog and a few other video game like characters. This being a great bridge between Dad and me we decide to go watch.. but we still need to buy tickets and no one has money for it. Yet then Fred and George Weasley show up on their brooms saying they have a plan! We could rob the local beer Factory and sell beer for the races cheaper than on the circuit itself.. it would be a gold mine. So I go along with them and we steal a pallet of beer! I nearly fall but Fred and George save me! We bring the pallet to dad who managed to get a sales license but he betrays me.. he only got permits for himself Fred and George as he does not want me talking through the race. Fred and George give me a few beers but really want to see the match so they agree with Dad. I try to get in anyway but dad puts the blame for stealing the beer solely on me and reports me to the authorities so I have to flee.

The dream skips ahead a few days and I am in a different hotel a really weird one. I made some new friends there, some based on my real life friends ..well one.. and the others are new friends.  I help out in a hotel to stay there but now I got some free time and I am able to swim with my friends! But the pool is made entirely out of milk!  People do not seem to mind and bring up the name of the hotel is Cleopatra resort. One of the other pool guests is a Wailmer pokémon and for some reason Widget the alien is sunbathing there. All the other guests are like minor geeky things or elements of my life. The weirdest thing is like a stick of Butter who once tosses us our beach ball, me and my friends play with when in the pool of milk.  Suddenly a wall explodes and there is Deadpool! Who has been hired to kill me for stealing the beer!  (Thanks dad) , he murders everyone in the pool first and I try to hide under a bed.  He comes after me and says I can not escape. I get fed up with him and tell him I will haunt him from the afterlife.. so he says he will hunt me there as well. He stabs me in the heart and then cuts off his own head. I try to escape but the wound kills me as I fall and sink in the milk.

I then wake up in a indoor pool.. the walls are very bland. there is but one big pool with a huge diving board. My friends are there… but all as 6 or 7 year old school girls. I notice I am a six year old or so as well. I notice there is one extra girl who peels of her face.. to reveal Deadpools mask behind it.. but Shoujopool realises she doesn’t have swords. So she points  at the diving board way up high and tells we should hold a diving competition instead. The loser will go to hell and the winner can return to earth. So that is what we do. We realise there is no judge so we decide to let my friends score.. and give a score ourselves.  Deadpool goes first and I talk my friends into giving him bad scores. 1/10 from all.. but that friend who was a real friend who gives him a 9/10 ..saying  he now she loves Deadpool laughing loud at the silly jump. I climb up but my motor skills really make me slow.. I finally get there as I think I already disappointed my friends… This pool is filled with water…but to make the water appear I have to drop a peanut into the pool. Which luckily I had on me and a fountain shaped like an M&M begins spraying water.. he was in a dream before and he was a chocolate fountain then.. each time I need a liquid I need to toss a peanut at him this is a recurring thing ever since I was 16. 

More on  that later though… I jump into the pool.. but flop real sloppily so I think my one friend will give me a bad grade.. but he doesn’t ……because Deadpool ripped the heads of all my friends and build himself a tipi (native american tent)  of their bodies and a hat of their heads. He tells me I scored zero and I lost. I tell him he cheats and he should give my friends back.. so using some of those cocktail sticks he puts their heads back which revives the girliest girl among them somehow.. but not the rest. He says whoops! Then the girly girl tells me to fight him and Gonna Fly now  begins playing and as we both yell Ding Ding.. We punch each other in the face.. the Screen pans out slightly and we become dwan animations on parchment..slowly zooming out while Subtitles roll to reveal we are actually a trading card. After the subtitles are over that trading card is at the Milk pool..I pick it up.. look around and realise everyone is still dead. I swear.. and that is the moment I wake up.

So now I will use a book of interpreting dreams I once got to identify elements of my dream and come up with an analysis! I haven’t done this before but I felt like it might be a funny post so here we go! The father stuff is fairly obvious.. he is increasingly ignoring me from his life so the way he acts in this dream makes perfect sense. A vacation appearing in a dream according to my little encyclopedia stands for desiring a change of pace or wanting to renew my energies. I have been dealing with a very pesky fatigue as of late so I assume it is the later. A racetrack means can mean I feel my life is going in circles according to this book.. given that a vacation is a thing theme as well.. those two might meet.. since we did take a vacation TO a racetrack. Combined with my father I begin to see a connection. Fred and George I did not think had a deeper meaning. Looking it up though Wizards in dreams mean there are hidden forces at work.. so I guess they could represent Dad’s girlfriend who is manipulating him against us.. but never openly does so. Stealing should mean I feel misunderstood and that I feel like I lack emotional support and appreciation.. that in context makes a lot of sense. Beer apparently is an indicator for hiding behind a mask, now showing my true face and that is a big issue for me.. especially around my family, mostly dad. I fake a lot so I don’t get into conflict but I feel sad that my true self can not be appreciated by him.

The scene that my life is being saved by Fred and George apparently means my head thinks I should let go of a unhealthy bond which makes an awful lot of sense in this part of the dream. The betrayal of my father at the end neatly wraps it up as Betrayal means the dreamer is doubting between the bond between the betrayer and themselves. So yes.. my relationship with my father is indeed not a very good one.. the time I had this dream was just after he had successfully had a malignant tumor removed. Before when he was sick he reached out to us and as soon as the operation was done and he was going to live .. he began shutting us out again. I saw this coming from before and even spoke this out to the rest of the family that it would really hurt me.. they said that would not happen but it did.  Nowadays Dad just criticizes us wherever he can so if I need to drive back home with him (as I can not drive myself)  I feel super uncomfy and just talk to keep him from condemning me. Each time we meet he promises things will go better and every time we are shoved out further. So this first act.. makes a lot of sense! Except for Sonic!


The trait that stands out most in the second act of my dream is milk.  Milk stands for the desire to have a better relationship with your friends or family…which makes this dream quite scarily consistent. Imagining friends who aren’t real  stands for having elements of myself that I really suppress.. or at least according to this book. In real life I have indeed been pretending al lot to have a semblance of fitting in. Seeing friends of old signifies a desire to go back to a simpler time and seeing friends die shows i am worried about my friendships continuing to exist. Each time I had these dreams a friend the friend of old in question I dreamed about really distanced himself further from the group. The first time he blamed us for not going anywhere in our lives and how that marooned his ambition and job comes before friends. Second time he was really negative about all the people I care about in our group and wished for a return to the super male energy of before my coming and of my bestie. 

A pool with water I can not see through.. and I assume milk counts as that, shows that I might be emotionally confused which again was true for the time at the dreams. I wish to continue this friendship..with the male energy person and at times he is a great friend. Yet the fickleness at which I can be tossed out when I am not convenient at the moment hurts. I am not sure I can live with that. I am worth more than be a friend when convenient. Butter , also has a meaning, it represents happiness. I think it stands for how I cope with that relation. Some of our other friends are very focussed on how he acts now at them. Hate him for his unreliabilty, he’s hurting us an selfish. I do not want to lose him so I focus on all the good memories. Widget the Alien.. might mean someone pushes me to my limits or beyond. I am not sure he counts but well I bet we can explain that. If we consider Wailmer the whale pokemon to represent a whale it means something is currently overtaxing me or pressing heavily on me …which again makes scarily much sense to me. 

It gets worse when Deadpool shows up. See my book does not mention a fourth wall breaking super hero as a possible analogy thing.. but a masked figure I am scared off like I was in the dream .. is  actually in my dream book thing again. Apparently a Scary Mask means that I feel …. And I wish I was joking… A lack of harmony in my family or friends. When I started this I genuinely thought this might be tons of fun.. but I am kinda weirded out by how consistently accurate these elements are in my dream. I am not fully sure if I believe in dream analogy but this is a pretty big coincidence at the very least. You can easily say.. but deadpool’s mask is not scary..and I’d say sure.. but I was terribly afraid for him in the dream so it counts! I  also think it is safe to kill Deadpool a killer. When you see a killer murder others the dream book explains it means for emotional sadness another has caused in me.

This can both reflect on my dad again as well as that friend who moved away because he chose ambition over friendship. Ever since he left a few members of our group gave up.. he was the host and now even if I try to host some others just don’t come ..because they rather would go to the other guy.. I am not good enough. Being murdered myself by a killer ties in with that quite well as it shows my brain  feels like people are working against me together.  While I do not feel they actually conspire against me.. I do feel that the negative actions of one.. trigger negative actions in the other yet another stays at home because that second guy is not coming and no one wants to break this cycle. So yeah I have to say.. the second chapter of my analogy also makes a lot of sense. It’s more intangible than the first but these are worries in my head at the time of dreaming. I am not lonely but I can feel myself slipping.

Now onto the final part of this dream. Luckily the implications of this part are a bit more positive! I think they actually represent my blogging life because these dreams occured on the time I felt quite empowered by my blog!  The being reborn part stands for getting a second chance to obtain something I thought was unobtainable, to deal with stuff I want to deal with but could not before or it can represent that I am ready to move on with my life. I am getting close to accept how things are and move on from the pain and start a new phase in my life.  Since I see myself as a younger person now I am more inclined to believe it represents that second part! Because seeing yourself as a young person represents the desire to make up for mistakes I made in the past. Or seize opportunities I did not before. 


When my clique was very tightly knit I never had any reason to make new friends.. I loved this group of friends and having these people was more than enough for me. At conventions I rather would hang out with them as new geeks because they were all I needed. They went out to socialise with others a lot though and now I do regret not doing that as much . I was content with what I had but I wished I could have reached out to others and now I can. Seeing a group of kids ..which in this case are my imaginary friends.. which we already discussed were reflections of sides of myself I could not show.. means the merging of several aspects of my personality… In other  words I suppressed a lot of my persona.. and blogging brings this out more and more and I accept more and more those traits of my personality around you guys! I also show it more in real life! If people are slipping anyway, I might as well make friends by being the truest me!

The Clear Swimming pool, stands for a much healthier emotional life. Since my tonal shift on the blog around May.. which was around the first time I had this dream means, I have been much more honest about my emotions. I accepted myself a lot more and the implications being myself had and even if something sad happens like a person not liking me I was more okay with it because at least it was real. The diving board stems from a temptation and the empty swimming pool I saw for an emotional emptiness. Around April and recently..when things were at a low I was very tempted to harm myself…in the permanent way. By jumping from a great height even…a temptation I had a hard time to fight off. There were times that I felt so alone.. and unheard I was empty.. much like the hall this dream was set in. My health sometimes makes me feel like a time-bomb. I want people to have a positive memory of me. When everything is slipping..sometimes the thought occurs that I should exit stage left now! While I still have some some semblance of control The competition however stands for a will to fight..  so I fight that temptation. No matter how often the thoughts are in my head.. I know I have people who love me still. For them I fight! For them I live! So that temptation..will only just be that. A easy to resist temptation that sometimes nibbles in my mind. But let’s not dwell on that.. this part is about positivity!

The Peanut.. believe it or not also represents something.. it apparently signifies gaining popularity on a personal level. The M&M I am going to interpret as a piece of candy because brands are not considered.. candy represents social Pleasures and an increase in friendships and love. I have actually made friends by blogging.. by being more personal with and more me recently I have gained a bit of popularity as well. I know some people still just like a post without reading it and I know who.. but I have gained this “pack” as of sorts.. a group of people I regularly interact with and it has made me so happy. and at ease with myself.. Again showing a full  clear swimming pool.. much more healthy on an emotional level. It’s like as if my mind says! Don’t worry girl you got more people behind you then you think!

The decapitation allegedly stands for me not wanting to think on certain elements and everyone who read my anniversary special knows that this is indeed a worry. I have a demon on my shoulder telling me people actually hate me. I want to starve that demon, not think about those doubts! The boxing shows I have an inner conflict. Like I mentioned I have that little demon on my shoulder that tells me you all hate me.. so you are a source of pain.. yet also a source of happiness and stability. Boxing also represents throwing up to much barriers for myself.. like what I did before!  People can like me well enough without always having to respond to me.. by making them react to me.. I place a barrier on my happiness while just sending them a message or getting a like or a smile can be enough. The Card I pick up at the end allegedly shows I want some form of attention .. which is true of course. I would not be blogging otherwise. The fact that I appear at the world of the living  again means I won from Deadpool and victory stands for successfully overcoming attacks  from rivals or obstacles. I can beat that inner demon and I can have that attention! I need to accept myself for it and accept some relationships do not work! Not everyone has to be a bestie as either. Support and positive energy can come in all sort of quantities and from all sort of places. I just need to be willing to accept it. I should not be scared to lose bonds over time.. I should be happy and excited to form new ones.

And on that high note I will end today’s post!  It was much more interesting to analyse this dream as I thought.. such a silly dream had a lot of elements that really seemed applicable to me and I actually feel a lot more sane now!  Even though my dream was weird.. I think in the end it was mostly about very normal desires that have been a bit fritzy lately! I know I talk about this subject a lot but before I started translating I did not know this was going to be what it is about. Have you ever analysed your own dreams?  Let me know! And for everyone reading truly thank you! You are the reason I do not swim in milk anymore! You gave me a peanut and a card. You give me a reason to decapitate people in my dreams..because in such an awesome community I have better things to think about than my woes and worries!


A Million Anime to pick next: How to Choose What to Watch (Part 2)

Welcome Island Guests to the second part of my how to pick your Anime post! Today we will be discussing a few more ways you can pick an anime the advantages and disadvantages of each method!  Perhaps somehow someway we can distill the ultimate technique from this! So we can find “the PERFECT anime”…but it’s me writing this so I seriously doubt it!

<Disclaimer> This is strictly my opinion and does not contain facts , I think by now now I finished about 40ish anime series and dropped/tried  about as much as well. So that isn’t a whole lot. I am not inexperienced but I am also not nearly as dedicated as many here. Any form facts only refer to my opinion.. It is a fact I feel this way.. no one has to share any of these opinions or feel compelled to do so <End of Disclaimer>

Thanks to this method Irina made me watch Kyousougiga , Fred made me watch Bloom Into You and Naja made me watch Samurai Flamenco. A recommendation from a person you trust and believe can be an absolutely empowering way to select an anime you are going to watch next. It has the potential of bringing people together and depending on your range of friends .. or bloggers you follow you could end up with some items very unaware to you!  So how does this method hold up?

Positives

Like with the other two this one  is among the more social ones methods. You can respond to another’s recommendation after all. It offers room for discussion that is actually a fair bit different than the other two.  You can either respond to someone’s blog or they can ask you very insightful questions. These things are often catered towards you so the conversation feels a lot more personal which to me is the way I prefer to talk to people. Generally you know the person whose advice you took to an extend as well so you can extrapolate and really judge pretty well if this anime is something for you. It can give a sense of purpose to watch on.. to talk about it with a friend or familiar.

Discussing something in a group of random people is always more tricky! I really dislike Sword Art Online for example, but I would not make a twitter post saying how much it disappointed me! Reactions can be to extreme even if I do have my motivations and can explain them clearly to people! They won’t listen.. with friends that is a bit less of an issue at least there is a chance they will! At least as long it’s not something they are completely enamored with. Letting a Friend, Senpai or Peer advise you can give you access to series you have never even heard of before. In turn  allowing you to experience stuff you would by your own accord. This is a method I really seem to prefer if things are going well. It is really fun to discover anime like this.. However this one comes with a pretty steep disadvantage as well.

Negatives

While this method can allow for pleasant conversations and deep discussions This one can also polarize you and your friends!  One of my best friends recommended me Code Geass and I watched it.. when I told him I hated it, but I did see why he would like it as I can see it’s a good anime, just not for me,  he got incredibly salty. I disliked anime he liked before and that wasn’t to much of an issue but this one hurt his soul. I will always be honest with my friend and honestly I really disliked a few things in Geass as it just wasn’t for me and I saw a few flaws such as some events feeling very forced. I don’t think it’s a a bad show which I told either but the atmosphere was soured for a bit. When a stranger tells me I should die because I do not like code Geass it stings, when a friend says ‘I thought you had better taste than that’ it actually really hurts. While the hate ratio is a lot smaller.. if things go bad.. they go a lot worse than among strangers.

A show I genuinely could not stand was Goblin Slayer, a friend of mine adored it. During a anime with friends night we hosted .. In this format we do a draw a lucky person who picks an anime. We watch 3 episodes and move to the next person. Who picks another anime, or can continue to watch on. My friend made us watch trough Goblin Slayer as he got selected first so I played nice and watched it with a polite smile. Then I was picked for the next selection but he interrupted me. ‘Let’s just watch all of Goblin Slayer, if you guys watch anything else now I think i’ll just go home and watch it myself’. At least two other people did not like the show (which meant 50% of us and one felt neutral) but no one dared to speak up so everyone agreed. To scared that disagreeing would anger him. I said I’d prefer to watch something else and just got “well it’s not like we would watch anything better than this is better!’ I agreed as long as next time we would let someone else pick. He said that’s fine and he will just stay home that time.

I stayed for one more episode, but I already was boiling inside! I hated the show and I hated how he acted. To vent I decided to play on my phone a bit (to calm a bit) and he sneered at me for it! Basically calling me an idiot for looking away. I told him I hated the show and that I already said that before and that I don’t mind being her for the company but the show is just not for me and that I would like to stay to see if we might watch another show later and for the company. He then declared we had to watch in absolute silence and I left.. he did not speak to me for days for disliking a show he loved. Whenever a reviewer I trust loves a show I don’t like at all I do notice some distance increasing. It’s not that much of an issue in the long run but disagreeing with people you have close to your heart never is all that fun. It can at times even discourage me from watching something they absolutely love that doesn’t sound like it’s completely me!

Advise

I can honestly say that this is a great method to approach anime but be a bit weary. People tend to see things very black and white in this day and age and if your friend is like that sometimes it’s just best to keep smiling. It’s not like it’s as toxic as the internet.. but a bad reaction can last longer than a few negative comments. Know your friends and know yourself. If your friend something you know you really know you’ll dislike.. stay away from it. There is nothing you can gain by destroying his favorite when you talk about it. There is nothing you gain by lying how much you love it either! They wil notice because they want to talk about it more! Forcing yourself to sit trough something you hate just to please a friend will not result in a fun time for anyone.

Always keep yourself in mind, friends and close ones react better to you genuinely liking something than you faking, Kirito’s duel wielding skill being kind of interesting! Conversations will always expand and you will be caught in the act of faking! Being overly blunt will also get you no where though! So while this method has the biggest gain.. it could come at risk being an obstacle between you and your friends. Know what type of anime your friend watches, know why they recommended it to you ( ‘Pinkie I think you will really like this anime’ usually is safer than “you guys everyone check it out I just watched and binged the Frick out of it”)

A lot of you seem to really be into Manga and while I am not that much into the reading habit, myself that is mostly to blame on availability and me not being very comfortable with the digital form of the media. My phone screen is to tiny and I like to read in a relaxed position and I can’t do that with my laptop all that much! So this is the form of anime picking I am least familiar with. Still it is worth taking a look at. Let’s investigate!

Positives

The most obvious positive from doing an anime pick this way is that you are familiar with the source material. Most of the time anime adaptations are fairly faithful though abridged renditions so if you like the story beats in a manga, you’ll probably like them in animated form as well. This form of anime watching also offers you a unique viewing experience compared to the others. You see your already beloved work come to life. Take Bofuri for instance for me. I would not have imagined Maple’s demon voice to be so funny! I did not read source material as I do not dabble in Manga myself but I sure as heck would not have imagined this so funny! Jojo’s  Bizarre Adventures is something I have read and when I saw it come to live it blew away my mind. The music, the style, the whole shabang.. this is one anime I think really is better than it’s Manga counterpart. 

Still such a viewing experience is totally different from what you get when watching something in season whose source material you do not know!  It can be very empowering and nostalgic, or it can be quaint a funny! The comedy and horror genre work a lot better in animated form in my opinion because they now have actual timing.  When you read the manga first you often get some interesting insights in characters as well. A experience that the non-manga anime watcher misses. These characters you already know! It’s like a reunion with friends rather than meeting some for the first time. So your experience can be amplified when it spans across media! Like seeing the Seven Page Muda come to live or see the Super Saiyan transformation animated for the first time after just reading it.

Negatives

Kicking in open doors again! The book is always better. When something is written down it usually always gets the motivations of characters more fleshed out, it’s usually more consistent  and also easier to make a call back. A Manga also moves at your own pace rather than the shows pace so you are the one in the driver seat. All in all  I do think it’s fair to say that “the book is better” is a way more popular opinion than “the anime was better than the book”.  So there is an increased risk of being let down if it’s already something you absolutely love. Air Gear would be a good example that comes to mind and a friend never shuts up about how D-Grey-Man the  anime was so lackluster compared to the Manga. I personally disagree I did not find the anime lackluster at all but that might have to do the next negative.

The Pricetag! If you want a book in your hand like me , reading manga first can be an extremely pricey hobby!  Meanwhile Crunchyroll, Netflix and other services on the internet are relatively a lot cheaper. At least here! I do not know how prices are in the rest of the world but paying 13 euros for a single book of manga for a show that is in its entirety on Netflix for the same price a month…plus access to all the other shows is off. I know it supports the creator more.. but I’ll be honest I can barely afford my own food and clothes..When money is an issue..Manga is not always an option. I know there are ways to get it digitally, but I just don’t have a pleasant experience with that without an E-Reader. My phone is too tiny..and I feel uneasy not having that available to make notes for my blog or not able to tell my manga loving friend about the amazing thing I am reading. I don’t like reading on comics on my laptop all that much either.

The final negative is the simple fact that you’ve already seen it. It isn’t very surprising. Don’t get me wrong this can be a good thing for some people but something that never surprises me .. essentially it’s a remake and I tend to like those but I am never overwhelmed by love for them as I miss that raw emotional experience new products can give me.  While your standard Shounen can be rewatched without to much drama, stuff like Danganronpa (Okay thats a game and an anime but same fault applies) where you find out “who did it” can really have a lessend impact on you.

Advise

If you have money to burn, this method is super healthy for the community!  It keeps mangakas strong and series ongoing!(If you read/buy ongoing releases) It also will give you a very consistent pay off, if you get that stick out of your ass and don’t look at what an anime skips/misses from the manga but rather how it brings that same story to the table in a new way.

You need to be the type that thinks like ‘Cool they made an anime about Attack on Titan.. that means more Attack on Titan’ rather than be the type that goes ‘Okay let’s see if this anime does my beloved manga justice’  If you can look without having a list of checkboxes I’d say this is a unique anime experience that no other method can offer, but honestly.. I’d rather buy manga of an anime I love than the other way around.

Anime series in its own can be rather random, so randomly selecting the randomness seems like quite a fitting way to go about things. Of course it’s chaos of the utmost level. It’s the equivalent of that Harry Potter Jelly Bean stuff.  Every flavour beans! Anime is so fast and wide that you can experience Foie Gras while you never heard of it (it’s delicious even it’s a no-no) but you also can go “Alas.. Ear Wax”  It sounds incredibly fun!  Let’s investigate!

Positives

People tend to really stick inside a comfort zone, this applies to both the ones viewing the anime as the ones recommending it. People usually are very careful about what they pick! It’s always .. “something similar too” or something with a high MAL score (which can be a whole selection method of its own but I am including it here if you can read between the lines)   In my experience.. everything that gets a super high MAL score is great.. yet at the same time is also catered to everybody. Which in my opinion means it will not resonate as strongly with me as an anime that cater to a sentiment I love. Take Dragon Quest : Your Story for example. So many people hate the ending but I love it so much!  Not per se designwise.. but the sentiment. That feeling that something is made for you!

In general you do not get that from  the high scoring anime. You do not get that from what a friend recommends (unless they really really know you!) That can only happen by you searching the internet yourself and even that is biassed towards your self proclaimed like pattern.  You might overlook something great. While Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann is quite well known I discovered it by accident. A friend asked for fun for a Kamina hugging pillow, she did not recommend the show to me as she felt it might be to weird for me as a rookie! I only saw a picture of the guy and by searching I stumbled on the show not knowing what it was. I watched it to make sure I had the right person in mind for who Kamina was ! Within two days I saw the entire show! That to me is the magic of anime and that to me is an experience I almost uniquely get from watching something randomly.  I knew Magical Index was fairly good, so even though I recognize it I never get that blowing back expectations sensation. It’s fine about what I expected

Selecting Random Anime is also a great way to pick anime to watch with your friends.. because I tried about seven times before by vote and the discussions that arrive with all putting in picks we hardly make progress. They either hard refuse to watch anything but their own pick.. or are just in a different mood from you and might not feel like Isekai..while you don’t want a standard Shounen etc. This way it’s always a completely neutral unbiased pick and that can give you some sense of rest, no conflict , just blisfull chaos The best thing! There is a website to do this with the click of a button and you can even specify if you want a dub , a sub or pick a genre if you still want some inkling of control!  You can select a random anime right here.

Negatives

Where all other forms I posted have some form of control this one does not. It can recommend a very good show.. but it can also make you watch one of the worst anime ever rated on MAL. There is no way to tell.. well it actually tells you the MAL score.. but if you play it in honesty and abide by the rules of randomness this one has by far the biggest chance to waste your time. Now I am a loon that really commits herself to these things in order to discover. When I am on vacation in a foreign country and I do not know a certain dish in a restaurant that is the one I am getting. This left me with a few painful experiences and random anime will not be any different.. I am very lucky in this usually though.. most bad stuff came from random cooking at home. Regardless if anything is going to waste your time.. this method is it!

It is also  is probably the least social anime pick ever. Where your own pick can at least allow for some discussion by picking a vaguely familiar sounding name, no one will really discuss Record of Lodoss or Ground Control to Psychoelectric Girl with you. It might make interesting blog topics.. but I am not sure how well random anime reviews would work. You could try and risk wasting even more time but who knows it might be the next hot new trend.  Obviously I am going to try reviewing completely random anime I even already rolled for what I have to watch before next week’s post! I have no idea what it will be about! I just wrote down the name! What it is I will keep secret! To avoid spoilers.. even though by the time this post has gone life I probably already have seen it. So I do need to get back how heavy this negative will turn out to be! Just a suspicion for now!

Advise

So guess what, I hyped myself up for completely random anime selection! This seems something really fun I want to try now.. but that’s because of the person who I am. I wonder why I haven’t done this before! Well for one I did not know about the website but still! Basically if you rolled your eyes when reading this section title, this isn’t for you. If you went oooooh  and did an eyebrow lift in intrigue this one’s for you. If your face did not move I challenge you  use the website and pick a random anime!  Write us about your random experience! I know I will! A post I will try to knock out for next week! I will watch the first five episodes of a random anime and will tell you if I will pick it up and watch more! Yay! I am so happy I am doing this.. so while I I can think of a few more methods to pick your anime, I will get to those somewhere along the road! Until then I am going to be random!

The Totally Awesome Tomodachi Award

My dear island guests it’s been a while since I created my first tag, The Super Happy Love Award! That tag was all about positivity a value I really hold in high esteem! Yet there is another value I pursue here on WordPress.. one that we often share but one that isn’t as much shown through posts. Normally we talk about ourselves.. so this tag will focus around talking about our Community. With a very special game!

A friendship game by yours truely!

-Put the Totally Awesome Tomodachi  Award logo somewhere in your post!
-Thank the person who nominated you or thank the person who won you a nomination!
-Nominate up to four bloggers but DO NOT mention them by name.
-Write about your four nominees, using subjective terms only.. as if you were a friend describing them to another friend (examples follow) DO NOT use factual hard descriptors. End the paragraph with They are my Tomodachi and put a link to one of their articles on that sentence.
-Make assumptions about them, talk about your interaction or memories with them. Just create a fun little text that keeps your readers guessing who this is.Also talk about what they mean to you
-Your followers can play a game if they can recognize the Blogger you are talking about, if they make a guess correctly..they can join the tag as well if they so choose. (Thank the person whose description you guessed) -Readers are encouraged to comment their scores in the comments

And that is all for the rules now let me give you a couple of examples to explain this a bit better.

Since Scott from Mechanical Anime Reviews doesn’t do tagposts I will use him as a neutral example. Most of you know him, otherwise links are still provided!

Wrong Example

This blogger goes by the name of Scott he is a 28 year old man who lives in Wisconsin on top of a decrepit casino. He is the Owner of a Blog that mostly talks about mecha shows but also does a lot of Anitwit watches stuff. He is a member of Owls and his Avatar is either a gundam or a black haired boy. Recently he did a collab with Ashley Capes on Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann.

Wrong way to do this tag!  It would take the fun out of this game! That is also not how you would talk about a friend! Or a beloved member of your community.

Right Example

I suspect this blogger really likes the colour yellow, but white, and blue would be two other really good options for this blogger to favorite. I think their favorite letter is a V.. particularly if it’s displayed on a head. I bet they would name their daughter Venus, Jupiter or Mercury as they really seem to think that Ancient Rome was the place to be during some blog tour.. wait it wasn’t ancient Rome.. where else could they have gotten the name from?! I find this blogger among the more serious  bloggers, I bet if you stare in their eyes for a while you would think they are very wise. Whispers in the community go that this person has so much charisma that they make everyone love them deeply and if I would assign this person a role in the community they would be part of it’s beating heart indeed. Clever and very active I suspect this blogger will outlast the most of us on this amazing platform.

They are My Tomodachi!

Make your readers curious about your amazing friend! Give them a chance to recognise some awewsome members in the community! I hope you understand the point of my game now and hope you and your readers will have fun with it and I shall kick off now with my four nominations! NB your CAN nominate less and if you are not nominated you can BE by making a correct guess.

I promised this blogger to create a new tag for them when things seemed a bit dark. Though I am late on fulfilling this promise by a few days due to scheduling, here I am. I highly suspect we share a love for a particular pastel colour. Though the shade they prefer is much less bubblegum like than mine. I bet their mind is wonderfully twisted as we share a love for one of the lesser favored game genres. Though I have never written about a game in the genre this blogger is very active within it. I suspect they are a dog person over a cat person and they are at least somewhat versed into Star Wars so I really can get behind them. I’d say they are the homiest blogger that I follow adhering to more classical values than most of us here. I’d almost consider the word “normal” for them would it not been for that I now know what they do when gaming after dark. 

I do not think this blogger frequents my blog all that much and in honest i must say I haven’t been to theirs in about a month now.. at the time of writing.. at the time of posting I suspect I’ve been back once or twice. If I’d give them a dream job i’d call out interior decorating.. though that is not their real job! Their real job is one of those things i never really get!  I mean I know what it is but it’s way to complicated for me. I might be wrong but I suspect they have a stepping stool! Not for a job but in real life.. they seem tiny to me.. but it might be perspective. The stepping stool has many uses like reaching higher places, but it could also just look cute.. or they could use it for a workout. I’d say they are very open about what is going on in their life and as result I feel like I know them pretty well. I hope they are doing well and that they will participate in this tag.. with how often they get tagged we might only see this next year!

This blogger taught me a lot about self-love, not in the dirty way either. They are always so kind and responsive to my answers though. One of the first people that let me feel welcome in the community. I feel like they are a person who smiles a lot to the outside world.. but deep inside there are some rough seas. They do want to be there for other people though! Their kind words have made me pull trough many blogging rough patches! One of my biggest examples.

They are my Tomodachi!

This one I had to rewrite, since my first write up was for someone who currently is not active in the blogosphere. Once you are back I will do this post with the people I had to skip! So many of you matter to me. So if you notice this one is a bit different.. that’s why!That doesn’t make this person any less of a pick! Just because they exist I already planned a second post, with them as the frontliner! So I just had to swap them around! 

This blogger has been around for a long time though I am not necessarily talking about them as a presence on WordPress here. If I ever went on an Indian vision quest, I think I’d see them as the wise man. Or woman.. .or Non Binary.. but we know the stereotype. I’d imagine I’d have to trek to the desert and the mountains to meet them..but recently I have begun to imagine them floating around in space as well. Luckily I am dutch.. so with some Space-Cake I’ll easily be able to get there! This blogger is one of the most sincere people out there. They will tell you what they feel and do not  try to make the world any prettier than it is. You can tell that they have lived when they present the naked facts of a situation to you. I really like that sense of honesty. I am not saying none of you are honest here! I am just saying this bloggers work have a rawness to them! A natural beauty that I have come to very much appreciate.

This is a blogger with many inner demons, one big one in particular that many people here face in varying degrees of power. Because of this demon this blogger can have the tendency to underestimate themselves. Plenty of you underestimate this blogger as well because their post don’t get enough likes for how insightful they are. So visit their posts and let yourselves be known! Share some love!  Let this blogger inspire you to be yourself without reservation because that is what they set out to do! Either  on WordPress, the stage and out there in real life! Everywhere we see this blogger in their purest form. Very natural! That is beautiful and something I strive for as well. Though where I try to be the purest form of myself by turning myself into an anime character and break through realities limitations to be who I want to be this blogger basicly strips down to the core of their soul . Out in the open for anyone to see. A bit of a .. two sides of a coin story, that gives me an odd sense of synergy! If you don’t believe me, you can go take a hike!

This blogger has helped my troubled mind with that attitude so much! Problems aren’t waved away but validated! Instead  of hugs and kisses we get concrete advise. “Try to look past that”,  “move away from the place you live in even if it’s hard”  “Don’t be afraid for what people say, be afraid of not being able to be yourself’ This is really the type of friend I love to have. Thanks to the wordful magic of WordPress , their blog and their comments on mine now I do! One with a big brain and an even bigger heart!

They are my Tomodachi

This one I confidently call a friend, so that alone definitely earns them a spot on this list. I always wanted to be friends with a magical girl and I guess this is the closest I am ever going to get. While I am a dog person and they definitely would be a cat person I feel like we still have a nice form of chemistry. Me being a bit more kiddy and naive as real me being extra excited about stuff and them walking behind me with a big grin! Handing me a proverbial butterscotch candy! A real one if they could!  Being one of the lesser active bloggers among those I associate with,though rather active recently, they are something I find myself quite endeared too. Least active might not be the correct term but they do write a bit less than me to say the least. Most certainly a cat person, though they like horses too.They are very active in the comments of everyone and their insight and wisdom sometimes makes me think they know what actual dinosaurs looked like… you know… because…

Of course that implication is only a joke as I already consider myself a fossil Pokemon. Of all the persons I follow I bet their house is the most likely to hold some crayons or maybe acrylic paints. Though I’d also imagine them hardly using it. I also kinda assume this person has loads of candles in their home. Multi coloured ones as well. They also seem like a bath person.. with scented oils and stuff. I bet they enjoy a good full moon too! Out of all you WordPresses following me I feel like this person is the most likely to play Board-Games with me, though I also feel they would easily lose to me because they would play to nice. One of the kindest and soft spoken WordPress peeps out there I suspect their voice would almost be enchanting. I am blessed to call them my friend.

This one really made me feel a sense of togetherness when I was at a low of it. So many of you have seen so much more anime than I, are so much more versed in gaming and I felt there were “camps”  as it were.. welcoming to those from other camps as it may be.. each group had a core group and I was painfully aware I just glomped on. This blogger made me feel special. Now I know that is a vanity thing and we all have our favorites but it just felt so great that with this one I feel like I reached their inner core! Like if they’d go camping with 10 other WordPresser’s I feel like they are the one that would mention me!

They are my Tomodachi

So for my last nomination I considered three people. One of them still has a few tags of me to do so they are out, for this round, the other might be a bit to obvious and the third option might be a bit too uncertain to bite down in this post for now. So i guess… the obvious one it is…with a twist! The shy one will be nominated too! I will talk about the two options in conjunction and tag them both!  Extra guesses for you all to play the game! More friends for me!

The obvious one.. I think is very easy.. I guess half of you all already have the named guessed correctly. Yet let me try to muddle the pond just a bit. I suspect that The Obvious choice doesn’t speak as much English as you all would suspect. I suspect their native languages or most spoken languages can really point out a flaw in one of the most famous Dexter’s Lab Episodes.. that dealt with said language. I might be wrong though! I do not know a lot aboot their country. Shy choice however now that is an born English speaker. I do not know why but I think Shy choice prefers dubs. Obvious Choice prefers subs I would think.  While Obvious to us is a very in your face personality and Shy is …well uhm… shy?! (Great writing skills Pinkie)  I think if we met them at a convention their persona’s would be flipped. I am pretty sure Shy Cosplays and Obvious would rather hide in the ceiling or toilets until it’s all over.

So I broke my own nomination rule in the very first post.. what a good example I am. They whose nomination makes the most sense would absolutely do the same. Rules are meant to forgotten or rambled over. Shy would probably break the rule as well .. but be very apologetic about it.  Decoration wise I think Shy has a much cuter bed filled with plushies.  Obvious seems more like a neat pillow person. Maybe with some inspirational texts like “You can do it” or “I sold ice to Eskimos and all I got was this adorable pillow” Shy choice I feel walks in heels more then her fellow nominee, obvious I feel wears more practical and a bit more butch shoes. What’s that.. a boot?  Might be a question they get asked frequently.. somehow maybe even without wearing boots?! What’s that about?! Obvious has seen more anime , but Shy has seen more cartoons. One of them I have seen a picture off! Both of them are super positive and happy people that I would love to be friends with in real life. I’d nickname them Kuro and Shirou.. though in one case that name has gone somewhat outdated. 

The most humble of the two gave me my first comment ever. They are the spark of hope I needed that I could indeed find a community here! They are the example of possibility. I had a few blogs before that never got any followers and if they did they were silent.. I abandoned these projects after about two to four weeks each.  Now I am almost a year in and still going strong!  All because of this brave littler blogger who let me know they loved Umbreon!

The more outgoing, well known and obvious choice has taught me not to throw my voice. I wanted to write to appeal to many people.. play the numbers game. Yet their quirky style and how they are well thought of in the community made me  realise I do not need to do that. Because of this person I have actual fun in blogging!  I can be weird and I love being weird with them!

Obviously, They are my Tomodachi!

Even though they are shy,They are my Tomodachi!

Now I hope you had fun in guessing who these bloggers are and hopefuly you guessed some correct so we can be a big happy family! Remember if you guessed one correctly.. you are a Totally Awesome Tomodachi of one of us .. so you can play as well! Holy Mailman if you guessed one correctly that means you’ll have to set up a blog 😉 Also Scott I know you don’t do tag posts but should you feel inclined.. everyone loves you so you are a Totally Awesome Tomodachi as well so consider yourself nominated as well. My muse, this tag is waiting for you in the future as well, if you do your homework 😉

To all the others! A second round is coming somewhere in the next month or so! My selections are already made! Yet it’s not written yet! Feel free to convince me you are a Totally Awesome Tomodachi as well .. and I do not mean that in a lewd or e-begging way!

Pinkie in Love? The legitimacy of online bonds!

Hey Island Guests, I am sorry for closing the island down for nearly an entire week but I was in rough shape. As you might know I try to make love and positivity an important element of this blog and I felt I could not bring that to the table. A talk shook my believes and destroyed something beautiful I sorta had..without having it… Now I wonder.. can strictly online based feelings.. of either love or friendship ever be real?

Only Real is Real!

A Covid-instigated-depression came and completely wiped me for a bit. Luckily I could chill with Animal Crossing while I dealt with my issues..but I got this seasonal switch energy drain alongside it.. so the past few days have been a bit hazy and sad. I am a weak person, healthwise so I am kind of scared for this virus.. which got me into conflict with one of my best friends. He wants me to use public transport, go with him to fun places where there are people… and basically do anything the doctor advises against. Me being a frail little person with a weak heart and damaged lungs… prefers to listen to the doctors. I told him we could hang out online and voice chat and such… and he told me that online bonds are never real you have to see someone face to face…. somehow that got stuck in my head…. and completely floored me… what in my life is real.

He then blamed me for thinking that I could sustain a friendship online. He did not want some “bug” to water down our friendship. I would happily travel to him to have dinners with him if he would not break all the Corona rules himself.. he keeps travel to friends all over the place, hugging them, being super close to everyone. It’s not like I blame him either, he is young and healthy and will not have a lot of trouble so I don’t disapprove of it.. just because he does it I can’t hang out with him or risk the 1 hour by public transport trip for two hours of company. I rather phone, chat or whatsapp… but he told me it all isn’t real. Plenty of people think like this and it kinda messed me up. Am I wasting my time looking for online friends? I wasn’t sure for a bit. I was still pretty sure that I made some valid friends…. then a series of unfortunate events put some cinder blocks on my feet and threw me into the deep end of the pool.

Ce-Web-rity Crushes

I am not a very passionate person, I love people to bits but always in a very platonic way. I haven’t had a major crush since 2016. Yet the past few months I suddenly felt happier than I ever did. My new online lifestyle suited me and I felt I connected to people. On youtube (as a viewer) on Twitter and even more “locally”..on my main hangout here! The were 3 separated people I had “feelings”for.  Now I would not say I was completely smitten with any of these three (alleged) women but I just felt happy to interact. I would say they would more qualify as people I really wanted to be friends with and would not mind being more than friends with. The latter in a really weak sense of the word though. Youtube , Twitter and WordPress personalities don’t always have to align with how someone is so .. it felt like picking a Waifu that is a fictional character inside an anime.. Like two levels of fiction… Still it was a nice and innocent fantasy to have. It made me happy that I felt this again.

The youtube personality hit me hardest, you see an actual person. However what made me want to be her friend was the way she edits her videos. The first videos I watched of her where so perfect… like I would edit them in the exact same way and if I wondered why she missed a reference it would pop up a second later. She is a (inactive) Lolita youtuber that visited Japan and vlogged her adventures. Not too pretty (being too pretty  is like a turn off to me.. if you look like a hollywood actor I am NOT gonna be attracted to you) but cute as a button, a mind similar like mine and she introduced me to some fascinating things I all really enjoy. Our mindsets are super compatible. I followed her and interacted with her on Twitter, again showing that we are mentally on the same page.

She’s straight so I knew it was never going to be more than friendship. She was going to play Animal Crossing and I hoped that one day we could play together…arrogant as I can be. Her channel doesn’t have that many followers (somewhere between 500 and 700 I think) so I thought there might be a chance. She explained she would only play with mutuals and actual friends though… which is fine and completely understandable. However this happened on the same day as the prior incident… so suddenly this happy bubble of “what if” popped for me.  Again I completely understand her.. but the phrasing and timing felt like a gut punch.. reality can be a female dog.

Social Media Deception

Through this you tuber I got to know one of her friends on Twitter. Playing Dungeon and Dragons, quite pink, loving many tv shows I did. Again we talked a bit , though nothing to special, but hey interaction is interaction and it made me happy again. I learned stuff about them , got to show some support and we played a few of those “social media games” I normally tend to avoid..because hers looked like fun to me.  Now that doesn’t mean I hate the other games.. but I don’t listen to music on my phone and most of the pictures I get on there are either of people’s pets or stuff I use for my blog.. so those “share the last” thingies I just don’t do. Tell about yourself in 3 vampires.. feels a lot more personal and interesting and doesn’t require me to break trust of other people or listen to music to fill a list.
Getting of topic here.. she was just someone I loved to interact with. Her low follower count, made me feel like .. I mattered.. in a way. Which is a bit of a deception.

Just because someone on YouTube or Twitter or WordPress doesn’t have a lot of followers doesn’t mean that they see you as an actual friend. Friendship is a subjective term and it’s important to keep this in mind. Just because Twitter says you follow someone and they acknowledge you doesn’t make them your friend yet. I am well aware of this and do not consider this person as a friend yet..but I felt there was friendship potential. However .. (I told you before I get really unlucky)  around the same time I went through my crisis this person went to hers. It basically invalidated what happened before. A reset button of sorts was pressed. Other than me a few real friends reacted to messages and from the way you talk, you can tell I am just a follower. Both ways.. which i fine and again I do not really expect to get anything more out of it…yet it’s like you get new shoes. You proudly show them off to your friend and than all the other girls at the party take out their phones and show off complete new outfits. No matter how happy you are with your new shoes it pales in comparison. Social Media has all sorts of weird rules.. which aren’t true. People only care about you if they are mutuals is not true, because both the above appreciate my words they just choose to keep their Twitter feats as clean as possible. There are people that matter more to them or things they rather keep of their pages. In their own way they do appreciate and evaluate me… but just like those shoes.. due to having access to other dialogue it can all seem pale and empty.

WordPress Friends

Does that mean however that online friendship can’t be real?  Because we always look at things from different angles? I do not think so. I have a few online friends who I actually think of a friends. I have a few people in my online D&D game that I think the world off, even though I haven’t seen any of them in person yet. There are some bonds that I made through role playing in video games that will last and I really hope to achieve that on WordPress as well.  You know the “ lets talk in DM’s on Twitter” or add “me on discord” kind of friends. I am not there yet, though I do think I am beginning to know a few of you very well. I think I might have spotted some unspoken things about a few of you. I may be wrong..but I see patterns, I see when people act different than they usually do and that makes me feel that we are actually forming actual bonds. Some people begin to trust me and open up to me, others just ramble against me like it’s perfectly normal.. like in a way you would talk to a friend.  So WordPress really does make me happy.

Yet because of the words of that friend, I began to worry. I began noticing the “dark things”. I see cliques forming. “Islands” as it were of a cluster of bloggers. For example there is the OWLS bloggers, but the clique is very centered at the original members. Than there is the Jon Spencer Gang, a lovely bunch but something I could not really connect to as our angles are to different. I feel to shallow or bubbly to fit in there. I feel like a sweet lolita with a pink sparkly pen.. writing among monk robed scholars writing with goose feather pens and east Indian ink there. The underachiever in the room. I felt really bad and could not mesh with the tone so I left his chat silently. There is also the Island of Lita, which tone wise I connect closer too but experience wise I am way behind. Anime is one of the things I care about but It’s one of the things I do spend less time with, simply because I don’t have a great set up to watch it as comfily as I can.. watch a movie on tv. I feel too inexperienced to follow their conversations most of the time. I also followed Hikari’s channel but it was heavily focused on Manga and I am just not that much into manga. Way less than I am into anime. Anime and Manga are a bit of a hassle for me to obtain and for the first one I do think the effort is worth it for the second not so much. I feel like I am adrift between islands. I am there and I am recognized.. but I am not sure if I belong.

Pink Floaties

It’s not like I am drowning in the open sea because I got a few bloggers that keep me adrift like pink floaties of happiness, giving me the idea that at least somewhere there is a land where I can make new friends.  The thought kept me going and keeps me trying new things. Like SMILE-Force was a thing. (And still is going to be ) I got two sign ups ..though one still has to write me about it, and maybe that can be a springboard towards that sense of community. I love the support of some of the people here and the wisdom of some people here and again that keeps me strong enough not to throw in the towel. Yet I do realise that what I wish to achieve with this blog is a community.. people to talk with, to banter and just have fun. Writing does help me deal with stuff as well to clear my head as it were, yet I still feel like I am not good enough at it. This is for example why I never participate in the Jon Spencer Creator Showcase things anymore. I write because I have fun doing it.. not because I am proud of it. Let’s be honest if you actively follow me, you do so because my tone suits you or you like to read something that’s a bit different. I do not produce high quality journalist grade content..so if you are not following me already , I do not think Jon Spencer’s Showcase will convince you to do so.

Which brings me back to the whole adrift in the sea thing! Followers that stick to me, come from places like Irina’s I Drink and Watch Anime  and sometimes from Megan’s A Geeky Gal. Along with some lesser active places. Now when I say followers, I don’t mean people who see a tag post and click follow this blog and not do anything about it ever again.  I mean people who read and comment, people like Foovay, Iridium Eye (I would use your first names but I opted against it as people most likely will now know who I mean) Fred, Mallow and the likes. Of course if you actively read my blog ..and I have a fair bit of insight in who does and who doesn’t I’d count you amongst those people as well. .I just am not willing to guesstimate this by naming names.  However I do notice that some of my articles get less views than they do likes. So I have a fair bit of courtesy followers as well. While a courtesy follow does add some air to my pink little floaties, it doesn’t bring me any closer to finding my island.

All in all I think there is some semblance of community there. Some people I would almost count as friends and for the most of you I would still love to get to know you better! I do think online bonds are real but like actual friendships it needs to be mutual! So I played with open cards here! Now that I am way to many words in I realise I never even talked about how my WordPress Crush crumbled. Well that one kind of faded away due my new realizations. I am pretty sure they are taken anyway. I realised that I don’t need a crush right now.. I have a goal to find my island and find the place where I belong. That means I can not be distracted by singular people! I should be the me who I was… the one that says…. Remember I love you all, keep smiling and stay positive! Thank you for being my pink floaties!

Pokémon Sword and Shield: Hopes and Dreams

With just a week before the new game comes out, the entire pokédex leaked. Yet I refuse to know everything. So while I might wish for something that is announced or disproven I would like to ask you all to NOT tell me anything about the pokémon from the guidebook leak. I am really looking forward to this game and here is why!

The New Pokémon

There is nothing more magical than seeing an evolution happen that you have never seen before. That moment when your bug begins to shine white and you are like ‘Ooh goody goody, I wonder what it is going to be’ This is what made Pokémon Gold my favorite game in the series. The first game lacked that magic a bit because we all saw the anime before. Finding out about crobat in GEN II was something truly amazing. I took on a zubat because I figured it was part of the new dark typing, which it really wasn’t just a mistake I made as a kid.  Snubbull to Granbull felt odd underwhelming I remember still, but that I am not talking about the actual reveal but the moments just before . The moment a new silhouette or pokémon popped up.. or that moment that Snubbull began to evolve, those are magic! Your breath stops for just a moment, filling you with childlike excitement and as a pokémon fan, I can only compare it too walking down on christmas day and seeing those presents under the trees. Even if you know half of those presents are going to be socks to create some filling under the tree your heart jumps in excitement. Maybe that big package is gonna be for you… maybe it will go to your little sister again, it’s to exciting. A new pokémon game brings me back to that exact moment.. but I can have it like 60 times or so?! That’s a whole lot of christmas. Using new pokémon and seeing what makes them tick is also great. What sort of moves will Galarian Ponyta learn, how can I make use of Galarian Weezing his  ability and how can I make Allcremie work on my team. It’s like an exciting puzzle where I don’t know the answer yet and it makes me all giddy. I also feel so happy that I decided to not spoil myself anymore for my blogs sake.. it just makes me super excited to see it all. 

The Story

I usually like the stories in the pokémon games, sure Red and Blue’s story wasn’t that special and even Gold and Silver did not had any epic storytelling, but with each new generation the stories become more complex, the villains become more fleshed out and the wonderful world of pokémon becomes more alive. While we got introduced to some characters and their impact on the story very little is known about what will happen.
Will chairman Rose really be evil like we all suspect? Will Eternatus, from the leaks really be a thing? There has been speculation about the blood, about Dynamaxing being evil. I really hope the story would not go in this direction as it would hinder my pleasure of using Dynamax in the end game. It seems REALLY unlikely  they would lock a new feature under the mention of it being evil, but it could make for an interesting plot. What I hope to see however is a nice twist. Chairman Rose being the big bad seems to easy. We all knew Aether was going to end up being ‘the actual’ bad guys long before we played it, I would like us all to be surprised this time. I do however like the concept of Eternatus, being an evil that comes from below, with the mining and factory themes of britain this could make for a very interesting antagonist monster. I would also like if we can see some homage to british folklore. Maybe a druidic place of power where a legendary dwells or even a lake that holds an unknown monster.  That would be definitely something I would love to sink my teeth into.
I strongly wish that Marnie isn’t going to be the big bad of generation, I really like her and would rather see her as an ally than someone whose life I have to ruin. Earlier leaks seem to suggest that she will be somewhat of a pragmatic heroine that will do her thing to fight the coming darkness, i’d happily take that and see her as a strong female  ally, by Arceus we need one. After the optional females, we didn’t ever really get a strong female. Of course Lilly grew up into one.. but she still started out as a damsel. So please make Marnie good!

End Game

Pokémon end-game content has always been either a complete hit or a complete miss. Rumors said we could go to Kalos in the end-game of Sword and Shield and while I would LOVE that to be true that seems like something that would be DLC in this day and age. In fact with Ash’s new anime series , I think we might get access to others regions as well. Of course not a full on region, but maybe a Wild Zone per region. Where we can do new Max-Raids and others stuff. I certainly would not mind getting DLC to a pokémon game. The more I can play the better. I do hope they really step it up from the Battle Tree, of Sun and Moon.. however Rainbow Rocket from Ultra Sun and Moon was great endgame content. So statistically  this might very well become a miss. I fear that we just get access to more raids endgame and can improve our camp and what not. What I would like to see is something like Omega Ruby and Alpha Sapphire Delta episode where we face one more threat to the world in a small narrative arc. If this can be in Kalos i’d be a happy camper but I am also quite content if would take place on the island of Galar. Using Dynamax in Kalos could be troubling, as their gyms aren’t  really calculated for these types of things so yeah I just don’t see us going there right now. Most of all though I hope to see some improvement of the stadium style battles. The Battle Tree, Battle Mansion , Battle Tower etc have always been plagued by the playing being forced to win rows and rows and rows of battles back to back. I would like  this series to be broken up into smaller challenges,Bronze one, pits you against four trainers and a gym leader, bronze two pits you against four stronger trainers and one of your rivals, bronze three .. would further increase the trainers and pit you against an elite four member and bronze final would let you face the cup holder. 
While this is very similar to the system we already have I want the requirement to win 30 times in a row to be broken. After we did bronze 1 for singles we can either move to bronze 2 for singles or try bronze 1  of any other battle format. That way I might actually finish it.

Online

I hope people can leave the entire Dexit Tauros-poop  behind them and create a healthy community for the game, just because we do not like an element doesn’t mean we can boycott the entire game. Training up your pokémon for competitive standards seems to be easier than ever, no more hours of breeding, everyone can play. I would hope that the old scene is welcoming to the new players and helps us training and grow.  Yet.. it’s the internet. While I have played semi competitively on websites like Pokemon Showdown, the hassle to make them battle ready kept me from playing compo’s on handheld, but this time I will be ready. This time I can switch natures with mints, this time I can EV train more easily. This time I will be ready. So I really hope people who used to love this franchise can get their self entitled heads out of their posterior and just play the game.  From what I have seen a lot of love went into this one, a lot of care in making sure everyone can join to play together and against their friends and I do hope we can keep the Max-Raid battles clean. I do not want people to be salty because I run a gimmicky set, I don’t people to nag on making the run as clean and fast as possible so they can grind out more. Agatha of the Kanto elite four once said that a real pokémon trainer doesn’t show his strength by bringing the most powerful pokemon along, a true pokémon trainer shows they can win with their favorites.  I hope that people follow this lesson and allow other people to use their favorites as well, even if not optimal. So my strongest wish for this game is not even a wish to Nintendo or Game Freak.. it is a request to the gamer. The world of pokémon is changing,opening up to new people or old who are falling in love with the franchise all over again. Please accept this, be welcoming to those who want to share your world with you. That 30 seconds you spare on a single rate by banning that newbie guy because he doesn’t have the thunder T-M and has to use thunderbolt instead may cost HIM/HER/ or otherwise,  hours and hours of fun, because they are forced to give up on a game where no one allows them to learn. So dear Arceus please.. let Pokémon Sword and Shield get a healthy community! I still cry easy when people are mean to me!